CHAPTER 62

CHAPTER 62 : Sweet dilemmas

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"I am not dying" Fawad tried to shoot his last shot , but it failed miserably as Safia just cried in his arms . His eyes fell on the phone which was laying down . With his free hand , he stared at the text of Rudhra .

The situation was clear now . But he didn't had any idea about how to handle it . His main focus was on calming Safia .

He rubbed her back , caressed her hairs , whispered sweet words but when nothing worked , he just sat hugging her letting her tears fall on his shirt . He decided to hold her until she calm down .

But he didn't realised the depth of the situation until the next two days .

"She really haven't spoken a word?", Seth asked with whisper standing outside of Safia's ward.

"No , but that's not my main worry . The main problem is....she have stopped eating too . Last night , I forcefully fed her but that was all" Fawad was worried .

"I-I don't know what to say Mr Siddiqui, but please make my sister alright" Ismail requested.

"I want her-I mean Fawad wants her to be okay and she will be fine too . She is just not able to get on the fact" Seth tried to explain .

"That's why I was hiding it ! But that Rudhra...come to think of it, where is he even?" Fawad asked clenching his fist .

"I don't know , maybe hiding in his girlfriend's house" Seth answered.

"He better stay there , because if he comes in front of me that will be his last day" Fawad warned.

Ismail just gulped nervously staring at the whole scene .

"OH NO!" Ismail tiredly exclaimed as he looked inside from the small glass attached on the wooden door.

"What happened?" Seth asked.

"She started to cry again" Ismail frowned and Fawad rubbed his temple "Even I didn't cried or was sad this much after knowing I am about to die" Fawad exclaimed.

"Now go !! You brought this upon yourself by hiding it from her" Seth pushed him inside opening the door of the ward.

Safia silently wiped her tear not even glancing at the door. Fawad walked in the awkward silence.

"Are you still angry?" Fawad asked but when no reply came , he frowned and sat near her leg. He stared at her face , which had no expression just few tears which kept falling down her eyes.

"Safia..if you want you can scold me or even curse me . But please don't be this silent. Atleast say something-" Fawad requested while taking her feet in his own hand , and started to massage it a bit . Safia swiftly drew back her feet and folded them.

"Safia...sweetheart...darling??" Fawad tried to use all the nicknames but Safia just stayed silent.

"Just tell me what do you want me to say or do , and stop this silent treatment" Fawad pleaded.

"Get your operation done tomorrow" She told him . It was the first time she had spoken in the past two days.

"You know I can't do that" Fawad told her in a soft voice but she turned her head on the side wiping her tears from her palm silently.

"Safia..." Fawad put a hand on her shoulder but she shrugged it off .

"Okay look...I can't do surgery . It will need a lot of arrangements and doctor's appointment. You understand that right?" Fawad asked her.

"Fool someone else Mr Siddiqui. You are a buisness man . If you want , you can get all the doctors in India on your one call . Don't give me reasons" Safia said with irritation. "Just say you don't want to be with me and end it all"

"Safiaa...don't say like this please"Fawad tried to hold her hand this time , but she slapped his hand back .

"Stay away . I am speaking now okay ? But stay away . I don't want to be with you if that's what you want . Take your money back . I will transfer it all back" Safia was frustrated and she turned her face again , not wanting to face Fawad.

"Safia , that money belongs to you okay ? Don't return it to me . Please for my sake have it" Fawad tried to make her accept the money , knowing it's for her future .

"Why will I accept anything for your sake ? Have you ever...ever done anything for my freaking sake?!" Safia asked angrily staring deep in Fawad's eyes.

Seth entered the room with frustration.

"Safia , I didn't intended to hear your conversation, but just know whatever Fawad is doing is for your sake only" Seth said interrupting.

"Get out Seth, I am talking with her already "Fawad tried to cut Seth's conversation.

"What's the need of hiding things now ? Like seriously? She knows everything," Seth then turned towards Safia"And just know that , he is delaying his surgery for your sake too . If it happens there are chances he forget you"

"Let it happen! I don't care ! If he fell in love with me once , can't it happen again ? It's seriously stupid" Safia was angry at Seth too , and if she didn't felt weak , she was sure Seth will handle her fist too .

Fawad was doing a proper suicide in front of everyone by delaying the surgery and his friends were supporting him. She thought that Seth was intelligent, but this time even he felt stupid to her .

"Do you think it's easy to forget our memories together?" Fawad looked at her .

"I never thought I would be the most intelligent in a room with two ceos , but hear me out . How is one year worth of memory more than the memories we can make during our whole life?" Safia asked Fawad .

"On top of that , it's just something which can happen , not something which would happen" Safia wanted to convince Fawad by her silence , but now that he wasn't understanding, she wanted to pursue him by her words.

"I don't want to forget about you" Fawad frowned.

"And I don't want to live without you" Safia said with tears whelming in her eyes.

"Fine..I will get a surgery done , just let me deal with my father once" Fawad promised her not wanting to see her cry more.

"Okay.."

Fawad took a sign in relief . He was still scared of forgetting about her , but by Safia on his side , he thought it wouldn't be that much of a bad idea . In case it happens.

But what he couldn't compromise on was Safia's safety . With his father around , he wasn't sure if she would be safe or not .

"But.." Safia turned her head towards Fawad with a tight liped smile .

Her second word was enough for Fawad's heart to sink again .

"But?" Fawad asked .

"I won't be eating anything until you have surgery—and tomorrow is the day ramazan will start , because news is saying that the moon of ramzan have already been seen in Saudi"  Safia told him , "You can delay the surgery as long as you want and I will keep all my fasts with a date only"

"Sweetheart-"

"No Mr Siddiqui, you can't melt me with your sweet words or nicknames . If you can't compromise , I won't either . Finish this as soon as possible, because... tomorrow is not only Chand Raat , but along with it , after midnight my birthday will start . I never thought it to be a big thing , and never celebrated it . But for once in my life , I want to celebrate it " Safia said while putting a hand on Fawad's hands .

Her hands were cold , primarily due to her weakness . But even the cold touch was enough to make him feel warm at his heart . Her touch made him melt .

"Fine then...start preparations for your birthday" Fawad told her . He stared at the clock , it was 8 pm now . He looked at her with a light smile " Give me time till tomorrow midnight and we shall restart our fairytale"

He didn't wanted to break her heart further and it was unfair to make her wait for him any longer.

Safia gave a little nod with a smile . She waited for so long to be together with him , just one more day wouldn't be a big deal for her.

Seth stared at her , and then at Fawad. He didn't knew how Fawad would defeat Khalid in just one day . The plan was supposed to unfold slowly and take place in a span of four months . Only Allah knew how he will finish all the plan till tomorrow midnight, but he hoped for the best.

"Seth please wait for me outside for a minute. We need to get to our plans now" Fawad told Seth , who gave a little nod and head outside .

After seeing that Seth was gone . Fawad kneeled down in front of Safia , who was sitting on the bed. He stared in her eyes , but Safia felt shy under his gaze and she quickly looked down.

Fawad took her hand in his own , and placed a peck on the back of her hand.

"I know , I haven't confessed to you yet . Every time I wanted to do it, I thought to wait for the perfect moment, but maybe the most perfect moments are those which I spend with you . So Safia...my darling wife.." Fawad said and took a deep breath , he knew that Safia was already aware of his feelings but still the thought of confessing it made him shy.

Safia stared at him excitedly . She wanted to hear those words since the longest time and now it was finally the time , she couldn't believe it.

"I love you Safia Yousuf Siddiqui. I wish these words were enough to make you understand how much I love you" Fawad wanted his words to come out as super romantic or anything but dry....but considering he was raised to be like this , he tried his best .

A small laugh escaped Safia's lips as she saw his face with evident displeasure. He clearly hated how dry his proposal turned out to be .

"Ugh , forget it. I will try it another time in a perfect environment" Fawad quickly said, trying to handle the situation which he thought he had ruined. He got up from the ground but Safia held his wrist.

"But didn't you said that every moment with me is perfect?" Safia asked.

"Yes I said but that's not what I said , like that's exactly what I said but that's not what I meant-" Fawad blabbered desperately wanting to convey how much she actually meant to him , and how little did his words made his feelings seem.

Safia stood up from the bed with a slight struggle.

"You words are confusing Mr Siddiqui...but, your actions are clear" She smiled and tipi toed planting a soft kiss on his cheek.

"I love you too" Safia confessed overwhelmed with emotions. The wait for all those months had finally came to an end .

To be continued.......

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I know a lot of things are unsolved , but they will clear up and maybe this book will come to an end till the next 10 chapters or 15 chapters . So do shower it with lots of love !!!!