𝟎𝟎𝟗. 𝖽𝗂𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗇𝗍

𝟎𝟎𝟗. 𝖽𝗂𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗇𝗍

💌 𝖿𝗋𝗆 𝗉𝖺𝗂𝗀𝖾 𝗉𝗈𝗏

i should've never went to her apartment that night yet alone even be that close to her.

she had just got out an toxic relationship, struggling with school and coming back to her old self. the last thing she needed was me being stuck in the way.

i haven't talked or seen her since because i've been keeping my distance to give her space but god knows i miss her more than anything right now.

her smile, her brown skin, her laugh that warmed my heart and the way she was vibrant everywhere she goes.

she always made me feel good and always bought out the good side of me because it was hard not too when she was around and it was safe to say that I've been acting like a bitch since I've last seen her because I was deeply deprived of her.

i sighed as i sat down in the locker room sweat beads dripping from my face as i took my water bottle and downed it hydrating myself.

"what the fuck was that on the court p, coach was on our ass just because of you", nika spoke to me and i roll my eyes. "so what we all mess up sometimes", i say and she scoffs. "that wasn't an mess up that was an fuck up", she nudges my shoulder slightly.

i stand up in front of her face and nudge her back harder making her lose her balance a bit. "how about you back the off", i spat her and she nudged me back again making his go back and forth.

"HEY CUT THIS SHIT OUT", azzi yells at her us standing in the middle of us making the rest of the team look around at us. "both of you go cool off and sort this shit out like adults and stop acting like fucking kids and paige get your shit together", she waved us off.

it was no secret that azzi was the mom of our team and always kept us together when stuff got down like this but i never got this heated.

i scoff grabbing my things leaving the locker room and making way to the car driving back to the dorm to take an shower and take an moment as Azzi told me too.

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there was an soft knock on my door and i sighed knowing it could only be azzi. "come in", i mumbled closing my laptop leaving my assignment for another time.

she opened the door slightly and walked in closing the door behind her. she looked at me with an bit of anger but pity more than anything.

"im fine azzi", i lie as she sits on my bed and stares at me. "no you're not and you haven't been since Halloween... so tell me what happened", she said in a demanding tone more than asking.

there was an silence before i told her about that night, she raises her eyebrows as i finish the story. "so what's the problem p, you like her and she likes you... that's a good thing", she places her hand on top of mines.

i look up at her with slight tears in my eyes, "azzi... it's like having an crush all over again that i can't have and gosh it's...", tears slap against my face.

"you'll never know how she feels about you unless you sit down and talk to her p and yeah you just came out of an relationship but that doesn't mean what you guys have is any less real", azzi smiled at me which caused my lips to raise slightly into a half smile.

"if im being honest ive never seen you this happy or carefree in a while, i think shes a good person... I know she is and she doesn't deserve this. SO GET YOUR ASS UP AND STOP BEING A BITCH AND TALK TO HER", azzi pulled me by the arm yanking me off my bed.

i groaned, "she probably hates me now", i confess and azzi roll her eyes. "there's no way she can hate you by the way you've described her, she might be a little angry but im sure it'll all go away when she sees your beautiful face", azzi teased pinching my cheeks making me slap her hands away.

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i leaned on the back of my heels with several types of flowers in my hand along with tub of butter pecan ice cream and an book that I've seen on her TBR list on the kitchen fridge.

i shook my head as i walked away from the apartment door but pause as i turnt back around... it's now or never. i knocked softly on the door three times and waited for the door to open. you could hear the locks unlocking and eventually the door opened revealing eden.

"oh no", she looked back inside the apartment and back at me with an nasty glare before she walked outside the apartment leaving the door opened slightly.

"i-eden", before i could even start eden pushes me. "she liked you, she trusted you and even fucking let you see her in her MOO MOO", she whispered yelled at me. "AND YOU HAVE SOME NERVE TO GHOST HER", she pushes me again.

i took the pushes and the yells because i knew i deserved it, it's been almost 2 weeks ever since. "and you've got some silly ass nerve showing up here with all this bullshit", she pauses and looks at me.

i sigh and look around in shame, "eden i know b-but you have to let me talk to her and explain... and y-you just have to please... let me talk to you", i plead and eden narrows her eyes looking at the stuff in my hand.

she sighs and rolls her eyes, "she could kill me if i even let you in b-but i think you're good paige and whatever reason why you ghosted her is at least an decent reason and she deserves to know so... go ahead", she says and i thank her walking into the apartment.

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𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗈𝖿 𝟢𝟫，

𝖽𝗂𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗇𝗍．

𝖺𝗎𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗋 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝖾

give me some songs recommendations because ive been listening to the same shit on repeaattttttt

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but lmk what yall thinkkk