CHAPTER 38

CHAPTER 38: Nightmares & Incomplete Confessions

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Rudhra's pov

The room was dark , with no ounce of light appearing anywhere . I kept walking slowly towards the other room , from where a small light was coming out .

My heart dropped . It's repeating again .

Each and everything.

I knew what I was about to see, yet I couldn't control my steps and walked , almost peaking in the room from the side . A lady was craddling a small child in her arms , humming a tone. Her back was facing me , yet I knew who she was.

"Why aren't you talking?" The lady asked the kid and I could feel myself getting pale.

"Why aren't you talking my child ?" She asked again , this time crying harder.

"Tell me why isn't my sweet daughter talking!" She turned around and my eyes teared up and my throat felt like a metal chain was tied around his throat , choking him .

Her eyes were filled with tears , and her whole face was sore . She had cuts across her face , and body. What was more horrifying was the child in her arms , which was drenched with blood .

"Tell me why?!" She asked again .

"She's—She's dead !" I answered . I have answered this countless times before , everytime . But it repeated again . I just wanted to get over with it.

"She's not dead ! You killed her ! You killed my child Rudhra! Why did you do it ?!" She asked .

"Augustus was your friend ! You are a monster " She cried.

'I-I am a monster' I clenched my fist with the fear of knowing who I actually was.

I always knew I was one , but this time , the words felt more heavier . It wasn't a term anymore which made me feel powerful , instead weak . Way more weak than I could ever think.

"MONSTER !"

I looked around , and the people, who I have killed before gathered around me , walking towards me slowly as I kept backing off.

" YOU ARE A MONSTER" Everyone shouted in a high pitch voice and my ear drums felt like it would tear .

"You can never have your own family, after destroying ours !" They said , and I backed off as much as I could , almost coming back in the first hallway . They all came towards me , but before I could move even more behind , hot chains came and wrapped around my hands and feet stopping me from moving behind.

"It's the chains of hell Rudhra, you are wrapped in it—Just your death is separating both of you" Zeheb told him .

"Rudhra !"

"RUDHRA WAKE UP!"

The voice started to blur out.

"Rudhra !!" I opened my eyes with a gasp.

"Are you fine ?" An unknown girl asked me .

I just backed away and stood up silently . My heart was still pounding hard against my chest . It wasn't the first time I saw this dream and I knew it wouldn't be the last one .

My heart was beating loudly against my chest.

"Why are you crying Rudhra , here have some water please" She passed me a water bottle which I just pushed back . My mind was fuzzy and I quickly walked towards the washroom to ways my face .

The water which dripped down my face felt like it was droplets of blood dripping down my chin. I closed my eyes and kept spalshing water on my face to calm myself down.

Author's pov

Aditi frowned as she saw the wierd behaviour of Rudhra . She just stood outside the washroom worriedly , wanting to know what actually happened . She was just here with the notes of today's classes. Most of her and Safia's classes were same , and those which weren't, she took the notes of those from her friends.

She just decided to drop a text to Safia , gesturing that she was at her home to deliver notes and again shifted her focus on Rudhra .

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Safia opened her eyes , due to the continuous moving of the seat . But instead it wasn't the seat of a car , but a train. She opened her eyes wide and looked on the side in utmost surprise.

There was a huge window , and her head was rested on it.

She backed away and looked at her surroundings.

"Mr Siddiqui, are we in a train? Like a train ?? How did we got here , I was—I was asleep" She whispered in surprise trying to remember how she got here and Fawad , who was removing his coat passed her a smile.

"I carried you . No worries though , nobody was there on that platform" Fawad told her . Afterall , it was 3 am when he picked the train .

"How much time have passed" She asked staring at the dark blue sky which was changing its colour into a lighter hue.

"You have been sleeping through the entire evening and night.  I tried to feed you some yogurt , but that's all you had since the night . So have it" He passed her a plastic box with pasta in it .

"How did you even got—"

"I ordered it . Thankfully restaurants have started to give the option of delivery at railways too" Fawad told her .

"You didn't needed to do this" Safia felt her heart warm up and she got up to hug Fawad . But this time instead of side , she hugged him from front , crouching down at his level, as he was seated.

Noticing her discomfort, he pulled her closer to him , making him seat on his lap . Safia was flustered by this move , as his arm circled around her waist , pulling her towards him as much as she could and he snuggled his face in her nape.

"I needed to. There is nothing in this world , I wouldn't want to do for you" He whispered lovingly , and she just slightly hugged him back .

Their chests were close to each other and they could almost feel each other's gentle breath on their skins . The warmth of their bodies mixed with each other and Fawad's strong scented perfume filled Safia's lungs with its scent . It was like his love , which she could feel deep inside her bones always . His gaze which always bore beneath her skin .

What was the weirdest part was that despite the strong feeling of attraction towards each other , this was the closest they ever got to the other . On top of that , they never confessed to each other till now .

"Safia, I want to tell you something —"Fawad told her , and she pulled away , and her hair was slightly messy , covering her eyes .

He pushed the hairs behind her ear with an adoration.

"I wanted to tell this to you for a long time . I know it is not the most perfect moment , like the ones in the book — instead of a hotel with rose petals we are on a train ,and instead of night it's morning , but I can't just keep it inside my heart for long . I just hope you hear my words out and give them a thought, because a part of me thinks—maybe you share those feelings for me too" He said and Safia's heart started to pound against her chest as she waited for him to confess.

'Just say it' She thought to herself.

Her lips parted in anticipation and she wanted to answer that she loves him too as soon as he confesses . He stared at her face and came near her face .

In a slow voice , he whispered ,

"I —"

*Tring *

*Tring*

*Tring*

*Tring*

Safia pressed her lips tightly and stared at the phone call in irritation.

"Give me 10 minutes it's dad" Fawad said dryly and his whole mood went downhill . He wanted to get up but Safia was on his lap .

He hated the thought of getting up , after this moment which he waited for since a long time . Safia noticed that he was about to get up and quickly stood up feeling embarrassed.

"I-I am sorry—" She appolgized.

"You don't need to"he quickly cut her words off with wide eyes , why she even apologize for something like that . He was the one who pulled her in his lap.

"Why? I just sa-"

"I like it" Fawad told her , and her face flustered , and before he could say more , the phone again started to ring .

He frowned in irritation.

"Give me 10 minutes Safia , we will continue our talk later" Fawad walked outside the compartment in annoyance.

"What happened dad?" He asked and the tone of irritation was evident.

"What happened?! You didn't attended the meeting . Nobody did ! We are having a damn loss of 40 crores!" Khalid scoffed.

"I don't care , whatever the amount is " Fawad irritatedly said.

"I will just earn it back" Fawad added.

"Earn it back ?! Screw off ! You said you are marrying to give me heir and there is no heir till now . I don't trust your words anymore Fawad. You are becoming like that darn brother of mine" Khalid cursed.

"Dad , I don't know who my uncle was . But I have started to understand why he left you with time" Fawad said and cut the phone.

For the very first time , he mustered up the courage to confess to Safia , but like every good thing his father interrupted him . Although he knew he should be scared of what the outcome could be , but his heart couldn't feel fear .

He just walked inside the compartment, only to see Safia calling Aditi and apologizing for missing her calls.

She passed Fawad an apologetic look and stretched her five fingers asking for five minutes , to wind up the call.

He just gave slight nod , and looked outside the window , knowing that their stop was about to come in no time , where they could spend their alone time for a whole week.

To be continued...

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Ofcourse Khalid won't let it slide , but for now , let's keep him aside and enjoy the romantic moments —while they last ofcourse