Chapter 84

I wrapped my arms around her , my hands roaming her back .

The feel of her skin through the thin lace of her top sent sparks running through me , fuck she felt s o good .

I throbbed against her , biting back a growl of approval as she leant into me , her fingers grazing the back of my neck .

I nuzzled my nose against her neck , her fresh floral scent clouding my senses as she sighed softly , her lips grazing my earlobe .

My eyes flashed and the urge to kiss her grew stronger , but I couldn’t … ” Liam … ” She moaned breathlessly , the tantalising scent of her arousal seeping into the air .

Fuck … I squeezed her ass , kissing her neck sensually .

The moment my lips trailed along her collar bones , she whimpered loudly , sighing in pure bliss the moment my lips touched her mark .

Extra sensitive .

I’ll change it .

One day I’ll make the memory less painful … somehow .

I wouldn’t last long enough .

The negative dark thoughts came to the forefront of my mind and the doubts grew as the darkness tried to push forward .

Not this time .

I kissed her harder , sucking slightly on her slender neck , guilt wracking me at what I had done .

I had no right to ” Hey … ” She pulled back suddenly , cupping my face as I looked away from her .

” I’m fine .

” I said , unable to look her in the eye .

” You’re not … ” She said softly , reaching u p she placed a soft kiss on the corner of m y lips .

Our eyes met , before my gaze fell to her lips .

This pull … I was torn .

Torn by the animalistic side that wanted to consume her completely , to devour her and fuck her senseless , to the other side that felt guilt for what I had put her through .

Just then , my phone rang .

I was pulled from my thoughts as I slid it out of my pocket .

” Shit , it’s Dad … ” ” You’re meant to be under house arrest .

” She whispered , her gorgeous eyes widening as I answered the call .

” Yeah ? “” You’re meant to be home , Liam .

” Dad’s voice came .

Before I could reply , Raven took the phone from me “ I asked him to stay … ” She said , her cheeks were burning and I fucking swear i t felt like we were kids or something .

I guess it is my own fucking fault .

I heard Dad sigh .

” Raven , I understand you’re mates , but I can’t risk him losing control .

Just come stay here with him .

” ” We’ll be ok .

Uncle , trust me .

” Raven said , despite her blush deepening at Dad’s unbothered tone as he invited her to stay .

” No Raven , rules are rules .

Either you both get the hell over here or Liam can come back , alone .

I am not going to change my mind on that .

” Raven pouted .

” Ok just for today … I’m so tired .

” She pleaded , and I raised an eyebrow .

She didn’t seem tired a few moments ago .

I smirked at that , pulling her close by her hot – as – hell hips .

Goddess , I love her body ” Raven .

” Dad growled .

” Uncle please ! Pretty please ….

” ” Ok fine , first thing in the morning I want him back here .

That’s an order .

” Dad’s voice was firm , but Raven being Raven , simply smiled and nodded , totally un phased .

She did know Dad couldn’t see her nod , right ? She hung up and frowned at me .

” You know , this is your fault ! ” ” Yeah , I know .

” Her frown vanished and she looked at me apologetically .

” I didn’t mean I cut her off , placing a finger on her lips .

” I know … ” I said , giving her a small smile .

She looked up at me , wrapping her fingers around my wrist and kissing my fingertip .

” Let’s get some rest .

Now I feel like Uncle El’s eyes are watching us .

” She grumbled .

” He ain’t no fucking angel .

” ” I know ! I’ve heard the stories !

” She said , taking her heels off .

My eyes fell on her ass .

I looked away smoothly , trying to ignore the hard – on in my jeans .

I removed my own boots and got into bed .

I wasn’t going to take my shirt off , not wanting her to see my back .

Although shifting seemed to have helped the healing , that or the darkness … I wasn’t sure .

I never thought she’d trust me to be anywhere alone around her anymore , not after what I had fucking done , but she did .

The mate bond calmed the growing storm inside of me but I knew my time was running out .

There wasn’t much left until the blood moon and with every passing day , I felt that darkness pushing to the surface , stronger and more powerful .

One I would do my best not to let take over .

It was hard because , although I was trying , it was consuming me completely .

Earlier , when I wanted to rip Owen apart , I had felt my wolf stir and decided to shift .

It did help , that and touching Raven now that I had strengthened the bond but I didn’t want to tell her that she helped because her tolerating me to this extent was enough .

After what I did , she should have fucking put a restraining order on me .

I wasn’t going to abuse that .

Dad had wanted me to stay away from her , but I know he gets that we just can’t stay away from one another .

She was the very oxygen I needed .

I didn’t blame him though , not after I had hurt her and had put him through a lot , Him and Mom .

Even if it was the last thing I did , I would try to fix all this crap , or at least make it less painful for them all .

She was snuggled into my arms now and had fallen asleep pretty fast .

All night I didn’t want to sleep , I actually wasn’t able to when I had a fucking hard on from just looking at her .

Even after what I did , she was still here in my arms , she was fucking selfless .

I hugged her tightly , I didn’t deserve her ….

but I wanted her .

I kissed the top of her head , the beat of her heart like music in my ears , her rhythmic breathing lulling me into a sense of security .

My mind wanted t o ponder on the killer , but I was far too sleepy … The last thing I remembered before I fell asleep was that I was sure the killer was still out there , somewhere .

Ripples of pleasure flowed through me as I felt her run her finger through my hair , I didn’t open my eyes for a while , enjoying her touch .

My hold on her had loosened and I opened my eyes , looking straight at her breasts in that lacy top that she hadn’t changed last night .

Noticing the stickers she had over her nipples … Fuck … Her thigh brushed my dick , which was fucking hard as could be , and she suddenly moved back , realising I had woken up .

” Liam … ” Morning .

” I said quietly , my voice thick with sleep , doing my best not to pull her close and rip that tempting top off .

Instead , I slowly let go of her , looking up into her eyes .

She gave me a small smile , her gaze dipping to my lips .

My heart thudded when she slowly bent down , pressing her lips to mine .

My mind went blank before reality hit me fucking hard … why did this feel too good to be true ? I reached up , threading my fingers into her hair and pulling her closer , deepening the kiss .

She seemed to have other plans though , her hand going down between us until it rested on my rock hard dick .

Fuck … She moaned as she stroked it over my jeans , her lips not leaving mine .

Our kisses became hungrier and I knew if I didn’t stop her now , I wouldn’t be able to at all .

” How’s your back ? ” She asked softly , her fingers unzipping my pants .

” Pretty decent- ” I was pushed on my back as she climbed o n top of me , I raised an eyebrow .

Was this my Raven ? Her cheeks were slightly flushed as she grinded her hips against m y dick , her hands spread on my chest before she bent down and kissed me again .

” Fuck Liam .

” She whimpered as I tugged her closer by her hair , kissing her harder , feeling myself fucking throbbing , but just then , my fucking phone had to ring .

I ignored it , unable to focus on anything but the doll on top of me .

If only there was nothing between The phone rang again .

Raven frowned , glancing towards where I had left it on the bedside table .

To my surprise , she picked i t up , switching it off before tossing it to the floor .

My eyebrows shot up at her move .

” So annoying .

” She said , about to tear my top off when I grabbed her wrists .

” Baby , are you ok ? ” I asked , there was something … different about her .

” Yeah … I just … want you .

” She said , kissing my neck .

I fucking loved her confidence , but there was definitely something – a A bang on the door made me sigh as Raven seemed to come to her senses .

The scent of her arousal filled the room and she took a moment to look between us .

She sighed , climbing off me .

” Guys … Alpha wants Liam back home .

Now .

” Zack’s voice came .

” Honestly , this is payback for all the times I walked in on Uncle El ! ” Raven said , pouting .

I sat up slowly , looking at her , her cheeks still a little flushed .

” Ahuh … ” ” What ? ” She said , seeming to realise I was a bit thrown off .

” I said with a small smirk .

” ” Nothing .

” That was pretty sexy .

She blushed and pouted .

” Trust me , even I don’t know what got into me .

” She said , yanking the door open , Zack and Taylor stood there smirking .

She glared at Zack with her hands on her hips , and I won’t lie , she really did favour some over others …

because she didn’t seem to be giving her own friend any disdainful looks … ” Naughty Alpha … You’re meant to be on house arrest , not getting dessert first thing in the morning .

” Taylor teased .

” And your naughty mate disturbed me .

” Raven countered .

” Oh babe , I think it’s good we did , I don’t want anyone taking advantage of you .

” Taylor said cheekily , giving her a hug .

Wasn’t she taking advantage of me ? Zack raised an eyebrow before turning to me .

” Come on , Alpha was getting really fucking stressed out .

” I stood up , pulling my shoes on before going over to Raven .

I wrapped my arms around her from behind , placing a kiss on her neck .

” I’ll see you later .

” I whispered in her ear , hearing her heart rate pick up .

” Ok .

” She said .

” After you .

” I said to Zack , knowing he had to escort me .

” I’ll stay with Raven .

” Taylor said , planting a quick kiss on Zack’s lips .

The last thing I heard before Raven shut the door was Taylor asking her if she was ok and that she looked a bit flushed , only for Raven to deny it vehemently .

” Your dad wants me to escort you back ” Zack said , leading the way downstairs .

” I figured as much .

” We continued in silence .

There was something I needed to do anyway .

Speak t o Mom … I still remember the pain I felt from her when I was chained up for my lashing , as she whispered to me that I was stronger than this , that I was better than this .

That I was not a monster … Those words had fucking struck home .

I had broken something inside of her that was already not fully mended .

It was as if she was reliving a memory whilst telling both of us that I was not Zidane She had been through so much in life , yet she remained strong .

To a point , I think people forget that she is human after all , and no matter how much time has passed , she has suffered a lot and that doesn’t just go away .

There are things in life that will always trigger trauma , and what I did , it was unforgivable .

I had hurt the two women that I should always worship .

My mother and my mate .