Chapter 85

The smell of chocolate and brownies filled the air , mixed with Azura’s shrieks of excitement .

Sliding on an oven glove , I took the fresh tray of brownies from the oven , I felt calmer when I baked .

Elijah was playing with Azura , tossing her up in the air and catching her with ease , looking as handsome as he did when I first fell for him .

My king , my mate , my world .

That wouldn’t change , ever , but when you become a mother , the space in your heart grows .

I have three beautiful children that I love more than life itself .

I would die for them , and I would kill for them , but if they make a mistake , I would also be there to tell them that ..

The front door opened , I knew it was Liam from the way he shut the door .

He was always quiet , as if he did not want to disturb anyone .

Kiara was a little louder , but she was with Raven the majority of the time and that girl was loud .

I smiled , remembering their giggles as they thought they were succeeding in stealing snacks from the kitchen .

I shook my head ; we had been young at one point and I knew all those tricks .

‘ Language baby .

‘ I mind linked Elijah , knowing he often forgot his mouth around Azura , I was not happy with that .

” You were under house arrest .

” He said the moment Liam stepped into the kitchen .

” I know .

” He said .

” But I told you I don’t think it’s Owen , so I didn’t really want to leave her alone . ” Hmm , I know but at least for the sake of rules , just stay here .

If she wants , she can come here .

” Elijah said , frowning .

” Ok … Hey , pumpkin .

” Liam said , ruffling Azura’s hair .

” Wiyam ! Daddy , catch me ! ” ” That’s great .

” Liam said before he looked at me , coming over , his gaze fell to the ground .

” Hey , Mom .

” ” He hugged me tightly and I wrapped my arms around his waist .

Goddess , please don’t hurt my son anymore .

” Can we talk when you’re free ? ” He asked quietly .

I looked up at him as I moved back and nodded .

” Let me just cut these brownies … ” He nodded .

” I’ll go take a quick shower ” He left the kitchen and Elijah , who had just finished pouring a glass of milk for Azura who was all ready to have some gooey hot brownies , came over to me , wrapping his arms around me .

Strong sparks coursed through me , sending my stomach into a familiar frenzy , one I was s o used to , yet at the same time , it still made me a jittery mess .

” Things will get better .

” He said huskily , kissing my neck .

” I know .

” I replied .

” You’re fucking strong , Kitten , but it’s ok to not be ok at times .

” He murmured , nibbling at my neck .

I bit back a sigh and nodded , trying to ignore the burning need that was settling into my core .

I turned my head , kissing his lips .

He was right , I just needed to tell Liam how I felt too , even if it meant putting my fears out there .

Twenty minutes later , I had a plate of brownies , milk and some toast on a tray .

I took it to the back glass conservatory , waiting for Liam to come down and join me .

He didn’t take long .

Now dressed in some grey jeans and a teal – coloured T – shirt , he sat down next to me .

” Eat , I’m guessing you didn’t get time for breakfast .

” ” I didn’t get time for anything .

” He mumbled , picking up a slice of toast .

I smiled slightly at that ; my innocent Liam wasn’t as innocent as I once thought .

I watched him eat the toast as he stared out at the garden ; the sun was shining , warming the room nicely and a soft breeze was making the tree branches and grass sway .

My smile faded away and I looked down at the tray .

” Is she … ready ? I know you won’t push her but … ” I asked gently .

” Yeah , I’m not pushing her .

” He said quietly .

I placed my hand on his leg .

” I know , I don’t want her to feel emotionally guilty .

I think she seems to know what she wants now and is stepping up to that .

As much as I’m worried for her , I’m worried about you too .

Talk to m e , Liam .

You’re going through so much ; this curse , the entire mate situation …

” ” It is what it is .

” Liam said , drinking some of the milk before picking up a square of brownie .

” It is , but there’s always a reason for everything the Moon Goddess does .

Grandma Amy knew that Mom , me and Indy were going to come to this pack .

She had a dream but knew it was more .

The fact that she left that note … maybe she foresaw that there is hope Kiara told me that Alejandro was also given a choice when he was in a coma , that he met the Moon Goddess .

The Moon Goddess loves u s all Liam .

I believe , deep down , she isn’t treating you as any less or that you are not enough .

This curse ….

I believe she chose you to end this curse because she knew you were worth it , because you were the one most capable of doing so .

This loophole , or something that she put against Helios ‘ curse , I truly believe that she has faith in you because you are one of the kindest souls I know .

You always put others before yourself .

” I said quietly .

I believe that , I’ve been thinking long and hard .

There has to be a reason , for this curse to choose Liam .

There had to be a reason the moon goddess made him share a mate … I mean , why would she do that knowing it would cause him more conflict ? There was more to this .

” I don’t think I’m as kind as you think , Mom … I don’t want to share her , I can’t …… I want her for myself .

She’s not just an object for us to ‘ share ‘ for fucks sake .

I don’t get why this happened .

Sure , people in polyamorous relationships exist , but it’s not for me .

I can’t share her , and this is me saying this calmly , but I’m leaving it to her … I’m the selfish one here …

if she wants us both … and I’m the one who can’t accept it then …

” He shrugged and my stomach twisted .

” Liam , what are you- ” ” Nothing .

” He said smiling , as he now turned to me .

” I’m sorry Mom , I know I brought back those painful memories .

What I did … It’s not something I can forgive myself for .

I hurt you and Raven … and I’m fucking sorry for that .

He took my hands , my heart squeezing at the sadness in his eyes .

” I don’t deserve the love you give me , the love she gives me .

Even if I got lashed daily for the rest of my life … it wouldn’t b e enough .

Marking someone is … sick , but I promise you , I won’t become him … I won’t hurt you anymore …

I will try to be the son you can be proud of , not the one who causes you to cry endless tears .

” He said , softly cupping my face ” I’m sorry for the pain I’ve caused you , for re opening those old wounds , but I swear on my life itself that I will not become Zidane , because I’m your son and I will never let you down .

” Tears stung in my eyes , I nodded .

” We love you , Liam , and we have faith in you .

” He wrapped his arms around me , rubbing my back gently as I cried silently .

” It did scare me ….

When I saw you covered in blood … ” I whispered , clutching his top .

” I saw him … It just brought everything back .

” ” I know , but I will not let myself become him .

I promise you .

” I nodded as he rested his chin on top of m head , the resolution in his voice was so strong that I truly believed him .