59. Her Pathetic Attempt THEON I had just showered after having trained with the men, I hadnât even been able to face the princess so had told Madelia to handle training her today. My anger at just the thought of being tied to her made me physically sick. I hated her with such vengeance that I wished I could just kill her, Iâm sure I could take over without the fucking heart of Kaeladia.
I wrapped a towel around my waist just as there was a knock on the door. My heart raced for a second, and deep down I prayed somehow that it was Yileyna. Just to look into those beautiful grey eyes of hers.
I wanted to see her again... but at the same time, I knew I couldnât. I had to push her away. I opened the door, and my mood instantly darkened when I saw the woman before me.
âTheon, may I have a word?â Charlene asked, her eyes fixed on my face.
The look of determination in her eyes was something that you didnât see often from her.
No, you fucking canât. âMake it quickâ I said, turning away from her. She stepped inside, partially closing the door. My eyes flashed as I turned, glaring coldly at her. âWhy did you agree to Dad?â Her voice was serious, her eyes full of anger. I raised an eyebrow, smirking coldly. So this was what she was here for.
âWhy are you so angry? If memory serves, you were always pretty infatuated with me.â I remarked coldly. 2 Her eyes flashed, and she glared at me. âThe moment you and Yileyna started a relationship, those feelings were gone. Why did you agree? Why are you hurting her? She is such a good person, Theon. You are lucky to have her.â She whispered, keeping her voice low. I crossed my arms, not bothering to reply, but her words werenât that wrong... I was lucky, because she did provide me with a mental break from the storm within my mind. A beautiful distraction.
âPlease, Theon, donât hurt her. What did Dad promise you? Because I promise you, when Iâm Alpha, I will give-â
âWhen youâre Alpha? Really? Youâre so useless, princess, that even your own father has no faith in you. Iâm doing this for this kingdom, so when the time comes and that throne needs an Alpha King, it will have one who is worthy of it. If you werenât so incompetent, this would never have happened. So congratulations princess, thanks to your uselessness, I decided to drop her.â
Her heart was beating fast, her eyes filled with guilt, but she still shook her head. âNo. No, Iâm not marrying you. I donât care, I will never let you mark me. Yileyna doesnât know yet, but Iâm going to tell her.â âWonât that just hurt her?â I asked coldly. âHer knowing wonât stop it happening, now will it?
âI rather she knows from me before sheâs hurt, just how you and Dad hurt her at the festival when Dad announced you as Beta.â
She spat. So she had some fire in her. Unfortunately, it only seemed to show when it came to her beautiful friend.
I smirked coldly, it was satisfying seeing her in pain. âAnd tell me what will Yiléyna think, when she finds out itâs her own friend who will have her man?â I taunted mockingly. Her face paled, but she frowned.
âThatâs the thing, Yileyna and I trust one another before anyone else. She will believe me, and I wonât do this. I wonât. I may not be strong, but I wonât... I wonât...â She was shaking her head, her voice cold and determined. âI came to you because I thought we could come up with a plan... I thought... I thought Dad was threatening you, so you agreed, and I... We could have planned something. You deserve to be with who you want, Yileyna deserves some happiness... You made her happy.â She was whispering now, looking at my indifferent mask. Her hands began shaking as she realised how wrong she was.
The only thing was, she didnât realise she was pretty close to the truth... Yileyna... Both my father and hers wanted Yileyna out of the picture if she came in the way of their plans... 1 She didnât deserve to become collateral damage... My heart squeezed at the thought, and I looked at the angry princess. âWell, itâs a shame that your visit was futile, Iâm not backing down. This engagement will happen as planned.â I said coldly. My stomach churned at the thought, and I turned away from her. âTheon please, if you have even an ounce of feelings for Yileyna, and I know you do, then-â âGet out.â I interrupted coldly. âTheon, she only has you!â She stepped in front of me, blocking my path. Her eyes were full of fear and worry as she looked up at me begging. I was right, she was just useless. For an Alpha she couldnât even protect her friend.
I wanted to say more, but I heard footsteps in the corridor.
âShe doesnât. I donât need her...â I trailed off, my heart thundering as I realised who those light footsteps belonged to... What was she doing here? This was the higher-ups section of the castle, I had only been given a room here yesterday...
âShe needs you, please.â Charlene whispered. I had to take the chance.. I swallowed hard.
âIâm done with Yileyna.â I said clearly and loud enough that I knew sheâd hear. âI think itâs high time we told the entire kingdom about us, that we are to be mated. Donât you agree, Charlene?â I continued arrogantly, the words feeling like poison on my tongue.
But if I was going down in Yileynaâs eyes, then so was Charlene. She didnât deserve Yileyna as a friend... and I didnât deserve her in my life either. 2 Charlene looked confused as I took hold of her jaw, painfully tight.
From the corner of my eyes, I saw the shadow of someone stopping at the door, Charlene was too riled up in her own emotions to notice.
Perfect.
âTheon, we need to-â I cut her off, pressing my lips against hers. Anger flashed through me, and even when she tried to shove me back, I didnât let her move, holding her face in place.
I heard the small gasp and the sound of footsteps silently retreating, before she turned and ran. Only then did I move back, shoving Charlene away from me and wiping my mouth.
âGet the fuck out.â I hissed venomously.
Her eyes pooled with tears as she wiped her mouth with shaking hands.
âI hate you.â She whispered before she ran from the room, slamming the door behind her. âI fucking hate you more.â I replied to the empty room.
The pain in my chest was crushing me, I had fucking broken her, or more like whatever there was left to destroy.
Congratulations, Theon.
I clenched my fists, before quickly grabbing some clothes and pulling them on.
I needed to at least see if she was ok... In this weather, I didnât want her to end up on the roof of the Goddessâ temple. I pulled my shoes on, almost at the door when I realised I couldnât.
If she realised... If she noticed me...
If she was in front of me, it fucked me up. I needed to stay here... away from her... I removed my hand from the door handle and moved back. I needed to cut all contact with her, and I mean all... Which meant I would break the promise to meet her tonight...
1 I sighed, leaning against the door and dropping to the ground, resting my head back against it. Why was it that everything I was doing was at her expense? I had told her Iâd destroy her and I had practically succeeded, but then even with the warning given, why did I feel fucking guilty?
I closed my eyes, inhaling deeply. Even back then, it didnât hurt this much when I ended things with Iyara...
Was it because we hadnât gotten so deep? Or because she had her parents? Or that I ended it the right way? All I was doing to Yileyna was hurting her time and time again... She deserved someone who would cherish her, someone who could make her fucking happy and there was one person who did come to mind. But I had been too selfish to stay away from her.
Someone who didnât judge her for her parentâs actions, and death, even those were things she didnât deserve to be blamed for. It was all my doing. I hated thinking that she deserved someone else... But at the same time, I knew I was killing her.
I hung my head, staring at the shadows on the floor, my heart was too dark for her. I was not right for her, and I was far too twisted to ever give her anything but pain upon fucking pain. My goal in life was revenge. 2 That was the only goal I had and the only goal I needed to focus on.
I leaned my head against the wood of the door and stared out at the darkening skies, the snow still falling In a few weeks, Yileyna would learn of my truth and she herself would turn her back on me. Then, whether I ever meant anything to her or not, it wouldnât matter, because she would only have hatred left for me.
A/N-tomorrow is my birthday so there may not be an update, also I have some stuff planned over the next few days so things might not be at the scheduled time. Thank you 17
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