Chapter 58: Love Talks

Love is a beautiful kind of fear

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Fabian rubbed the sleep out of his eyes as he walked shirtless into Jaimie-mae's room, following the sound of her cries. He knew something was wrong, but she didn't tell him and he didn't want to push her.

Climbing into bed beside her, he wrapped an arm around her waist and her cries immediately quieted down into hiccups.

"Im sorry," she whispered as she ran her hand over the arm that was securing her in place.

"It's alright," he said through a yawn. "You should tell me what's bothering you so things like this don't happen."

"I... im just a little nervous."

"Nervous?"

"Yeah. Starting some place new always has me nervous. I was a wreck when i moved into our town back home. I got over it though. And besides, i've got you," she said as she turned around and buried her face into his chest.

He ran his hand through her hair. "Yeah you do. I'm nervous too actually."

"You are?"

He laughed a little. "Yeah. I don't wanna let down my dad."

"You and me both know you won't. And you should be doing this for yourself, not your dad."

"Yeah, your right."

After a few minutes of silence, Fabian could feel Jaimie-mae pushing herself against his chest.

"Jaimie, what the heck are you doing? This is literally something Fae would do."

Jaimie-mae wasn't usually so touchy and affectionate, though Fabian didn't mind, it was just a bit rare. He was usually the one to be feeling her up.

"We have a place alone now."

Fabian raised his eyebrows in the darkness, wondering where she was going with this. "Yeah, and?"

"Ca- i... you know what, nevermind," she muttered.

"No, tell me whats on your mind. What are you feeling?"

She looked up at him through the slight darkness. "Can you make love to me?"

He sat up pin straight in the bed. "Are you serious?" He asked breathlessly.

"Y-yeah. Ohmygosh, this is so embarressing," she mumbled and then she smothered herself with a pillow.

He laughed quietly and pulled the pillow away from her. "You don't need to be embarressed. We both love each other. I'd love to make love to you, but wouldn't you rather it be special. You know... with roses and candles and all that stuff."

She sat up and crawled into his lap, kissing his bare chest. "No not really. Its special because im with you."

He fake sniffled and pretended to wipe away a tear. "That hit me," he pointed to his chest. "Right here."

She laughed and swatted his hand away. "Your hearts on the left side stupid."

He burst out laughing and rolled off the bed. "Oh my bad."

She giggled and peaked over the edge of the bed. "Well? Will you?"

He looked up at her from the floor. "I'd love to. But you were just crying and you need your energy. So lets do it another day."

She pouted. "What whyyy?"

"I need to go to the store and buy protection Jaimie. As much as i'd like to see you carrying my beautiful children, i don't think your mom or my parents want you coming back to visit four months pregnant."

He climbed back into the bed and sprawled out. Jaimie-mae eagerly climbed on top of him and he chuckled in response.

"You really want me, huh."

She blushed and pinched his cheek. "Stop teasing. Do you really want to have kids with me?" She asked quietly.

"Yeah, of course i want kids with you! We basically had a kid. In case you didn't remember, her name is Fae. And she was my sassy little puppy. And her mommy is just so beautiful it's like... just unbeleivable. Thats you, in case you didn't know."

She laughed and placed kisses across his knuckles. "Thanks Fabian."

"No problem. You know, i can't wait to make love to you. I've been dreaming of this moment since the day i fell in love with you. And i hope we do it in my bed because then my sheets will smell like you and i'll be in literal heaven."

Jaimie-mae cringed a little. "Ew, gross. I hope you wash those or better yet, throw them away."

He laughed and ran his hand down her back. "Whatever you want Jaimie, as long as i get to love you."

"Ugh, d-did that... thing i did for y-you in the bathroom, feel good?" Jaimie-mae stuttered out.

Fabian shuddered just thinking about it. Even his cheeks turned rosy at the thought. "Yes, it did."

"Okay, good."

"We should probably get some sleep. We need to go to the shops in the morning."

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Jaimie-mae was expecting to come home from the shops with grocery bags and snacks to eat, instead she came home with a beat up Fabian.

"You didn't have to start a fight," she sighed as she dropped him onto the couch.

He scowled at her and winced as he sat weirdly on his bruised hip bone. "He started it. I ended it... kind of."

She laughed and went to the freezer to grab some ice. "Why would you do that? He was twice your size and looked like he had experienced college for at least two years."

"Did you not feel him burning holes into your ass, Jaimie? I should have pulled a jump kick on him for provoking me."

"We were supposed to leave that back at home."

"Its out of my system now. We should be good."

"Pfft, yeah. You got it beat out of you."

He smirked at her before pulling her down and attacking her neck with kisses. "Shut your mouth and kiss me, stupid."

She smiled up at him and grabbed his face. "Gladly. Stupid."

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A/N

Okay, so i don't know who actually is the one reading this book, but somehow its reached 1.07K reads and i'm freaking out.

I just want to say: "Thank you so much!"

It's not a ton, but its made me feel the most accomplished i've felt in a long time.

I have this bad habit where i start something and say i'm going to finish it; but then if i get midway through and no ones said anything or no one has seemed to notice, i stop.

And i need to stop that.

And its not just with writing, its with academics and other projects.

But, here on wattpad; i finally get what the hype of having readers and votes on a story means to people.

Now, i'm promising myself right here, right now; that i won't get hooked on writing just for reads. I'll write for myself and hopefully i'll be writing so that someone else can enjoy.

Its crazy because i started this book last year - i think - and i can see my writing has improved since then in the other books i'm writing.

But once again, thank you to whoevers reading my - eh, its okay - book. It means more than you realize.

I honestly feel so motivated right now. I'm going to finish my school work and i hope you guys find your motivation somewhere.

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