Sheldon

Sheldon, Sheldon Sheldon...

First older guy to make me lose sleep over. I thought he was hot, but thinking back now, I obviously lacked exposure and was limited that time. But if I'm being honest he wasn't a bad welcome to school package.  I met him at the boarding house I stayed five days till I moved on campus. I think it was on the first night at our boarding house. My roommates wanted to sleep but I smelled testosterone coming from downstairs and I was like no way I'm sleeping, just kidding, I heard boys and music downstairs and I was like, I won't settle, I need to be part of that i pretended to go grab a glass of water and  That's when I met Sheldon and Big Mike. They were two guys, older guys, they looked good, smelled good and I thought I was in for a treat, they were drinking some alcohol and I don't want to say I was impressed, but I was. Because I've never really been the type to say I like drinking alcohol, I mean, I just want it to be near me so I can get an opportunity to say, no thanks.

Sheldon didn't do a lot of talking, the first time I saw I thought he was cool, but looking back now, he was probably just high and was not conscious of the environment. Big Mike was doing the talking, I remember them talking about how I'm too beautiful to be doing the program that I'm doing, and they thought I was lying. We really vibes I don't wanna lie, there was music in the background and it was a perfect first night. Big Mike was trying to do that whole match making thing, and that gave me hints of maybe wait, maybe something really is up you know. Shelton and Big Mike thought I was cute, and I loved that they thought I was cute. They thought I had talking eyes and was too fine to be a freshman. Which boosted my confidence.

Big Mike went out for a sec. Then left me to talk to Sheldon. Sheldon drunkenly opened up to me. He told me about his mom, dad , and his older siblings. He also mentioned that he had done his attachment, working at this counselling faculty for people with incurable STI's. He told me everything, even something about his totem lol . He didn't ask for my number on this night and I remember not seeing him the next day. And the problem with me is, I get obsessed fast and for a really long time. So if I want to see you I want to see you, time goes by fast and you're the only thing on my mind. So I saw him the third day. They had a speaker in the dining room and they were drinking and playing loud music. I went in there and yeah, I started being the DJ, selecting which songs I wanted and playing them. I was talking to big Mike and sheldon was just there and quiet and acting too cool for me. I remember asking Big Mike what was up with Sheldon, like one moment we were vibing and now it's like we are strangers. I asked Mike, and Mike streamed the conversation. Then Sheldon came close to me, thats when we started we were vibing again. He started telling me the same things he had told me the other day. And I couldn't help but laugh. I told him he had told me everything about himself. He was kind of embarrassed that he had opened up to me. Mike was DJ-ing now and he played this one Chris Brown song, and I remember him saying, noone is even paying attention to the music so I'm going to bed. But then I started dancing and I made Sheldon start dancing, and till now, when I hear that one song, I can't help but think of him. Even is I don't want to. Yeah that night was definitely physical and very sexual. Then, the next day, Friday, is the day everything was sorted for me to move onto campus and I remember coming back from uni, and I was like hey, can I talk to you. He was like wassup, then I told him I'm moving onto campus. He was like okay, travel safe, and I'm like oh, thats it, then he was like what do you want me to say. And I told him, I want you to say what's on your mind then he was like nothing. I was kinda pissed. I want a guy who speaks his mind and he wasn't doing that. Yet again, I had only known him for what 3 days.

I went up to my room. And told my close friend I had moved into the house with. Then we slept that Friday evening, I remember hearing a knock at the door, when I was like deep deep in my sleep. I wasn't sure who was there but I was like lemme go check. I opened the door and I was shocked to the extent of missing a heartbeat. Sheldon was standing there, and I was in the midst of my sleep, I was looking like shit. I closed the door and he was like opening it. Then he was like "can we talk", i went downstairs with him.

He was drunk again. It was around 12 midnight.

Then he was like, "earlier you asked me what's on my mind and I failed to tell you.... Don't go, please don't go" he begged. Ah I swear, these older guys they will make you believe, make you think you are special.

I told him,"me not going is not an option, like everything has already been paid for and stuff. What I can do is maybe postpone my going, and go on Monday"

We agreed to spend the weekend together.

Come Saturday morning, I woke up in a good mood, thinking I was gonna spend my whole day with Sheldon but, little did I know, he made me feel and look very stupid. In the morning he texted me on the phone and he was like:

[ 10:12] Sheldon: Good morning

[ 10:13] Me: What's up

[10:15] Sheldon: I’m good and you

[10:16] Me: I'm very cold

[10:18] Sheldon: Come lemme warm you

[10:18] Me: For real

[10:18] Sheldon: Okay, you can come later

[ 10:19] Sheldon: I have my brothers right now so we are packed in my room.

[10:27] Sheldon: You are not going anymore right

[10:27] Me: I'm not sure

[10:27] Me: My dad will let me know

[10:47] Sheldon: Okay

I thought well, it's still morning , we still got time.

Later than afternoon...

[13:18] Sheldon: Are you busy?

[13:28] Me: Nope

[13:44] Sheldon: You are home right?

[13:44] Me: Yep

[13:51] Sheldon: Okay

I’m inviting you very soon 🌚

[14:00] Me: Oh

[15:07] Sheldon: I'm drinking wine

[15:07] Sheldon: You want to join?

[15:07] Me: Is this your form of invitation?

[15:08] Sheldon: Of course not

[15:08] Me: Right

[15:08] Sheldon: I was told you were in the kitchen

I came to look for you and l couldn’t get hold of you

[15:08] Me: Come look for me again

[15:09] Sheldon: What are you doing?

[15:11] Me: Listening to music

He didn't respond my text and I realised that I had wasted my day, thinking I was gonna see this nigga, he made me believe he was around when he was fucking wasting my time

Later that day...

[17:22] Me: Had I known I wasn't going to see you all day I would have just gone to campus

[ 17:22] Sheldon: I am seeing you, don't worry

[ 17:22] Sheldon: I promised

[ 17:23] Me: Whatever

[20:07] Sheldon: Hey

[20:35] Sheldon: Can l see you?

I did not see him that day. The whole day passed and I did not see the fucking him. I went to bed and I slept. Then again, I heard a knock on our door, it was 3am, in the morning. He wanted to talk.

We went downstairs. I was fucking angry. He told me that he wasn't around, I got more pissed that he wasted my day. Wasted my time. He literally played me. And now he just wants to walts and be like can we go to my room and talk. It was fucking 3am. Till now this is one of the freakiest shit I've done. I went to his room. And his room mate was sleeping and....

We started kissing....

I promise I will never stoop that low again I promise.

I later went out just before dawn. I stole his hoodie and vowed never to give it back just because well, he freaking owed it to me. I don't remember what the kiss was like but, I'm sure I enjoyed it.

I saw him later around maybe 2pm. One of my roommates had invited her boyfriend into our room and I thought, perfect time to go to see him. I went to his room. We were alone. We started making out again and in the middle of the makeout he was like.

"I have a girlfriend"

And I'm like "okay cool, let's continue"

Then he was like "this feels wrong, me doing this behind her back"

And I'm like what the fuck, you have been leading me on all this time. You fucking initiated the making out earlier today when I didn't want to, and now we are kissing again and you've suddenly remembered that you have a girlfriend and you don't want to kiss anymore after getting my feelings high?"

Now thats just cruel.

He also said he had to leave and go somewhere else. Like the fuck.

And I was like okay, listen, of it weren't because of you, I'd be safe on campus right now. You brought me here and you owe me this time. I made him stay.

I don't know, but I suspect he has an STI. I wasn't gonna sleep with him. But I think he has aids(skull emoji)

I left that house. Moved on campus. I saw him a couple of times, but my moving dried everything up. We talk here and there, but there is no romance there anymore