Chapter 86

Chapter 86: Buckle Up, Buttercup!

Knox POV “Knox.. she just needs time.” Kane tried to say, but even I heard how weak it sounded. Looking down at my Father, I tried to imagine just for a moment what Ma was going through; the man in my brother’s arms wasn’t just our Father. He was her mate! And he was gone… potentially at the hands of their son! Me! The pain must be unbearable… I understood why she couldn’t stand to look at me!

pulled my eyes from my Father’s empty gaze, unable to handle the feel of my brother’s pitty–filled eyes on me a second longer; I didn’t deserve their pity! Instead, I looked ahead into the glass panel on the wall, seeing my own reflection, naked and vulnerable, but my skin was free of marks and bruises, clear of any signs of the devastation my brother bore; the only similar thing we shared was the marks we accepted from Lottie.

I wanted to reach out to Lottie and tell her I needed her, but what right did I have to the comfort she offered? Despite Havoc’s whining, I knew she needed the space from us. I had felt her heartbreak through the mate bond back in the hall before Lilly came rushing in; she was suffering just like Kane and I. I got it. My Father was the only positive role model she had ever known, her only protector, and he was gone… I wanted to tell her that she had me and Kane, but it just felt weak, especially coming from the man who had caused her such hurt.

“I love you!” A voice echoed through my head; the familiar sound of my little mate had me relaxing, but I couldn’t help the tears falling from my eyes like some fucker had just turned a bloody tap on.

“You do?” I asked, knowing how pathetic I sounded.

“Of course I do, silly! This wasn’t your fault, Knox, so stop blaming yourself!” She ordered, with more determination than I think I could muster right now.

“You are wrong!” I replied brokenhearted.

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“Knox… I am female..” She teased, her tone light and easy.

“And?” I questioned my brow arching, not following her riddles. “What does that have to do with anything!” I added in confusion.

“It means I am never wrong! Now buckle up, buttercup! I need you to stay strong. I will be back in your arms in no time, and we will fix this mess.. ok?”

“Perhaps it’s for the best that you stay away!” I uttered, hating myself for saying it, but it had to be said. I could feel her tension through our mate bond, anger mixing with disappointment.

“And perhaps you should eat me!” Despite the trauma coursing through my veins, I couldn’t help the smirk that played on my lips.

“Perhaps I will!” I laughed, feeling a little better just from talking to her; I could feel the faith she had in me through her words and our bond, and for a moment, I remarked on how she would never cease to amaze me.

“I will hold you to that stud; I will be back soon.” Lottie’s sweet voice filtered through my head, making me crave her presence.

“Where are you?” I asked, feeling a sudden wave of anger wash through the bond, and I knew instinctively it wasn’t aimed at me but at whoever she was dealing with.

“Trying to get help for Sebastian; I won’t be long.” I hated that she was out there doing this; it should be me trying to find a solution to the bedlam I had. caused. I hadn’t even thought about Lilly and what she must be going through! My eyes drifted into the mirror to Kane behind me, his face sullen and lost in thought as he looked down at my Father. Following his eyes, I found myself racked with guilt for the temporary happiness I felt talking to Lottie, given that everyone around me was suffering.. because of me!

“I love you. I just want to help Lilly; she can’t lose her mate too!” Lottie added when I didn’t say anything; my eyes were still locked on my Father’s vacant eyes.

“You shouldn’t!” I snapped and cut the link off, closing it and pulling my eyes O L Chapter 86 Buckle Up, Buttercup!

back to mine in the mirror, meeting my blue hues; seeing the chaos in them from Havoc, I couldn’t help but feel a rush of anger bubbling through my body like an explosion waiting to happen.

The sound of steel collapsing undoubtedly broke Kane’s thoughts, his eyes. shooting up to see my fist embedded in the side of the elevator; a crack split aggressively in the mirrored panel I had been looking in, splintering it up through the mirror and distorting my reflection. I pulled my fist back, and the mirrored panel shattered, falling to the floor like beautiful crystal rain.

“Feel better?” Kane asked me, evidently trying to keep the anger from his voice, as he squeezed our Father tighter to his chest as if fearing Havoc was about to detonate in the elevator.

“Not even a little bit!” I snapped as the doors opened, stepping out of them with Kane behind me, clutching Father securely in his arms. I lingered and watched him walk towards the suite that he shared with Ma, but I couldn’t will my feet to move.

As if sensing my reluctance, I watched the large form of my brother pause, my Father’s head and feet poking out from either side of him as he turned to look at me puzzled.

“Brother?” His voice cracked with tension and pain that broke my heart; walking in the opposite direction, I waved my hand in the air dismissively.

“Where are you going, Knox?” He roared, seemingly coming to the end of his patience.

“Ma, don’t want me in there! TRUST ME!” I snapped as I disappeared around the corner and away from him.

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“Brother..” Kane bellowed, and momentarily, I debated returning to my brother’s “I am right, Kane, you know it!” I shot through Mindlink as I reached the top of the stairs; looking down them into the stillness of the packhouse, I debated my options.

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“So what if you are! I fucking need you, Knox!” Kane growled back, my mind whirling with self–pity and regret.

“I can’t, Kane! I just need quiet!” I admitted as I turned back from the stairs and disappeared into Lottie’s room, hoping that if the sound of her sweet voice could ease my feral wolf.. maybe her scent could soothe my soul too.