Chapter 59: First Time Love

If you aren't ready, don't let anyone pressure you. You both should be ready.

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(A/N)

Yikes, smut. I'm so embarressed.

Jaimie-mae looked over herself in the floor length mirror, examining the silky, short babydoll dress she brought a week ago, just to surprise Fabian. It was in his favorite color and she had the matching Calvin kleins under it. She eventually took them off because she could see the line through her dress.

The both of them had bought a set of Calvins because Fabian thought it would be cool to match underwear secretly.

She was waiting for him to come home from his haircut patiently and thought she might as well set up something cute for him.

She had put a color changing diffuser on his bedside table and she had also straightened up the room and added a few flowers around as well.

She was excited but also slightly nervous. Sure he had seen her naked before, but she'd never really dressed up for him before. For some reason, he had been pushing back the request she had made and she thought it was because he just didn't want to have it with anyone unexperienced but then she heard him talking over the phone with Malakai saying he had never taken anyones virginity so he was scared he would hurt her.

She intended on making him just as comfortable as he would her.

"Jaimie! Im back." The sound of the door shutting had her scrambling out of the bathroom and towards the livingroom which was connected to the kitchen.

"Sorry i came in so late, i was getting us a piz-" Fabian's sentece broke off abruptly when he saw Jaimie-mae standing there in a cute little silk dress with no bra. "Hey, beautiful," he said in a slight daze.

She grinned happily. "Hi Fabe."

He licked and then bit his bottom lip as he trailed his eyes from her head to her painted toes.

"What's this?"

"I wanted to look cute for you today." She spun in a circle to prove her point. The dress lifted a bit showing off her bare butt.

He set the pizza down, almost missing the island and stepped forward. "Go to my room baby."

Her cheeks flamed up into an intense blush and she raced towards his bedroom with an excited but nervous squeal.

She crawled up onto his bed and fixed the dress, laying it neatly over her thighs as she waited.

When he came in, he was already out of his socks, shoes, shirt and his hair was ruffled crazily, but in a very ruggedly handsome way.

He was nearing the bed but then he stopped abruptly. "Hold on a second, i gotta go wash my hands real quick."

Jaimie-mae huffed and squirmed around as he sprinted out of the room. He came back quickly with his hands still damp, but she didn't care.

He dove onto the bed and tackled her with kisses all over her face. She spluttered with laughter as he peppered kisses down her whole body. "You smell good," he mumbled into her neck.

She giggled in reply and tilted her head up so he could have more access to her neck.

He leaned up and looked into her blue eyes. "I want to make this as easy as possible for you okay. If it hurts too much, you have to tell me. Don't act like it doesn't to please me, if it hurts too much you tell me and i'll slow down. Promise?"

She nodded and linked her pinky with his. "I promise."

He leaned down and kissed her neck. "Jaimie, you look so gorgeous today."

"Thank you," she said breathlessly as he kissed the tops of her breasts.

"Can i take it off?" He asked as he slipped his hand in between her legs.

She arched up as she felt his fingers brush over her center. "Uh huh."

"Sit up for me."

She immediately sat up and was almost panting as she felt his hands brush over her collar bones, slipping the straps of her dress down her arms.

Once the dress was off, she was completely bare to him and she didn't even really mind. He made her feel beautiful as heck.

He began trailing open-mouthed kisses over her body and she was basically shaking in anticipation. However, she didn't whine for him to touch her because she was savoring the feeling of everything, this was a memory she'd like to remember.

"You're so good Jaimie. So patient for me," he whispered against her skin.

His mouth found hers and she kissed back eagerly. He smiled against her lips when she arched up into his crotch.

"I'm just as excited as you Jaimie. Can you feel it?"

"Y-yes," she whispered.

"Im gonna put a finger in, tell me if you want me to stop. Okay?"

She nodded quickly but that wasn't enough for him.

"I need you to use your voice Jaimie. I need to know your following."

"Yes. Okay," she said breathlessly.

He slid his finger up and down her center, sliding her arousal around. "Your so wet Jaimie. All for me. You make me feel so special."

That was the total truth. She did make him feel special. He wasn't blind to the way she admired him. He saw how much she truly wanted him. He never doubted her love for him. He would even see her try to subtly clench her thighs together when he walked around without a shirt, but he never said anything, he just let her be.

She gasped as his index finger slid into her suddenly.

"You okay?"

"Yeah," she said breathlessly.

Fabian scanned her face to make sure she was telling the truth before slipping his finger in and out gently.

All of a sudden, she giggled quietly.

"What's so funny?" he asked with a small smile.

"It kinda sounds like macaroni," she said with a small laugh.

He bit his lip to keep from dying with laugher. "What the hell Jaimie? I've literally got my finger inside you and you're here thinking about macaroni. I'm dating a child."

She laughed and then moaned quietly at the movement.

He chuckled. "Can i add another finger?"

"Mm, yeah."

He pushed another finger in, stretching her.

"Your so tight Jaimie."

"That feels kind of weird."

"It will." He kissed her forehead. "Im sorry Jaimie."

"Its okay. As long as its normal."

He pulled his fingers out and looked between her legs before pulling his pants down and then his boxers. He basically threw them across the room before he grabbed a condom from the bedside table and carefully slid it on.

"Wait. What about the pizza?" Jaimie-mae asked suddenly.

"We can heat it up and eat it later," he said with a light chuckle.

"Right. Sorry, i'm killing the mood."

He laughed quietly and kissed her lips. Once, then twice. His hands trailed up and he kneaded her small breasts in his warm hands and she sighed in satisfaction.

"That feel good baby?"

She nodded and closed her eyes as he lightly brushed his hands down over her breasts and down her tummy.

"Are you ready Jaimie?"

"Y-yeah. I am," she said nervously.

He grabbed himself and guided it to her entrance. "Remember what i told you?"

"Yes."

"Good. Im gonna go nice and slow."

"Okay." She put her hands on his shoulders and looked into his brown eyes just waiting for him to press in.

"Relax." Fabian began to slowly enter her and she squeezed her eyes shut and whimpered.

He froze. "Whats wrong?"

"N-nothing. It just feels kind of big and strange."

He carefully leaned down and pressed a gentle kiss to her lips. "I love you."

"I love you too."

He began pushing forward again and then stopped when he felt the barrier. "Deep breath Jaimie."

She did as he instructed and he pushed through at once which made her cry out. She bit down on her lip to silence her cries and Fabian immediately began apologizing.

"I'm sorry. I am so sorry. Baby, i love you. If i could take the pain away, you know i would. I am so freakin' sorry." He began to lightly play with her breasts to take her mind off the pain.

She blinked the tears away and stared into his eyes and smiled lightly. "It's okay."

He hissed when she suddenly clenched around him.

"Is it supposed to hurt you as well?" she asked worriedly.

He shook his head and clenched his jaw to keep himself from moving. He would have laughed if he wasn't trying to hold back a groan of pleasure. He loved that she would always check to see if someone else was okay, even if she was in pain as well. "No. It just feels really good to be inside you."

"Do you need to move?"

"I want to. But i don't need to. I'll wait for you to adjust."

She leaned up and kissed the tip of his nose. "Go ahead. Its not just gonna magically go away. Don't worry about me, i'll be fine."

He looked at her for a second. "Are you sure?"

She smiled and nodded encouragingly. "Make love to me," she whispered.

With that, he thrust forward gently, completely losing himself in the feel of being inside his love, Jaimie-mae. This feeling was so different. It was special and something he hoped to keep engraved in his mind for as long as he lived.

***

Jaimie-mae winced as he slowly pulled out of her. He was panting for breath and slightly sweaty but she found him undeniably attractive in that moment.

Even though she couldn't seem to enjoy it because of the lingering pain, she loved watching him in bliss.

She absorbed every groan. Every husky moan. Every sigh of pleasure and every clench of his sharp jaw.

"Im sorry you didn't get to finish Jaimie. I promise your next time will be amazing," he said quietly, still in a daze.

He kissed her lips. "You did so good Jaimie."

She smiled tiredly in response.

He got up and went into the bathroom to throw away the condom. He came back in, still naked, which for some reason made Jaimie-mae blush, with a cloth in his hand.

"Can i clean you up?" He asked gently.

She nodded shyly and turned her head away.

"Open your legs for me."

She slowly did as he said and whimpered in pain. He got down between her legs and kissed the inside of her thigh before going in and wiping the soft, wet cloth over her.

"I'm sorry Jaimie. Maybe a nice warm bath will help with some of the pain."

She nodded and sat up slowly. He carefully lifted her from the bed and pressed kisses to her face as they made their way to the bath.

He sat her on the bathroom counter before making sure the water was warm and filling the tub. He added some bubble bath before helping her down from the counter and into the tub.

"Bella didn't say it hurt her this much afterwards," she said as she sank down into the warm water.

"Everyone's different."

"Did it feel good?" She asked shyly.

Fabian stepped into the tub behind her and she leaned forward for him to sit properly. "It felt really good. I just feel bad that you didn't get to enjoy it like i did."

He'd never talk about the other girls he'd been with to Jaimie-mae because it just felt totally wrong to him, but sex had never felt so amazing with anyone else. He wasn't thinking about anything else around him. Everything seemed to fade and all he could feel was her clench around him, Jaimie-mae's soft body underneath him and her silky hair when he buried his face into her neck to moan.

Sometimes, he used to get embarresed around other girls because he felt like he wasn't doing it right. The looks on their faces made him nervous and self-concious. He would sometimes wonder if he was big enough but Jaimie-mae never made him feel that way. He knew he was good looking, but he truly felt it around her. He wasn't scared to show her his body because she wouldn't judge him, or let alone care.

"Thats okay. We live together now so we can do it again another time."

He kissed her shoulder. "Yeah."

The two of them relaxed in the water and played around with the bubbles.

"God, you're just so beautiful," Fabian said into her ear.

A huge smile lit up her face and she turned around in the tub to face him. "Thank you." She leaned down and nipped at his jaw. "My man is so handsome."