CHAPTER 141 **Why Do I have to save the world!?**

The information that she was seeing, but having a hard time understanding, made Sahara feel completely overwhelmed!

She had been right! The spiritual essence was its own thing or whatnot…It was…Real…

And fucking scary!

“Young one, we are giving you the last chance before this happens once again.”

“…Wait, what!? What do you mean!?” Sahara quickly said, knowing to fear these words. It was obvious that the spiritual essence was not happy…But what was the story, what is she trying to stop!?

…Then, Sahara was back to seeing Matthew in front of her…

Breathing heavily and having unknown tears fall down her face, Sahara shakily saw through the walls at all the different spiritual essence that was around.

It was no longer the abundant pink color that she had always seen beforehand…No…There were all different colors!

But not only could she see the colors, but she could feel…Feel that the spiritual essence was angry!

“Sahara! Speak to me!”

Trying to calm herself down, she felt as though all the time that she thought she was able to accept and adapt to anything…It was untrue.

This was just…Too much!

The spiritual essence was something after all! It was a real, true, type of being that had its own mind and its own wants.

What was she to do!?

Seeing what it had done to the people, and to the land! It felt like it was protecting itself. It didn’t want the hatred of mankind but had no choice! Over time it had formed bigger and bigger, leaving all the humans and basically running away…To start everything anew! Right where Golden Haven was…

The problem was…The spiritual essence couldn’t survive on its own and wanted to still reside within a human. Human’s were capable of many things and it wasn’t boring…But to have remade the entire planet…

Sahara closed her eyes and felt her little man move slightly and felt his wants to be comforted.

Using her spiritual essence to ‘pat’ her hidden son, he slowly felt better, and Sahara was dazed into thinking that he had seen and felt everything that she just had…That in itself was just as scary to her, as not only was he little and still growing inside of her, but the amount of information…

Nothing much had scared her as much as this…And for her little man, no wonder he wants comforting!

To have seen what she had…An end to life…

It wasn’t a movie, nor a drama, this was real life, this was directly happening! She couldn’t just turn the tv off and go to bed, she couldn’t just stop reading and go get a drink without a care…

What kind of fucked up situation is this!?

The future depended on her, but she didn’t know what she had to do…Even when she had received so much information just moments ago.

Shock to so much happening and realizing such a thing, really put Sahara into a daze…Oh and how she wished that she was just playing this boring game behind a computer…Or reading it on the internet!

No…She was most definitely on another planet, having even been here once before. She was…

Feeling Matthew was patting her back and holding her tight, made her feel only slightly better!

Seeing that everything else was ok, that her little man was in no other trouble, Sahara opened her new eyes and slightly nodded, “I’m…Okay.”

The beasts used to be people, that had tainted, cruel hearts…And people could be made…Spiritual essence…

“We are one with everything…” Sahara took a deep breath and bit her lip.

“What…What do you mean?” Matthew asked, still holding Sahara tight, scared…Scared so much that he was also shaking.

Sahara blinked and remembered Steven…Remembered his predicament…Remembered the ‘story’ that she had just been told…

“Steven is in trouble.” Sahara stated, turning to face Matthew.

Matthew widened his eyes to her new…Eyes…

They had changed…

Putting a hand to her face, Matthew saw that her eyes now showed a different color! They were now purple, glowing and looking sparkly and shiny!

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Swallowing his anxiety of seeing a scary difference, Matthew then said, “Your eyes have changed…They aren’t red anymore.”

Sahara took a moment to understand what he said and then closed her eyes. If she focused, she could clearly see a difference…And now, if she wanted to, she could even see beyond that of her eyelids. She could see spiritual essence everywhere! Some of it was still the pink color that she had originally thought it was, but it looked more like pink wasn’t really the original color anymore…No…Blue…Why hadn’t she seen it before then!?

She knew about changing spiritual essence from one thing to another, she had been doing this for a few years now, but she never understood…It wasn’t like the spiritual essence disappeared…It…Changed color spiritually…Or something…She couldn’t see it before, but the land was not a spiritual essence color of pink color, like it was previously within the people, it had changed into a brown. The barrier was a bright red color…Just like her eyes had been…What she saw now, was like she was playing with glitter, it was actually quite pretty…And…

It was…Really freaky! So freaky that Sahara stopped letting herself go and came back to opening her eyes up to Matthew. “Ha…I…”

Not knowing what to say, Sahara scratched her head.

How do I start to explain this…

Finally getting off the floor, Matthew held Sahara to him still and looked at her in worry, “Sahara, you were in agony just before, you screamed so loudly…Are you really ok?”

He was being very serious, upon seeing Sahara scream, she had also tried to peel off her head like it wasn’t supposed to be there!

Her hair was a mess now and she had hurt one little area on her head, before Matthew was able to stop her from continuing.

Sahara sighed, “I…” Still, she didn’t know what to say…

The pain that she had felt was beyond anything she had felt before…But…The information she had received…No doubt couldn’t be helped to having been painful!

What worried her, was that since she had absorbed all this information, she felt different. She felt like she had changed into something else…

Sahara knew that even though she held some amount of hatred and anger in her heart…That she had to let it go. But…Even with all this new information, with this new strength…How could someone possibly let it go so easily!

It really was a test. The spiritual essence was indeed angry and had pinned all its hopes on her…The Doomed and Blessed.

She felt like laughing hysterically! She wanted to cry and pretend she didn’t see it, yet she felt the immense power go through her.

Until now, she had never understood ‘Ultimate Power’…Now, she was no longer a ‘rank’, like everyone else. Her dantian looked completely dense and full, but even though she could use it all up, it didn’t mean she would no longer be able to use her ‘new power’. Spiritual essence from everywhere was willing to help her and Sahara could feel that she could easily pull spiritual essence from anywhere or anyone, so that she could use her power with no limitations on how much is needed. Every type of ‘Meditation’ was possible, even the knowledge of what she had just seen…All of it was doable! She didn’t even have to understand and learn the meditation, she could just do it…

Until now, Sahara had not known of any real beginning of life, from either Earth or here. There were always just assumptions, but no real way to actually see it for yourself, like Sahara had seen. This planet and people had started from scratch, and she had seen it with her own eyes! Spiritual essence had made it, it was indeed very powerful!

Until now…And still, she didn’t want to be this type of person…She didn’t want the fate of mankind on her shoulders at all!

Feeling like she didn’t deserve this type of position, she still could not understand how at least one or two other people could have done the same as her. There were so many people…So…If one did accomplish what she had…Could she pass this matter off to them instead!?

As it was…She was still coming to terms of having to change her goal of doing whatever she wanted and getting away with it!

Luckily, she feels like some new rules didn’t give her the option of completely taking over and doing things her way, but who would want to do that anyway!?

But still, she had to change the path, by using her powers to straighten out this cycle.

Having ‘Ultimate Power’ wasn’t to do things by herself…No, the ultimate power was to show others, through spiritual essence, the cycle, so that they can understand completely on what they are doing.

Sahara now had the ability to show people what others are feeling. Even to a selfish person, who doesn’t think of others, will be forced to understand…What the person could intend to do could even be applied, so she could inflict the harm they want to cast upon others onto themselves instead…It was a wicked thought…

Even if a person that doesn’t want to anger someone, by showing how unhappy they are, the spiritual essence inside of them will show another of what they are feeling anyway! It was like the spiritual essence had the go ahead on using me to finally do all these things! It was like…The passiveness of the spiritual essence had completely disappeared…

It wasn’t about right or wrong, Sahara saw, it was more like the spiritual essence wanted to stop being separated and become one, and to help do this, it wanted people to see what other people see, so that pain and suffering could be kept to a minimum.

It was a strange concept indeed…And a bit confusing.

Well…It confused Sahara. She will have to think of a more basic and simple understanding of this later…

Nonetheless, she knew everything about spiritual essence now.

Before it was called ‘Meditations’, now, to her, she knew how it could be used in every way. There was no longer any type of Meditation for her, it was just a huge type of list…A huge…List…A no limitation list…

For her to be able to use this ‘list’ freely, she had to let go of her hate and anger, she couldn’t selfishly apply these techniques either. To a strange sort of degree, she was no longer in charge and yet she was…It was like spiritual essence was going to be a ‘Master’ along with her, and if they happen to not be happy within someone, Sahara would be the magnet…And this was the evidence that the spiritual essence had already started to condense into one once again!

No wonder she wanted to laugh or cry and go into hysterics!

Even though she had received this information and become a hell of a lot more powerful, she was also against time, and it confused the hell out of her!

They were at one with her, happy to do her bidding, yet at the same time, it was going to condense if the spiritual essence inside another was unhappy!

This is just…Screwed up!

The spiritual essence was making a stand! The last stand…And at the same time, it was giving her the power to give the people a chance to survive!

And this…Worried her a lot…

Pfft, if I was to tell anyone this…They would have absolutely no idea! Dammit! Why me!?

“Did you forget Master? You know of both the Doomed and the Blessed. Good and bad, strong and weak. You have gone through enough to distinguish one from another, and now you must satisfy us so that we will continue to stay, instead of rebuilding life once again.”

Great…Just great! Why can’t I be one of those other MC’s!? Why can’t I just kick back and kick butt!? Why do I have to save the world!? Uh!? So not cool! I’m…Too lazy and not important enough! I’m normal! Normal! I really do think that you have the wrong person! Helllow!

Strangely, even though normally she didn’t talk to the voice in her head…This time she had wanted a reply…But never got one…