Rooh ki pukar

Story is continued after murtsim did mangani with haya...

Murtsim was going through the stage that he wished , it would be great if death hugged him the day meerab left him....

He was totally hopeless now that meerab will come... By standing at a big rock ... He was smoking..... with the smoke of cigret... Every memory of meerab was fedding... He was feeling like... His existence is disappearing... Like he lost everything....

The moments of their love were becoming blur in his mind , like this all gone .... Meerab gone..

Nothing gonna come back and it bacame just part of his life... Which he can never take back.. even if he screams out of his lung to pray god that please bring her back in my life....

His eyes were crying , but heart was craving for the person to cry , His meerab... His heart and mind were in battle.. heart was still hoping for meerab , craving for her.. praying to god...

While mind was broken now .. hopeless.. and betrayed... Advising heart to become stone hard ...

His soul was screaming inside.. that he betrayed his meerab by doing engagement with haya...

But what to do when maa begum threatened him that she will committee suiside... He was again in the situation.. he had to chose responsibility than his love...

He wanted to die.. he wanted to rip his heart with knife .. to show world how he is dieing inside...

He was ready to give his life.. if once... Only once he can see his meerab... Can Talk with her... Can caress her head.. her cheeks... Can kiss her forehead...

" Ya khuda.. bs ek jhalak dikha de ... Teri kasam usi vakt maut dede.. koi shiqayat ni krunga... Use chuunga bhi ni... Bs ... Bs dur se dekh lunga .. Bs ek jhalak ya Allah...."

While saying his voice was shaking... He was sobbing... Tears were continuesly wetting his eyes ..

And his heart refusing to take breath... Recalling memories...

he thought...

' Meerab You made flowers grow in my lungs and although they are beautiful ,

I can't breathe anymore...'

' Mene kbhi pyar mohhabat ni chahi thi khuda... Bs ... Ek.. ek dfa kisise mohbbat hui... Kya gunah tha mera ... Jo Vo bhi chin gyi... Na nikah meri mrzi se tha.. na koi faisla mera .. Tere dikhaye raste par chala... Or anjam me mout mang rha hu... '

His soul was breaking inside ... And his guilt , his mistakes were the hammer to break it...

As he realised why his meerab chose to leave him... He couldn't bear the pain that he raped her... He was out of phase to punish himself now.. as by losing her he lose all desires to be alive ...

' Ek kahani he vo..

ya kissa.. Pata nhi...

Par meri kitab ka

aakhri panna he vo....

Meri Meerab he vo...

Usse phle na koi tha..

na uske baad koi hoga...

Meri muskan ki

ek lauti vjah thi vo...

Na jane konsa lmha tha ,

Jab Mene esa gunah kiya...

Ki mera khuda hi mujse ruth gya...

Agar ilm (sign ) bhi hota...

Ki aakhri mulakat thi vo...

Teri kasam vakt vahin rok deta...

Vo n ho ske to usi lamhe Maut mang leta ....'

And with last thought he closed eye... And tear got freedom to flow...

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At the same time Meerab was dieing in logging... While watching out of window.. She was facing the conflict of her own...

Mind wanted to never watch his face for his did... And heart wanted to melt in his embrace...

She had held the window like she is in prison , But it was inside her.. She was caging her feelings.. to not flow through her eyes...

' Usi se mil ke usi ki shiqayat krna chahti hu , E khuda ye kesa insaf he Tera...

Ya mohhabat n deta..

deni hi thi to aasa deta...

Agar hum dono hi tere qabu me ni the...

to kuch krke halat badal deta...

Use bhulna muje gavara nhi , or use milna Mere haq me ni....'

Her though chain broke as she heard meesam crying...

She went to her , sat beside her on bed... While caressing her head...

Her heart chocked up... And eyes freed the pain she was holding....

Her tears started dropping on meesam's face... Baby started blinking...She was so small and innocent.. still the thread of love made her feel that her mom is in pain ...

And she raised her cute small hand to reach meerab... Meerab looked at her innocent baby ... Like she was suffering with her... She don't deserved this....

She cried out loud.. by watching this.. and kissing her small hands desperately and pouring love on her...

Meesam slowly touched her cheek... By watching her mma crying... And careesed her very gently.... her touch was so soft.... and her beautiful eyes still staring at meerab ... Feeling her pain...

Meerab looked at her hand, cupped it with her own... And glared into her eyes... It were exact like Murtsim....

And last drop of tear in her eye realesed.. and her heart won the battle with mind...

She took meesam in her embrace with clunched shut eyes... And desided she will forgive murtsim...

She thought...

Whatever he did that night... Was wrong for sure.. but she was also small part of sin by provoking him... And however the love murtsim had gave her.. when no one was on her side... No one accepted her... All wanted relief from her... Murtsim held her hand... Gave her unconditional love.. and care for which she was craving....

All flashbacks were rotating in her mind , how he supported her when her own parents refused to open door for her...

When maa begum dobuted on her character... When she was all alone and wanted someone to defend her....

' I forgive you murtsim , Not because I justify your mistake.. because i am tired now...

I cant live without you... My heart is tired now to fight with mind... Fight not to miss you... To not crave for you... To die for your only glimpse...

And she stood up ,..... to free her heart from the cage she was building sinse two years.... She broke it to love him again... For make him part of her life again....

And she decided to go Khan villa....

While murtsim was watching himself in mirror... Shaming for his existence....

As he was marrying the person spoiled his life... The person caused this much pain to her wife....

He felt so broken and empty while watching into mirror...

The room , the home everything was empty without her....

Even his soul was empty... Like time was just passing... He was not living life... His heart has already stopped beating from the time he lose last hope of her coming back....

With tears in eyes.. He wore his shervani.. and accepted its his destiny ... He can't change anything now...

But he didn't knew...

' Khuda dil se mangi har dua sun leta he...

Chahe use khud ke khilaf jana pade..

Par vo kismat ka likha bhi badal deta he....'

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Murtsim was seating beside haya , with blank face... There was no happiness... In fact no feeling... He was like a robot...just doing what maa begum says...

Haya tried to hold his hand , when maa begum and all where busy in preparations...

Murtsim jerked his hand and didn't allow her to touch...he haven't even glared at her....

" Murtsim... Hmara nikah ho rha he..."

He ignored...

" Tum... Ese... Ab biwi hu me tumhari Murtsim..."

She said out of frustration....

" Abhi bani nhi ho... Or na kbhi bnaogi... Meerab ki jagah na uski moujudgi me tumhari thi... Na uski gair mojudgi me tumhari hogi....yad rkhna... Ab bhi vakt he.. chaho to nikah se inkar krdo..."

He said in firm voice with fiery eyes... And constant eye contact... And enough anger to take tears in her eye....

She gulped and turned face....

.....

Each moment , each word of qazi was ripping his heart with knife... Still hoping ' Kash meerab aajaye... Bhad me jaye izzat ....me.. isi vakt nikah tod dunga .. zrurt padi to ghar chod dunga .. gaddi chod dunga .. bs vo mera sath dede...'

Vo Kaha he.. kese he nhi janta... Bs aaj meri pukar sun le... Qatara qatara tut ti meri rooh hi aavaz sun le....

And as god says...

' Har dua qubul hoti he ..

bs sahi vakt ka intezar hota

he....'

And as qazi said ,

" Kya aapko nikah qubul he...?"

Haya was about to say

' qubul he ' with smiley face...

And the next moment... Everyone's mouth was paused open....

Meerab took steps into hall...

While holding meesam in her embrace... With teary eyes and heavy heart....

------------------------- To be continued

Hey guys , for me.. If we ignore murtsim's Cool behaviour with haya... And maa begum when they were insulting meerab...

The relation of our meersim we are witnessed off... Was just beautiful... Like anything happens.. it can't justify that Murtsim was the best person for her...

The beautiful moments of them.. their cute fights... It still has special place in our heart... And any die of murtsim and meerab cant erase it...

And now our drama is going to end , i cant watch them parting in end... So i just wrote this one foe my heart's sukoon.. as i wanted them to meet and outburst their feelings....