Chapter 201
Accidental Surrogate for Alpha
Ella
Iâm staring at Sinclair in utter shock, wishing I could unhear the words that just came out of his mouth.
Youâre saying that my father is King Xavier?â I gape, all the joy from the last hour slipping away.
The King who died without an heir and led to your fatherâs campaign against Damonâs? The one who
k!lled your mother?â
(We donât know for sure that he k!lled my mother.â
Sinclair soothes, âAnd even if he did, itâs not as though that changes anything.â
âIt means that my father is a murderer â a dead murderer!â I cry, feeling my stomach rise into my throat.
It means he ruled over the city where I grew up in terrible conditions and never⦠never did anything to
make sure I was alright.â
It hadnât even occurred to me that the Goddessâs tale essentially made me a Princess. Iâd latched onto
the fact that my parents wanted me and glossed over everything else she said- like the fact that my
father was a King and that I was chosen to unite humans and wolves. Now that I remember it feels like
the entire world is crashing down around me. Baby, we donât have all the answers yet.â Sinclair quickly
gathers me back into his arms, sensing my quickly fraying nerves. âThis was only your third session
and for all we know, your parents never knew where you ended up. Servants of the goddess might
have taken you and given you to the orphanage, just like they handled binding your wolf andâ¦
whatever the incident in the forest was about.â
But heâs dead.â I repeat, hating that this fact bothers me more than the rest. âI always thought that if I
found my parents Iâd get to meet them⦠and now I never can.â
âXavier is dead.â Sinclair confirms, turning my face up to his. âBut your mother lives, Ella. Queen Reina
left Moon Valley after Xavier died and the last I heard, she dedicated herself to the Goddess. When this
is all over we can find her.â
âReina?â I murmur realizing Iâd never heard the Queen addressed by her name. Thatâs the surname
they a.ssigned me at the orphanage. I always went by Ella Reina. â
âMaybe that was her gift to you⦠a clue to find her when the time came.â Sinclair suggests.
âAnd the Goddess?â I ask, feeling suddenly so overwhelmed with emotion that everything seems numb,
too convoluted to identify any single feeling from the tangled mass. âShe called herself one of my
parents too⦠and she knew all of it, she sent those wolves to bind me, like you said.â
She also said it all happened for a reason.â Sinclair reminds me tenderly. âI know it feels like no reason
could ever be worth such terrible trauma, but she must have thought it was necessary. I canât believe
she would have done it otherwise.â
âSo youâre taking her side?â I sniffle, burying my face in his neck.
Never.ââ He retorts, stroking my spine. âFrom now until eternity, your side is the only one I will ever
take⦠and If I ever come face to face with that b!tch Iâll punch her right in her beautiful face. Weâl just
see how long she stays prettier than me once I get my hands on her.â
I hiccup a laugh, sliding my arms around his neck.«
Thank you.â I whisper, tilting my face up for a k!ss.
He doesnât disappoint me, and we sink down onto the bed together, determined to make the most of
the time we have left in the dream.
3rd Person
Roger was lying in his suite, trying to wrap his brain around the dayâs events when a knock sounded at
his door. He rose and crossed the room, his nose picking up on his new favorite scent, though he could
scarcely believe it was real.
But sure enough, when the door swung open, Cora leaned in the doorframe, her dark eyes wide and
vulnerable. âYou still wanna have that drink?â
âof course,â He ushered her in and took her ordÄr, preparing the requested c0cktail without a word â
waiting for her to take the lead.
âDonât turn this into something itâs not,â Cora warned as he handed her the glass. âIâve just had a really
long day and I just need to decompress a bit.â
âDo you want to talk about it?â Roger inquired, certain she would turn down the offer.
But she surprised him again, âI think I might be a terrible person.â She admitted dolefully.
âWhy do you say that?â Roger asked, fixing his own drink.
âElla thinks if she doesnât tell me about all the secrets sheâs uncovering, then I wonât find out⦠she
doesnât seem realize that sheâs a celebrity here.â
Cora shook her head. âItâs all over the palace already, the long lost daughter of King Xavier, of the
Goddess herself- however that works.â
âOkay?â Roger asked, knowing better than to guess what was bothering her.
âThe point is that if anyone deserves to be happy⦠itâs my sister.â Cora groused, trailing off.
âBut.?â Roger prompted.
âBut we were always each otherâs only family.â Cora shared bleakly. âSure, when we were little, we
hoped and prayed that our parents would come for us⦠thatâs a hope that never really goes away. But
the older we got, we were bonded by the fact that we never knew where we came from and never
would.
We chose each other to be our family. And now she might find her real one and I.. Iâm angry at her. Iâm
angry that sheâs getting answers that I never will.
âAre you afraid that she wonât need you anymore if she finds them?â Roger inquired gently. âBecause
thatâs not going to happen.â
I wish it were that â that would be easier than the truth.â Cora confessed miserably. âFear is forgivable.
Jealousy is just selfish and petty⦠But I am jealous. It feels like this is just another way that the world
revolves around Ella. It was hard enough when she was just my brilliant, beautiful little sister. No matter
what happened to her, she never fell apart, and even though she was good at everything, she was
never prideful about it.â
âI became a doctor, thinking a prestigious job might even the playing field⦠but she could have been
one too, she just didnât want to. She only ever wanted to teach children and have a family. Then I got
the job at the s.perm bank and learned this h.uge secret about the world, I was doing science unlike
anything I could have hoped for and I didnât mind keeping the secret about shifters because I felt
special for the first time in my life.â Cora revealed, her eyes shining. âThen Ella turns out to be a wolf.
And now.. sheâs an actual princess, a gift from the Goddess.
Roger sighed, understanding only too well. âYou know, sometimes I find that when I have a horrible,
unconscionable thought. Something so terrible that it shames me to my core, that sometimes saying it
out loud can help, because then at least I can acknowledge it and let it go.â
Cora nodded slowly. âItâs wrong and cruel of me to feel this way, after everything she did for me, after
everything sheâs been through. I know that⦠But,â Cora professed, taking a deep breath. Ella shouldnât
get to find her family too⦠I want to win, just once.â
Roger watches as she buries her face in her hands. Why canât I figure out how to define myself outside
of her? This is my life, not hers, so why does our relationship have so much power over me? Why canât
I figure out how to be my own person?
âIf anyone understands that, itâs me.â Roger assured her, resting a gentle hand on her shoulder.
Hell, I plotted against my brother with his enemy, I actually helped attack his mate -»
Wait, what?â Cora interrupted. âAre you talking about Lydia, or Ella?â
âWhy, Ella. That night behind the club.â Roger paled as he realized his mistake, âI thought you knew.â
âNo.â Cora hissed slamming her drink down. âI did not. Explain â right now.â