𝟎𝟏𝟎. 𝖼𝗈𝗇𝖿𝖾𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌 ＆ 𝗄𝗂𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗌

𝟎𝟏𝟎. 𝖼𝗈𝗇𝖿𝖾𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌 ＆ 𝗄𝗂𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗌

💌 𝖿𝗋𝗆 𝗌𝗒𝖽 𝗉𝗈𝗏

i felt like shit or something along those lines either, it wasn't an feeling one would enjoy because i knew i didnt.

it was like an kid whom just dropped their fresh nice cold ice cream on the sidewalk because some grumpy old man bumped into them

or something worse like handing your beating heart to someone and they just crush it with their bare hand right in front of you with an big nasty smirk on their face.

she ghosted me, that night after halloween which gave me even more of reason to dislike the holiday. i texted and called her several times but never got any reply but worse i sent her instagram reels and she looked at them but never gave me an reply back. (damn that's cold)

for the past weeks i've rotting in my bed bundled up in my sheets watching sad romance movie where the girl dies leaving the deeply in love obsessed heart wrenching man alone for eternity. (one day on netflix)

of course i had eden but nobody could replace this slight pain in my heart other than her but she didn't want me.

my door opened slightly revealing eden, "how are you babes?", she asked and i sighed, "emily just got hit by a car so i don't know i feel kinda shitty", i cry as i point at the tv as one day played.

eden gave me an sad look but she looked behind her and then back at me which raised my suspicions. "what are you looking at?", i raised my eyebrows at her sneakiness.

she sighed her head falling down, "she's here",she mumbled but it was barely audible. "what", i tilt my head with an confused look on my face.

"she's here", eden spoke louder lifting her head up and opening my door all the way showing paige whom stood tall behind her with her hands filled with flowers, an box and some ice cream.

i scoff quickly wiping her tears not daring to let her see me like this, "what is she doing?", i ask eden and eden bites the inside of cheeks and shrugged, "just listen to her", as all she said as she left us alone.

there was an adwarkd silence as we stared at one another, mines with anger and hers filled with sorrow. "may i come in?", she asks quietly probably in the most quietest tone i've ever heard from her.

i nod my head slightly pausing the netflix show and sitting up straight leaning against my headboard as she walked into the room.

"don't mind the mess some son of a bitch ghosted me which lead to the mess, you probably know her", i spat and paige sighs as she sits on the edge of the bed handing me the items in her hand.

i look at the flowers smelling them they smell like shit and NO FLOWER smells good but i thank her slightly placing them on my bed side along with the ice cream and book as i turn my attention back to her.

"so...", i trail

"i-i like you syd", she confesses fiddling with her fingers and  look at her as if she was crazy, "well you have a funny way of showing it", i say with an bitter tone.

she sighs, "i know your upset and mad and probably don't want to talk or see me right now but you can please be reasonable just for right now", she pleaded. i nod and let her continue a little bit of guilt washing over me for my rude act.

"i like you sydney and not as friends but I've liked you since that night at that bar which was almost around 2 months ago but i can't put an time on my feelings or stop how i feel about you because if im being honest I haven't felt this way in a long time or... at all", she rambles

"but this feeling i feel with you is amazing and it's so beautiful and it's something im willing to lose and i know you feel it too sydney... you have to feel because then I'll look really dumb saying all of this", she looked up at me with tears in her eyes. "I'm sorry that I ghosted you, i-I just didn't have the courage back then to tell you this and im sorry that it took me not having you to realize that", she finished.

god damnit

there was an silence as we just stared at each other, I couldn't find the words that would mean just as much as hers or any words for that matter.

she sighs wiping her tears with the back of her hand and standing up from the bed with an sad smile on her face, "it's okay, you don't have to feel the same way but I feel better that I told you", she said as she walked towards the door.

"wait-", i spoke and she turned around to look at me with her hand on the door knob. "I've liked you since that night at the bar too...and im kind of embarrassed to say this but for the first time in a while you made me feel like me and not the person i made up to fit those around me to fit in... and im not sure what this means for us but i feel that same feeling not as friends", i confess.

she smiles at me walking towards me leaning down nearly an inch apart from my face, she stares into my eyes before her eyes trail down to my lips.

"please, may i kiss you?", she asks with an soft groan and i nod with an smile an spilt second later her lips met with mine.

her lips were so soft and tasted like vanilla which caused me to hum softly at the nice taste, she smirked into the kiss as she pulled away and looked me in my eyes wrapping her hand softly around my neck.

"god", she mumbles as i wrap my hand around her wrist of the hand that was on my neck as she pulls me in for another kiss but lord have mercy this girl WAS starving.

after an slight make out, i pull away and pull her into an hug as she places her head into my shoulder. "let's do this right syd, the first date and all... i want this to be perfect", she mumbles into my neck and i nod my head letting out an soft okay.

💌

𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗈𝖿 𝖼𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗍𝖾𝗋 𝟢𝟣𝟢，

𝖼𝗈𝗇𝖿𝖾𝗌𝗌𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌 ＆ 𝗄𝗂𝗌𝗌𝖾𝗌

𝖺𝗎𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗋 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝖾

perfect ayeee 👍🏾

but nah frl paige ain't the only one starving ... i fear i am too.