Adhuri khwahish

With each sentence she slapping on his chest with clenched fits..... Trying to Push him... And he still remaining embrace... And hugging her more and more ..... With closed eyes....

" Tum is layak hi nhi the... Ki me khud ko tumhe sonpu... Apni zindgi tum pe zaya kru...."

She still groaning and crying with open mouth... while placed her head on his chest...

And he calming her by rubbing her back....

Her slaps were becoming light and light as she was breaking while crying.... Melting in his embrace...

" Tumne tod diya muje... Mere vajud ko... Mere aitbar ko... Meri rooh ko...."

She said while digging her face in his chest... And groning ... Crying...

" Meerab I am sorry...."

Only words he whispered... While his hand tightly hugged her , and close eyes freed tears...

Meesam was just silently looking at meerab... Blinking eyes again and again....

Both were crying... Meerab holding his kurta in tight grip , slightly slapping her head on his chest...

" Sorry... Kitna aasan word he tumhare liye... Kehna... "

She looked at him while saying....and he slightly turned gaze at her...

" Tum andaza bhi nhi laga skte... Kya guzri thi us raat muj par...

Mano... Mano.. mera apna ghar jhanam ban gya tha... Or mera shouhar shaitaan...."

He just looking in her eyes... Biting lips and eyes crying....

" Ek vahid insan the jis par mene bharosa kiya tha murtsim... Tumhe pta he.. duniya me... Akeli pad gyi thi me... Tut chuki thi... Tumne un tukdo ko bhi bikher diya...."

She cried out loud....

Looking at him with teary eyes... Which were full of pain and complains....

" Tum... Tum... Haya se shadi kar rhe the... Vo nazara ... qayamat tha mere liye.... "

He placed hand on her cheek...

" Meerab..."

She cutted him while saying...

" Meri bahen jesi he... Shadi possible hi nhi... Tum nhi hoti fir bhi ni karta.... Kya tha ye sab... Kya tha murtsim....??"

She was still crying while saying...

He tried to explain....

" Maa.. begum.. maa begum ne shart rkhi thi...."

She said loudly with cry...

" Maa begum....?? Har dafa tum kuch karte hi nhi... Haya apne aap pas aajati thi... Gajre pahen leti thi... Tum... Tumhari koi galti hi nhi hoti na.. maa begum ne betha diya na ... Uske pas... Sehra pehna diya... Khan Murtsim khan agar mujse jgad skta tha to haya se kyon ni ... Maa begum se kyon ni.... Kiski mjal thi .. tumhari mrzi ke bina.. tumhe majbur kre...."

He shaking his head in denial... Opening mouth to speak... But her voice and thoughts both were firm....

She said loud out of frustration

" Kal ko me mar jau... Mere janaze par mat aana... Sochna maa begum ne mna kiya tha...."

Tears in his eyes ....still he wiped her tears on cheek and he said instant...

" Meerab... Please esa ni bolo..."

She clenched brows , looked at him in disbelief and said ,

" Tumhare liye to me mar hi gyi thi vese bhi.. rohail ke sath bhagna .... Or kya hi matlab tha iska... "

She said with a painful smile while watching into his eyes ,

" Jashn mnao... Meerab mar gyi ab... Bhale hi jism zinda he... Ab... Ab... Rooh mar gyi he murtsim...."

Her lips were shaking while saying... And meesam gently , touched her lip... Both meerab and murtsim looked at her....

Tears were wetting her cheek , she was a baby still she was crying silently.. She knew there is something wrong... Her mom is in pain...

Meerab's lip got parted... while watching her like this... And in same moment... Murtsim wiped her tears... Caressed her head...

And his decision to not letting go meerab became more firm.....

Meesam's hand got placed on his shoulder... He kissed her eyes... And said ....

" Meerab... Muje maf krdo... Please... Me pagal ho gya tha... Tumhe kho kar... Muje samj ni aa rha tha... Kya kar rha hu... Bas tum.. tumhe chahta tha... Aapne sath... "

He said so speedly... Like he said everything which was in his mind...

She was looking at him with teary eyes... Trying to find answers in his eyes.... Trying find trust... Trying to trust him...

" Yakin karo... Ek ... Ek rat nhi ... Jab mene tumhe yad ni kiya .. us pal... Us pal ko nhi kosa... Jab mene tumhare sath.... "

And he ended up crying....

" Me kbhi nhi chahta tha... Ye sab ho... Haya us din kamre me aayi... Usne chit likhi... Kasam se muje kuch pata nhi tha...."

" Tum usi haya se shadi kar rhe the murtsim... Chalo me man jau sab chize jo atit me hui... Maf kiya... Par ab ... Ab to tumhe pata tha... Ki haya ki vajah se ye sab hua tha... Usne shuru se hmari zindagi tabah karna chaha...."

She was looking into his eyes while saying... She was not angry now... Just talking normally while crying....

" Usne... Kbhi ....kbhi mera acha ni socha... Na hmare rishte ka... Or tum... Tum... Usse....??"

" Meerab Haya nhi thi hmare rishte me... Na hmari kahani me.... Vo na mere liye tab matter karti thi.... Na aab..."

She said with loud cry.... while pointing finger on his chest....

" Kab smjoge tum...Kab dikhegi tumhe uski galtiya....Hmara rishta barbad sabne milke kiya tha... Par us kahani ka ek kirdar haya bhi thi... Jo tum muje paglo ki trha dhundh rhe the.... Muje bhagne ka mashvara tak usne diya tha... Infact bhagaya bhi usi ne tha...."

And Murtsim 's eyes looking at her in confusion... While she had firm eyes and voice....

" Par Jo aaj dekha.... I thank her ki muje bhagne duya usne... Tumhari sacchai samne aayi .....Or tumhe... Ye sab btane ka kya fayda... Tum to ab bhi usi ki taraf dari kr rhe ho... Matter nhi karti... Matter nhi karti... I wish ... Kash matter krti... Uski ... Uski galtiya... Tumhe effect krti... Aaaj.. aaj hmara rishta is mukam pe ni hota...."

She said last line in so low voice... While sobbing....

" Chahe tum sache , vo sachi... Tum be gunah... Vo masiha... Ab muje koi fark nhi padta... Na tumse... Na kisi or se... "

She said the sentence...and wiped tears....

" Ab... Jo rishta tha bhi... Vo bhi khatm kro... Or nhi jhel sakti ye boj ... Me or meesam... Kafi he ek dusre ke liye...."

" Meerab please ek mauka dedo...Ne sach me sharminda hu us rat ke liye... Apni har galti ke liye....."

He said instant....

" Mauka Dene hi aayi thi murtsim , Par tum ek or dhokha de bethe...."

Her voice and eyes were full of pain...

She was breaking inside....

Both were staring at each other... And now Murtsim had accepted she's not gonna wait... She's not gonna be with him... However it hurts her.. but she will bear pain and never come to him again...

He saw her suffering from being with him... Suffering in this relation... This relation only gave her pain and pain... It doesn't matter because of him or others... But she had never been happy with happy...

He chose to free her... To let her live a happy life... He knew whenever she will watch his face... All past trauma will hurt her....

And the moment she was about to take steps outside....

Murtsim grabbed her hand... Holding wrist... His touch was so so so gentle... Like he was touching with fear that she will again tell that he has no right on her...

Meerab slightly turned....

" Me bas mafi mangna chahta hu .... Tum nhi kar paogi i know.... Par ek bar please sunlo ki muje sachme apne har kiye ka pachtava he... And i accept ki us galti ki koi mafi nhi he...."

And than God threw the last card of his deck... And there starts raining....

Meerab murtsim both had no clue about it... Both were lost in each other's eyes....

But as drops started tapping on their face... Meerab direct looked at meesam... And instant she putted her duppta , on meesam 's head.... While she saw hands helding a coat were covering meesam ....

Murtsim was staring at meesam...

Rain was hiding his tears , but his red eyes were not ignorable...

Meerab was lost in thinking... That she is parting meesam fron her father ... Just for her personal grudge....

Pain and guilt was flowing through her eyes... She gulped while watching meesam staring at Murtsim with her cute big big eyes... And raising hand to touch him...

Folding her small small fingers again and again to ask him to come close...

And tears dropping from his eyes on meesam's cheeks....

Murtsim was about to touch meesam... Her cheeks... He was about to caress , his hand came close and at same moment....

They heard a shout...

" Meerab.... Chalo beta...."

Anwar was coming with a bag in his hand....

While Bhaktu holding umbrella for him...

Murtsim turned head and looked at him...

" Us pal...

Unke ek ek kadam ...

Mano Meri qayamt ka rasta bana rhe the...

Unke lafz...

Meri saza suna rhe the....

Chahta tha vakt roklu...

Ya khud ko khtam krdu..

par kese bhi...

Ye lamha na jane du...."

Meerab looked at anwar... Her eyes and heart were also not prepared for this...

She continuesly staring at Murtsim and meesam...

Until anwar came to her and held her arm...

She came into senses...

" Chalo beta , gadi me betho..."

Anwar holding umbrella on meerab and bakhtu on Murtsim...

Murtsim said in sorrowed voice...

" Ek... Ek bar isko... Chuu sakta hu...?"

Meerab and anwar both were realising his pain... Guilt... And love for meesam...

Tears were continuesly dropping with each moment... As he was staring in her eyes...

And meerab nodded without any hesitation... Wiping tears from eyes...

She raised meesam to give him...

His eyes got little shine... And face got pain of guilt that he is touching her for last time...

He held meesam so... Gently , and as she got Murtsim's touch... She started smiling...

Jumping in his held...

She was happy like a just bloomed flower....

While murtsim adoring her... His eyes had so much love , care ... Warmness... Satisfaction....

He slightly took meesam in his embrace... His eyes got shut while lashes wetting with new tears... His face had another level satisfaction.....

And he caressing her back... Her hair... While meesam had put chin on his shoulder and playing with his hairs... Sometimes tapping hand on his head....

Meerab was adoring this view... There was a smile on her lips , she wipping tears... and smiling in satisfaction.....

Her daughter... First time meeting her father.. and for meerab , she always wanted a happy family.. always wanted this moment with murtsim.. but in different situations... But unfortunately view was full of unconditional love... While situation was unforgettable...

He was lost in moment... He took meesam's hand , kissed her palm... Her wrist... Her small fingers....

Her pink pink tiny fingers were held near to his lips as he paused for a second.. while staring into her eyes... They were exactly same as his...

He kissed meesam's hand.. cheeks .. arms... forhead..so desperately... Like its the moment he have... Than he never gonna meet her....

Meerab was still in thinking that ..

' Me kahi meesam ko isse dur kar ke meesam ke sath zyati to nhi kar rhi... Me uski gunehgar banna nhi chahti... Par is ghar me ek or minitue rukna mere dil pr boj hoga....'

While He wanted to live this moment fully... Like he wanted take beauty and warmness of this moment as much as possible....

Meesam was in his embrace , he hugging her tightly still so much gentle... And she looking at his face... Caressing his cheek... Playing with his beard and wanted to pull it...

He laughed little on this attempt... And looked at meerab...like

' Dekho ye kya kar rhi he....'

both forget thier pain... as meerab was also giggling on it ..

She said with light smile...

" Meesam naam he iska...."

And he paused for a second... Staring in her eyes... Realising how he blamed her for her character... While she was loyal to him... Even when being apart from him.....

If anyone didn't knew what happened they must said... Its a beautiful happy family....

This scene was so memorizing... Murtsim knew he gonna lose Meerab and meesam both of them... Still he was melting in this moment with his daughter... He was laughing while tears in his eyes were still poking... And making his view blur....

He kissed her eyes , and forhead... And while hugging.. rest his head on her tiny shoulder... Facing the floor... Tears dropping there..

Meerab wanted to wipe his tears...

But she gulped and didn't do...

Anwar came to her...

Murtsim's eyes got wide as someone's going to steal his tresure... His soul... His most precious thing....

He hugged meesam more... Just to not apart from him...

" Meerab , me meesam ko leke car me wait krta hu ... Use yha thand lag jayegi..."

And meerab didnt wanted to nod... As anwar knew... He dont waits for meerab's nod...

And take meesam from his embrace... While murtsim just looking into meesam's eyes... At meerab's face... He wasn't able to fight...

' Uski duniya uske samne tabah ho rhi thi....'

Like time started flowing slow for him... His head was losing control... He felt like dizzy for a second... As he couldn't hear what anwar saying while taking meesam.... He only saw... meesam raising hand to approach him... she started crying...and screaming .... his teary eyes were still wide open ...

And in Seconds... He lost her .. anwar was taking steps towards car... And meerab and murtsim watching him with teary eyes...

Meerab sobbed wiped her tears and came to him...

Gently touched his cheek .. wips his tears.... He turned at her....

And looks at her... He still couldn't absorb everything happening around him...

While meerab said in sorrow voice...

" Me jate vakt... Koi galtfehmiya.. koi narazgi rakhna nhi chahti ...

Jo bhi hua ... Mene tumhe maaf kiya ... Or tum ho ske to muje maaf krna.. meesam ko tumse dur krne ke liye ..."

Her voice was cracking and shaking... Murtsim places palm on her cheek...

And said... " Shayad yhi meri kismat he , phle apna baap khoya... Fir chahat ... Fir tumhe pakar bhi tumse dur tha .. barso tumhe tarsa... Ab meesam ko..."

Its human nature to recall all pain of his life at hard time...

Before she says something... He added...

" Don't worry... Tumhe emotional nhi kar rha... Tumhare faisle ki izzat krta hu... Kon hi ladki rehna chahegi ese aadmi ke sath..."

And his face got painful smile...

Meerab cried out while grabbing him into tight hug....

" Please muje maaf krdo... Janti hu tum dono ke sath zyati kr rhi hu... Par ab me nhi jhel skti or... Jo nazara mene dekha... Agar me or ruki yha... To me kbhi use ni bhul paugi... Us lamhe par hi meri puri zindagi guzar jayegi... Na me tumhe kbhi aage bdhne dungi.... "

Murtsim pulled her back ... Just watch into her eyes .. and said....

" Meerab me tyar hu us lamhe me zindagi guzarne ko... Bas tum mere sath raho... Kasam se... Me roz mafi mangu ga tumse... Jo kahogi krunga... Bs ... Bs mere sath raho ..."

And meerab couldn't control cry ... She said...

" Please... please... Hum ek minitue ke liye ye sab bhul sakte he... Or phle...phle... Ke jese ek dusre se mohhabat...."

Before she completes... Murtsim took her in embrace....

While hugging her more and more... They melt in moment... Melt in embrace... She crying under breath... While putting face on his chest...

And he facing sky with closed eyes... Tears flowing through it ...

In seconds.. as the umbrella flew from bakhtu's hand due to heavy winds....

They came to senses... And meerab looked at him...

He wiped her tears with both thumbs... He had painful smile on his face while meerab said....

" I will wait for you in next birth... Shayad... Shayad halat ese n ho... Hmara nikah .. mohhabat se ho ... Nikah todne ki baddua se zyada .. log sath rehne ki dua e den... Or Koi haya .. koi rohail n ho...."

" I will keep you as my favourite incomplete wish...."

With last sentence... sHe kissed murtsim's forhead... And he kissed her....

" Ab koi shiqayat nhi tumse...

Na koi narazgi he...

Bas kafa apni kismat se hu...

Jo itne dard likh diye...

Tut kar chaha tha tumhe...

Or tumse hi juda ho jau..

ese halat kar diye...."

And as heart starts paining.... She left Murtsim's hand...

Rain getting heavy and heavy .. She slightly took her hand from his grip...

His mouth paused open... Not in shock... But in pain...

He watching meerab... Taking steps towards car... While still gazing at murtsim with innocent and red eyes... Her steps were so slow... Infact she didn't knew where she going...

He whispered.... Only thing....

" I will miss you meerab...."

While murtsim just gazing her... Her each step was breaking his heart... He litterly felt pain in chest ... while eyes losing tears in rain... He had clenched feets tight at his back... Just to control himself....

" Vo ja rhi thi muje chod kar...

Dil ro ro kar pukar rha tha...

Vahi dimag khamoshi se use riha kar rha tha....

Shayad use rokta...

To khudgarz ban jata....

Par kehte he mohhabat or jang me sab jaez he.....

Chahta to rok leta use...

Par ye dil ek aas pe zinda rhega...

Uski vapas aane ki umeed pe roz sans lega...."

He was shaking... And legs were losing control... They didn't able to take step... To stop her... To run behind her....

She sat in car... Anwar took her in embrace... And closed door...

In seconds... The car passed while meerab still gazing him through window... Till the possible... And his view is visible...

' Kuch lamho me...

Meri puri zindagi ujhad gyi .....

Jis ko chaha tha mene khud se zyada....

vhi muje tanha chod ke chali gyi...

Rooh kamp rhi thi meri ..

sans lena bhi boj lag rha tha...

Aaj apni aankho se...

Apne khwabo ki duniya bikharte dekhi ...."

Bakhtu was staring him with teary eyes... He was feeling his pain... Its been half hour meerab left... And murtsim still gazing in same direction....

" Malik..." Bakhtu said in sorrow voice....

" Malik mar gya bakhtu.... Mar gya Khan Murtsim Khan...."

He said with a painful chuckle... And took a deep breath....

Murtsim became like stone... There was no effect of rain wind or anything on him....

He felt rain drops like knife... Because already his heart was ripping... Still he stood there...

He said

" Isi zami pe usse pheli mulakat hui thi bakhtu...

Uske chote chote kadam...

Or nanhi si Vo ladki muje aaj bhi yad he....

Aaj akhri mulaqat bhi yhi hui... Kya hi khubsurat itefaq hena bakhtu....

Ab bas yahin rooh ye jism chod de... Yhi meri kabar bane....

Mohhabat mukkamal ho jayegi meri..."

He had painful smile on his face...

While bakhtu said...

" Ni malik... Esa n bole... Aap ke bina hmara kya hoga...."

" Jab kitab me uska kirdar hi khatm ho gya he... Kyon me agle panne par jau bakhtu... Man krta he isi lamhe isi panne... Kitab khtm krdu...."

Bakhtu knew now old murtsim never gonna come back... Even murtsim will become more stone hearted now.....

While murtsim thinking....

' Usse mohhabat itni zyada ho gyi he..

pta nhi tha..

Ki uske jate hi..

Mera vajud mit jayega....

Dil or dimag ke jhagde...

Dil khamoshi se har jayega....

Ab fark nhi pdta chahe maut aajaye...

Ise bura kya hi hoga .. jo mene dekha he ...

Mujsa badnseeb baap or shouhar kon hi hoga ...

Jo har din apni beti or biwi ki ek jhalak ko trsa he.... '

_________________ The end .....

Hey guys , I know i am too late... Very sorry...

I hope u liked chapter... Its totally my view like what should be result of rape... And there will a epilogue come.. if u can imagine please dont give spoiler in comments 🥺

And specially I thought this song will be perfect for them... I love this one....What do you think... Just read meerab leaving moment with its main portion... Uff that feeling....

Kindly please dont judge me or book before watching epilogue... I am human too ... I have heart too... If i had written whole story with this much logic .. I have mind that meesam needs parents.

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