Michael

Did I mention, all this while when I was kissing on Sheldon's and Kookses I had a boyfriend. Michael, we had a one month history behind us. Okay, here is how l met Michael. So Michael and I had a mutual friend , I saw Michael on our mutual friend's social media and I was like, that guy is hot, I want him. Like he is really good looking, and he is one of those good looking guys who date ugly girls. Am I an ugly girl I donno. I guess.

She gave me his number and we started talking. I really tried by all means to really impress him and styff. We talked and talked and talked. There was an instant spark, instant connection, when we failed to text, he would call me. And there was a continuous exchange of phone calls. It would feel like he was there even though he wasnt. We talked everday. Then once I felt I was putting in way too much effort and I was like lemme pull back for a little bit. You, know, I don't understand this about boys, it isn't it that, if a girl throws herself at you you should just politely eat her as courtesy. Well, I wasn't feeling that courtesy anymore. So I was pulling back a little back. Anyways, back to our mutual friend Gratis, she asked me to accompany her to our new Uni. We hadnt started school then and she just wanted to get things in order. I was like okay, I'll come with you. So I accompanied Gratis. And you won't believe who l met at school Michael. We didn't interact immediately and when I saw him up close and we were inclined to talk. It was tense, I didnt feel like he was feeling me and frankly speaking, I wasn't wearing my best outfit. We later went back to CBD together we were all supposed to meet yet another mutual friend. And I got a little talking in with Michael but it was vague and I couldn't read like where his mind was at. So we were three in CBD, our friend left first and it was just me and Michael. I was like lemme go to my sister's workplace and he was like lemme come with you make sure you're safe. We got to my sister's job, we started going up the steps, which was the wrong way. And we where talking and out of nowhere we started kissing. And oh my Gosh, damn that kiss though. I had fanny flutters. I could feel my vagina banging against the walls of my vulva. Till this day, his kissing is unmatched. And that kiss was a turning point because that's when I realised like damn. We are sexually compatible.

Communication was back on board. We talked over the phone everyday. I remember we would fantasize about how I was going to become his campus wife and how he would become my campus husband. We talked about how I was gonna cook for him and we talked about how, I was gonna spend my free days with him when I didn't have lectures. We talked about how I was gonna make him drop all his lectures if I happened to be free. Fantasising was fun and I thought we were really gonna work I was convinced.

His birthday was upcoming and I tried by all means to impress him. I got his favourite picture and I framed it in this like beautiful like iPhone frame this. I wrapped it in a beautiful green wrapping paper. I personally designed and made a birthday card for him. I remember what I wrote I said like:

🖤Michael🖤

Happy birthday, Snookums!

Our brief acquaintance belies the profound  impact you've had on my existence. I find myself bewildered, trying to recollect the desolate landscape of my life before you entered it. Your presence has been a revelation, illuminating my world with warmth and joy. I hold you in high esteem, dear one. Thank you for the effervescent smiles and the radiant light you've kindled within me.

Here's to many more years of life's odyssey, punctuated by grey hairs and the wisdom of old age...

Xoxo

🖤Me 🖤

Anyways, I may have intentionally overestimated the cost of everything that I bought.like I exaggerated the amount times 3 just so he thought I made effort. Which I did, but I wanted him to think that.

Anyways, we went out for lunch, I even wanted the waiter to do that cake singing thing, but he didn't want it. So I gave him his present. We had a nice lunch and we had yet another great kiss. Then we came to College. I thought our relationship was solid.

I thought I loved him and we were going to make it in Uni, but boy was I kidding myself.

As I think if it now, I don't think Michael loved me. I threw myself at him and I was his unexpected 2 minute Holliday fling. When we hit College , he was suddenly very busy, and to think I was the student with the more demanding faculty. But hey.

It was so difficult to reach him. To the extent that, he wasn't staying on campus and at that time I also wasn't on campus yet. So it was difficult to see him. Then it got better when I moved on campus second week. He came to my room and you know, we made out, for the first time. It wasn't bad but the kissing was very good, he is a good kisser. We made out once, I thought good head would make him crazy about me but, it didn't fix the gap that was between us. I wish I had seen the signs earlier and would have never wasted my time, making myself a fool. In fact, I saw the signs if I'm being honest, but I just had hope we would recover. Michael was a great kisser. Really really great, 10/10. Till this day if I had to rank, or maybe it's that feelings were involved.

Anyways he made me understand the variations of biology among men, he prefared a good dry humping compared to head. Dry humping which he didn't really do well if I'm being honest, he would hold his hands tightly around my back limiting my mobility.

Anyways if I'm being honest, I thought Michael was well off and good looking, and when you don't know a person, a single message from him could send your head spinning when he says something.

Michale lacks an independent mind, couldn't do stuff on his own and would constantly follow his best friend around, and he would always be led astray by his friend, which was stupid to me.

We tried to meet up a bunch of times. Or at least I tried and it wasn't required. Communication was poor as fuck. But I didn't want to dump him, and he couldn't dump me. But I'm sure he wanted to. He got me to dump myself. He called me one time at midnight and I remember I told him I said:

"Michael I just need you to say it!"

He was like, "we both no what's to be said here, but I'm sorry I can't say it"

"And I was like okay, it's fine, don't say it, I won't say it, but I know what we both mean here"

Till this day, I regard this the day we broke up. He got me to dump myself. Anyways after the breakup he got super weird. Like everyone else, most of his friends would come hang out in my room but he, he wouldnt come. Being super weird. I had to tell his friends to tell him that it's okay I'm cool. He came to my room on day, he was looking good, he had on this dark green trousers and i was like damn. . I couldn't just let him go like that. He came with his friend and he introduced me as his "bestie". We kissed that day. Just a few petty kisses but we kissed. Till this day we are "besties". We have kissed on and off.

I heard that he is now dating a new girl. It kinda hurt me at first, I mean, if we are not working out because of separate schedules, you don't break up with me and date someone else. We make it work. Unless you never wanted me.He came to my room one night, and we made out the second time ever. Then I see him here and there but not as regularly or consistently.

We also talk here and there. I heard that he is now a notorious womaniser and that he is no longer a virgin, good for him. Anyways he will always have a special place in my heart, like I'm never gonna see him and not feel feelings for him. Like c'mon.