Claire was asleep, but I went to say goodbye anyway.
I cracked the door silently and then looked at the beautiful blond hair all over the pillow. But there was also brown hairâbecause Constance was asleep beside her. Together in the twin bed, they slept side by side, Claireâs arm on top of hers, the blankets hogged to her side.
With my hand on the door, I stared.
They both had fair cheeks like fresh snow, and their lips were parted with the peace that only came from sleep. Their unspoken bond traversed everything, and sometimes the resentment made my anger burn, because Beatrice never even tried to have that depth of connection with her own daughter.
But with Constance, it was effortless.
I didnât know why Constance had crawled into her bed. I didnât know if sheâd done it beforeâ¦or did it all the time.
I stared a while longer before I shut the door and left the house.
The ship was docked a mile off the coast.
Lights were killed.
Nothing but darkness.
The approaching ship was just as dark, with the exception of a glimmer of the light from a phone, from a flashlight off the scope of the gun. Red lasers swept across the docked ship then went black when they didnât find anything.
Bartholomew was beside me, basked in darkness, his shadow his presence. He gripped the rail and waited, his intelligent eyes watching the scene unfold in front of him exactly as we planned.
Our smaller boat was in the distance, blacked-out in complete darkness. We bobbed on the waves.
The men used their ropes to pull themselves up the hull of the docked ship and onto the deck, guns drawn, ready to kill off everyone in sight. They spread out, some taking the stairs to the hull, others moving to the tower.
Minutes later, they returned to the deck of the ship, obviously confused.
It was a ghost ship.
He held up the remote with the button in the center. âThe honor is yours, Benton.â
When you were on top, everyone watched. Everyone wanted a piece of the pie. When that answer was no, they decided to take it. It always ended in the same way. Just like this.
I took the remote and watched them scuttle across the ship like ants. In just a few moments, they would realize this was staged, that they hadnât outsmarted usâbut it was the other way around.
Shouts erupted.
The men found the explosives in the hull.
Bartholomewâs rare smile made an appearance. Wide. Beaming. Maniacal.
I hit the button.
Each section of the ship exploded out, rising from one level to the next, debris flying into the air as the inferno rose like a cloud to the sky. It roared like a beast, shattered their eardrums before their skin was consumed as fuel in the flames. The screams were just an instant in time before they were swallowed by death.
Just a few men managed to make it overboard and swim back to their ship that had remained unscathed. A few were still on, throwing out lines to get the men out. After they crawled into their boat, the engine kicked on, and they sped away.
I turned the dial and hit the button.
The red flames of the explosion contrasted against the blackness of the water. A singe of heat carried on the wind and hit us in the face, along with the scent of burned flesh. Their ship was small, so it quickly sank beneath the waves, gone.
Bartholomew stared at our ship that burned on the surface of the water, and soon enough, it would sink beneath the waves too. His hands gripped the rail, the smile still wide. âWell, that was fun.â
âWe lost a ship.â It was my idea, and the only way I could destroy the entire anthill, not just a few insects.
âWeâll buy another one.â
Claire walked between us on the sidewalk, her backpack bouncing up and down with her steps because it was nearly empty except for a couple papers and her lunch box. The sidewalks and streets were busy with people getting to their destinations, bags over their shoulders, coffees in hand.
Constance was on the other side of Claire, glancing down at her from time to time, giving her a smile that hid the pain behind her eyes. In her new wardrobe, she no longer looked like the prisoner of a cult that became my problem. Now she looked like her own person, in tight jeans, heels, blouses, and jackets, jewelry on her wrists and neck. Her long hair was usually done in soft curls, and her makeup made her eyes stand out, gave her lips new life.
I was exhausted after my long night, but I didnât want to miss taking Claire to school for the first timeâ¦first time since sheâd been gone. Iâd already had a conversation with her teacher, explaining that sheâd been taken out of school for personal reasons. Last thing I wanted was for her teacher and the other students to treat her like she was differentâand not in a good way.
When we dropped her off, there wasnât a hint of unease. She spotted her friends and ran off without a backward glance.
It hurt that she didnât say goodbye to meâbut it was a good thing.
I watched her backpack bounce up and down quickly as she ran to her friends, who were just as excited to see her when they spotted her. Hugs were exchanged. Laughter. Squeals.
It was time to go, but it was hard to leave her there.
A hand moved to my arm, slender fingers digging into my muscle, a kind embrace.
And there was a soft smile to go with it.
I met her look for several seconds, feeling a distinct connection that hadnât been there before, or at least that I hadnât allowed to be there before. The exact same emotion was in her eyes, like leaving Claire was hard for her too, albeit for different reasons.
We walked back to the apartment together, spending most of that time in silence.
Fewer people were on the sidewalk because everyone had arrived at their destinations by now.
The pathway seemed to be just for us.
Her boots tapped against the sidewalk as we walked, two steps for every one of my mine. âHow was your night?â
âLong.â
âYeah, you seem tired.â
âIâm always tired now.â I had to juggle two personas at once, and it wouldnât have been possible without Constance. The situation worked out to the advantage of us both. She had a lot of issues to resolve, so I suspected she would be around for a long time.
âAre you a drug dealer?â
The smirk was unstoppable. âNo.â
âThenâ¦a hit man?â
We were out in public, but I didnât give a damn. As long as Claire wasnât around, I didnât give a shit who heard what. âChasseur.â
âYouâre a hunter. What does that mean?â
âWe huntâa lot of things. People. Drugs. Money. One-stop shop.â
She walked beside me, her eyes on me as if she didnât understand.
âItâs complicated.â
âThen youâre in a gang.â
This time, I released a quiet laugh. âMore like an empire. More like a corporation. More like an organization that the police and government both know about. Weâre in the drug business, getting everything into France from our partners overseas. We pay off the right people like itâs an annual membership to your favorite warehouse store. We kill the people who fuck with us, and sometimes kill the people who fuck with the people who would never fuck with us.â I turned my gaze and watched her, watched her study me with calm absorption. âWeâre in plain sightâbut nobody sees us.â
âAnd the cult? Why do they have so much power?â
âBecause they have the acid market. Our relationship can be symbiotic, so weâre alliesâsome of the time. Their organization goes deeper than the camp. Itâs just a place they colonized so they can be freaks in peace.â
She gave a nod as if she understood, but she didnât understand a thing.
We returned to the empty apartment, the first time weâd been alone together without Claire.
It instantly felt hollow, like I was back in time, sobbing in front of the fireplace.
She seemed to know, based on the way she stared at me. âI can make you something to eat.â
I didnât need her to wait on me, to do anything for me. âIâm going to bed.â I turned back to the hallway.
âWill you pick her up with me?â Her question flew out quickly, a desperate plea.
I turned back around and met her look, seeing the fear that tinted her eyes the second I wasnât around. âHe wonât cross me.â
She gave a slight nod as she swallowedâbut she didnât seem consoled whatsoever.
âUncle Bleu!â
My brother lifted her into the air the second he stepped through the front door and into the entryway. âThere she is.â He held her with a single arm as he hugged her, the same fatherly affection in his eyes because she pulled at his heartstrings the way she pulled at mine. âI missed you.â
âI missed you too, Uncle Bleu.â
âI heard youâre back at school.â My brother ignored me as he entered deeper into the apartment, moving to the living room in front of the fireplace. Their voices carried as their conversation continued, Claireâs sweet voice sharing every little detail that happened during her day.
One day, she wouldnât want to tell me anything.
Wasnât looking forward to that.
I walked into the great room, seeing the two of them chatting on the couch, her horses on the coffee table.
Constance turned from the kitchen, in the middle of cooking dinner. Her cooking wasnât as good as mine, but it was edible, and lately, Iâd been too tired to do much around the apartment. Hopefully sheâd get better. She stared for a while because she had no idea who he was.
âMy brother.â I joined them on the couch.
Bleu and Claire continued talking, and my strong-and-silent, no-bullshit brother was practically a mother hen. âWhat did Angelica say to that?â
âThat she doesnât need any more friendsâ¦but sheâs really nice. I donât know why we canât all be friends.â
âBecause sheâs jealous.â
âJealous?â she asked.
âYou know, she wants to keep you all to herself.â
âBut I can be friends with both of them.â
âWell, you know how girls areâ¦â He rolled his eyes.
âYeah,â Claire said. âSometimes they can be mean, but I donât know why.â
âBecause youâre too sweet.â My brother gave her a pat on the head. âWhich is surprising because your dad is a bit of a dud.â
I gave him a playful glare.
âMy dad isnât a dud,â Claire said, immediately jumping to my defense. âHeâs my best friend.â
My hand went to my chest instinctively, a rush of blood right to my heart. Every time she said something like thatâ¦it killed me. I hoped we would always be this way, that when she was out of the house with her own life, we could still be close, still be friends.
Bleu smiled. âWell, thatâs nice of you since your dad doesnât have any friends.â
âConstance is his friend too.â
âConstance?â my brother asked.
Constance emerged. âNice to meet you.â
My brother lifted his gaze and looked at herâand I could read that expression like a goddamn sign.
I glared at himâhard.
He quickly composed himself. âYou too. Bleu.â His eyes immediately shifted to me, full of accusation.
Iâd forgotten to mention her.
âDinner is almost ready.â Constance returned to the kitchen.
Claire lowered her voice as she spoke to Bleu. âHer cooking tastes bad, but donât say anything. Itâs mean.â
Bleu didnât hear what she said because his gaze was on me, interrogating me with just his look.
âThe nanny.â It was the simplest explanation.
âThe nanny?â Bleu continued to stare with incredulity. âNever needed a nanny beforeâ¦â
âWeâll talk about it later.â I grabbed a glass of water and took a drink, brushing off his curiosity.
Claire said goodnight before Constance took her to get ready for bed.
Now it was just my brother and me in front of the dying fire.
That look of accusation was back. The question was silent.
âClaire refused to leave the camp without her, so I took her.â
âThat doesnât sound like something you would do.â
âSheâ¦protected Claire.â That was all I could get out. Didnât want to repeat the horror story Beatrice had shared with me. âSo, Iâll give her whatever she needs.â
He absorbed that for a while, the implication of my words hitting him right in the heart. It was a while before he said anything. âAnd she wants to live here?â
âSheâs afraid Forneus will take her if sheâs on her own. Sheâs right. Probably will.â
âAnd the solution to that is to live with you forever?â
âShe asked me to kill him. I said noâas much Iâd like to. But Beatrice returned to London to live with her parents, so I need the help anyway, especially since Iâm out of the house at all hours of the night now.â
âPermanently?â he asked, referring to Beatrice.
I nodded.
âBitch.â
âIâve made my peace with it.â
âYou donât make your peace with anything.â
I turned my eyes on the fire. âIf she doesnât want to be in Claireâs life, then I donât want her here out of obligation. Claire deserves better. Claire deserves to be loved unconditionally, not to be resented and neglected. I can pick up the slack. I had her most of the time anyway.â
He stared at the fire too, his hands rubbing together. âYouâre a good father.â
I watched the flames burn lower, getting closer to the soot-covered logs.
âAre you screwing her?â
âNo.â
âAre you going to?â
I turned back to him, my eyes as cold as the frost against the windows.
He continued his stare, pressing the question.
âSheâs the nanny.â
âSo?â
I shook my head and looked at the fire again. âNot my type.â
âWell, sheâs definitely my type, so can Iââ
âNo.â
âYou donât want her, so whatâsââ
I turned back to him. âThis discussion is over.â
âSo, you do want her, then.â
âThe woman is fucking traumatized, and you want to hit on her?â
âShe seems fineââ
âSheâs not. Nearly has a panic attack every time I leave.â I knew she was still adjusting, and the last thing she wanted was some guy asking her out for a drink. âMake her uncomfortable and Iâll make you uncomfortable, alright?â
Bleu finally abandoned the topic by raising his hands in surrender. âDamnâ¦alright, then.â
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