Chapter 90

They had rejected each other ? When ? How ? Did Damon think I was rubbing it in when I talked to him yesterday ? Fuck I wasn’t … I was late apologising … And although I won’t deny it gave me hope , it also meant he had taken himself out of the running because of me .

At that moment , I knew that even if things became better between us , they would never return fully to how they once used to be .

Once we parked outside a hotel , pulling the oversized hoodie over her , I helped her out of the car , holding two of the bags full of ice cube packs .

There was more in the car but I needed to get her some sort of relief from this pain quickly .

Pain that I had inflicted upon her , when the fuck will I ever stop causing her pain ? I could smell her arousal , a thousand fucking times stronger than ever and I was hard .

The urge to mate with her was fucking strong but I refused to even think about that .

I lifted her onto my shoulder the moment I had our key card and entered the lift .

Once we were in the room , I dropped the bags and placed her on the bed , pulling her hoodie off .

My eyes trailed over her body , those perfect round breasts in that lace black bra .

With her narrow waist , curvy hips and sexy thighs , in only her heels and those net tights , it only added to how fucking hot she looked .

” I’m going to run you a bath .

” I said , trying not to look at her pussy , licking my lips .

She looked up at me , her eyes full of desire , pain and something else .

She nodded , curling up .

I rushed to the bathroom , I had asked for a room with a large tub .

Relieved it was a decent size , I opened the cold tap .

She screamed and I froze , turning back to the bedroom and rushing over to her .

Fuck … ” Liam … it hurts .

” She whimpered , her legs parted and her back arched .

” Ok wait … ” I ran my fingers through my hair .

This was torture .

I deserved it though .

Opening the top ice bag , I grabbed a handful .

Walking to the bed , I climbed between her legs , dropping the ice onto the bed .

Keeping one in my hand , I ran it over her lips , watching the water melt and trickle down her neck .

She was burning hot … I leaned in , claiming her lips in a deep kiss .

Instantly , her hands grabbed the back of my neck , pulling me on top of her .

One of her legs wrapped around my waist before she yanked my jacket off , ripping my shirt down the centre .

‘ I want you , Liam .

‘ She begged .

‘ No baby , but I’ll help , I promise .

I can’t take anything more from you .

‘ I whispered tenderly .

I felt awful .

I had ruined her marking ; I was not going to ruin her first time ..

I trailed the ice cube between her breasts , m y lips still devouring hers .

Fuck , she was delicious … She fought for dominance , kissing me hungrily , moaning in satisfaction when I plunged m y tongue into her mouth .

Her moans alone were enough to make me come .

Goddess … this was so good … I broke away , grabbing another two cubes and trailing them down her stomach before I reached her tights and tore them open from the middle .

She stretched her luscious thighs for me and I pushed her panties aside , rubbing the cube over her She groaned in pleasure , her back relaxing as she whimpered in satisfaction .

” That feels good ….

” She whispered .

I smirked , pleased that this was working … I slowly pressed the cube to her entrance , making her gasp in pleasure as I slowly pushed it further into her .

Oh fuck ! ” She whined hornily .

Once it was completely inside her hot core , I flicked her clit with my tongue , before flattening it to her base and running it up along her dripping core slowly , growling in approval at how fucking good she tasted .

She whimpered , her hand tangling in my hair painfully perfect .

I couldn’t stop the groan of pleasure as 1 flicked and sucked her clit faster , slipping another ice cube into her molten hot core .

hard .

” Oh FUCK ! ” She cried out as she came I rubbed my nose against her clit , drinking up her scent before I moved back , kissing her lips softly , ” Thanks … ” She whispered , clearly feeling calmer .

I gave her a small smile , caressing her .

hair .

” You look beautiful … You always do .

As much as I want to take this pain away , I know you’re not fully there and when … If , the time comes and you want to give yourself to me , I’ll promise it will be perfect .

” I whispered , placing a single chaste kiss on her lips before moving away , hoping the tub was full .

I grabbed two ice bags and left the room .

Swearing when I saw the water was dangerously high .

Shit .

Quickly , I unplugged it , draining some out before dumping the ice into it and re plugging it .

There .

Perfect .

I returned to the bedroom , freezing in my tracks when I looked at her .

Her bra strap was off her shoulder , her sexy legs were parted and she was slipping another cube into herself with one of her delicate fingers .

Fuck … She looked up at me with those eyes coated with lust and desire .

” Like what you see , baby ? ” She asked .

” You know I fucking do … ” I said , the hard -on in my pants was fucking painful .

She tilted her head , smiling slightly as I walked over to the bed .

As much as she was fucking tempting me , I would not take advantage of her .

Not again .

I lifted her bridal style and carried her to the bathroom .

Placing her on the floor I stripped off her net tights , about to place her in the bath when she reached behind and unhooked her bra .

” Raven … Are you trying to torture me on purpose ? ” I asked , swallowing hard as I stared at her breasts … This was the most naked I had seen her in one go … Fuck …..

In nothing but her panties , she looked ….

so fucking good … There was just something s o hot about her , from her size to her curves .

She giggled weakly , spinning around and hooking her fingers in her underwear .

” The fabric is chaffing my skin .

” She ..

whined , wriggling her ass .

I looked away as I saw her discard her panties from the corner of my eye .

Praying for fucking strength .

I felt the darkness trying to surface and pushed it away .

Not again .

I helped her into the bath without looking at her , satisfied when she let out a sigh of relief , sinking into the tub until a I could see above the surface was her face and her hair splayed around her .

” I’m going to get more ice from the car , o k ? “

There was still some in the bedroom , but we needed more … ” Ok … Sorry for teasing you .

I’m just … ” ” In heat .

” I finished .

Leaning over the tub , I kissed her lips softly .

” I’ll take care o f you but I do need to tell someone .

What about Mom ? Because when night falls Dad will want to know where I am .

“

She frowned , and seemed to think , before whimpering and nodding .

” Only your parents then .

” She said .

I nodded , before leaving the room and linked Mom .

Hoping we were still in range ‘

Mom , can you hear me ? ‘ ‘ Liam ? Of course , I can .

‘ ‘ I have an issue and I need you to relax , and maybe I need you here … ‘ ‘ Of course , what is it ? ‘ She asked with worry clear in her voice .

‘ Raven went into heat .

We’re in town , at the Holden Hill Hotel .

I’m in control … I’m ok … but just in case … can you come here ?

I get Dad needs to stay in the pack , but you are strong enough to keep me in control if need be .

‘ I said quietly .

She would be strong enough without a doubt , because I was weaker and completely vulnerable to any attack thanks to the seal Delsanra had put on me .

As for the darkness , I could feel it fighting her barriers , growing stronger .

I knew it would soon break free from her seal , but until then … I’ll do my best .

‘ Got it .

I’m assuming … You two are not going to – ¹ ‘ Obviously , Mom , or I wouldn’t have asked you to come ! ‘

I groaned .

Seriously so fucking cringy .

She laughed .

‘ I went through heat in the same way .

Don’t worry , I will explain stuff to your dad and I’ll be there .

‘ She cut the link and I sighed , this was going to be awkward … Having Mom around when Raven was in heat and I was fucking turned on … But I couldn’t risk Raven’s safety .

Not again .

Three days .

Raven had been in heat for three days and I was a wreck , Resisting her was draining me , I could only imagine how exhausting it was for her .

She begged me to take her several times , saying she loved me , but it was the pain and need for a release that was making her mind a haze .

Mom stayed in the hotel bedroom , bringing food and ice .

She left during certain periods to spend time with Azura but at night she was around , and for most parts of the day .

To my relief , and I am sure to Dad and Mom’s , I didn’t lose control , something I knew Dad was worried about .

I had a feeling Mom had to fight for him to allow me near Raven .

He had mind linked once .

His words were still clear in my mind .

‘ You are my son , and I know you got this … be the man she deserves .

‘ @ I will be .

I will try .

Having Mom around wasn’t as bad as I thought , she didn’t say anything or make anything fucking weird thank fuck : I made Raven come countless times but I refused to take her completely .

My fingers or tongue doing the job , but with each passing day it wasn’t enough .

She needed more .

Despite how weak and exhausted she was , she couldn’t sleep , not with the pain she was in .

Sometimes she’d drift off for a few minutes until the heat forced her awake .

I stayed by her side , staying awake myself , easing her pain as best I could .

” How is she ? ” Mom asked as I walked out of the bathroom , buttoning up my white shirt to hide the scratches made from Raven earlier still covering my torso since I wasn’t healing anymore .

” I think it’s at its worst … ” I said , running a hand through my messy locks .

Momn nodded sympathetically .

” It’s the final day , it’s going to be the hardest today , and the bath won’t help .

A n Alpha’s mark can make the heat a lot more worse , you’ve done well Liam and I trust you will handle it from here on out .

I will be downstairs in my car … if you need me to come up .

If you feel you are losing control , just mind link .

I nodded , feeling embarrassed , knowing exactly why she was leaving … giving us some privacy .

But I get it , I Raven’s whimper made me look back at the open door .

” I’ll be leaving , link ok ? ” Mom said .

I nodded before she walked out the door and I rushed back into the bathroom .

Raven was standing in the tub , about to get out of the ice – filled bath .

” Babe , you got to- ” ” No Liam , please … just … It hurts .

” She said , my stomach twisting when I realised she was crying .

” I know , love , but it’s almost over now .

” I whispered , gripping her hips as she broke into sobs , breaking my heart in the process .

” It hurts .

” She whispered , wrapping her arms around my neck .

She was shaking , her arms weak as she hugged me , sobbing weakly into my shoulder .

The stronger the Alpha … The worse the heat … Guilt consumed me and I held her tightly , stroking her back .

” You said you wanted me … ” She sobbed .

” I do , I want you , every part of you ; to kiss you , make love to you and cherish you .

But I can’t take advantage of you bitesize , you are worth so much more than that .

” I said pleadingly , kissing her shoulder .

” I love you , Liam .

So , so much .

” She whispered .

I cupped her face kissing her tear – stained cheeks before planting a soft one on her lips .

” I love you too , Raven .

Before I even knew what a crush was … you were the little doll I fell in love with .

” I whispered , our eyes meeting .

She smiled weakly before I gently moved back , stripping my top and pants off .

” I’ll sit in the bath with you .

Skin contact will help .

” I said , getting into the ice – cold water that made me hiss .

How the hell was she surviving in this ?

How the hell was she surviving in this ? She nodded and I pulled her into my lap .

She straddled me , wrapping her arms around my neck as she kissed me hungrily .

I kissed her back , but no matter how much I wanted to take her , I wouldn’t .

We were going to get through this the right way .