51.

February

Y/N

It was now February as Michael has been gone for a month and some days filming for black panther out in Atlanta. I was out in LA due to helping Laila get ready for her Grammy performance. At first Laila didn't want to open up for the Grammys because she felt like it was a huge thing for her to be doing this soon and it scared her but after the family convinced her to do it she's been having high anxiety about it. I felt bad because she was truly scared and everyone was looking at the fact it's her opening the Grammys and it being a big thing but I understood how she felt. Laila was one of the best performers for the VMA's and was even recognized for it by many celebrities and fans but she was feeling weary about this. Now Because of her having high anxiety about the performance she said the only way she would do it is if they allowed me to be on stage with her so she could be more comfortable.

We were currently at the dress fitting my mother was having for the performance and for the red carpet making sure everything fitted perfectly. "I always loved you in red" I heard Laila say as my mother fixed the hem of my dress and laid it perfectly on the ground. "It looks sexy against your skin" my mother said as I looked in the mirror at it and it did. " I used to HATE bright colors against my skin" I honestly admitted. "Meanwhile  I always told you it made you pop" she said. "Your skin is so beautiful" Laila said as I smiled. "Mean while I'm over here looking like light bright" she started off as I looked at her crazy. "Why I couldn't be dark skinned too they don't even believe you're my mother and you're my sister" Laila brought up.

"Laila don't say that. Don't pay into the colorism bullshit. You know how genes work" I said looking at the time on my phone reading 12:25 pm. I had a doctors appointment at my OB/GYN at 2 so I had to hurry up here and go there. "You know y'all father was light skinned Y/N just took after me and you took after him" my mother explained. "Your skin is just as beautiful Laila" I assured her. "I don't like the stigma behind it though" she said. "Trust me it don't matter if you're light skinned or dark skinned there's a stigma because you're a black woman" my mother explained as I agreed. "Besides you change the narrative and stigma by showing that not all of us act like that. That's what I do" I said "you be you and don't changed" I assured her as she smiled.

"You're beautiful" I said reaching for her hand as she smiled harder and held my hand as we looked at ourselves in the mirror. My phone begun ringing as I looked down and seen it was a FaceTime call from Michael. "Hey baby" I answered "Hey" he said getting in the camera with his hair and mustache all grown out. "Make sure you cut all that down by the time you get back home" I said as he laughed. "Why you hating?" He asked "ain't nobody hating I want my man back" I stressed as he chuckled "relax They're doing my hair tomorrow" he assured. "Aight and it should be gone by the day after tomorrow when I see you right?" I questioned as he sucked his teeth. "I'm going to be filming still" he brought as I laughed.

"You know I'm just playing with you" I assured as he chuckled. "What you doing?" He asked as I flipped the camera showing my dress in the mirror. "MM Damn girl....Go ahead and do what you got to do so you can see daddy" he said  as I immediately placed my phone into my chest and looked back at my mother as she just looked at me continuing to fix the end of my dress. "MMHM" she hummed loudly as Laila burst into laughter. I took the phone from my chest "I don't know what this man is talking about" I assured my mother. "You know exactly what's going on when you get here-" Michael started off but I cut him off before he could do anymore damage. "Michael shut the fuck up" I said then flipped the camera back on myself as my mother was in the background. "Ooo" he said covering his mouth then took the phone from his face.

"I thought you had your AirPods in your ear?" Michael whispered. "Nigga do you see any?" I whispered back showing my ears as Laila continued laughing. "I'm tweeting that. That's funny" Laila said. "You better not" I said. "Babe I'll call you back" I assured immediately hanging up. "Y/N why can't you call him baby or love?" My mother asked as I couldn't help but laugh. "Ma I got to go" I started off grabbing the hem of my dress and stepping off the stage to go in one of the dressings rooms of my mothers store.

I hurried and changed back into the black sweat suit I was wearing with a pair of Uggs. I placed my hoodie on along with my hood and placed my dress back on the hanger then placed it into its garment bag. I walked out as my mother took it from me putting it on a rack that held Laila and I's dresses for the performance tomorrow night on it as well. "Alright mommy" I said placing a kiss on her cheek. "Where you going?" My mother questioned. "About to call her daddy" Laila teased beginning to laugh. "Shut up" I said to her before looking back over at my mother as she just shook her head. "I can't wait until William finds out you calling him that" my mother brought up as I just sighed while playfully rolling my eyes. "Are we really upset about me calling him daddy?" I asked.

"I already knew you were a freak" Laila said with a smirk as my mother just shook her head. "Momma you ain't a freak?" Laila asked as we both looked at her. "Exactly" I said as we all shared a laugh. "I can be one y'all can't" my mother argued. "Well I'm grown, with a husband so" I started off "but I have an appointment" I assured. "Not she getting a wax before leaving to see her man" Laila teased. "It's a doctors appointment dumb ass" I shot back. "Y/N don't call him that anymore" my mother said. "Okay I won't" I assured kissing her cheek again. "Bye bitch" I said to Laila as my mother just opened her mouth. "Bye slut" Laila said back as my mother shook her head and Laila and I laughed. I then placed my sunglasses on while walking out to my car seeing reporters here and there taking pictures.

I got into the car starting it then called Michael on FaceTime as he answered on the the third ring. "Hey baby" he said as I propped my phone up. "Hey daddy" I said with a big smile as we shared a laugh. "What your momma say?" He questioned as I placed my seatbelt on then pulled off. "She told me not call you that anymore" I informed as he chuckled. "My bad usually you be having your headphones in" he said as I just shook my head. "Next time just send a freaky text" I suggested as he chuckled.

"What you about to do?" He questioned. "I got my yearly exam so I'm going to do that then go home, finish packing and get Lola together because I'm going to bring her" I explained. "Aight" he agreed. "Our anniversary is coming up" Michael brought up as I smiled. "I know" I started off "that dick better be up and ready for when I get there" I said as he just started snickering. "You know I got you" he assured as I giggled. "No but I have an idea I think you'd really like" I assured him as he smiled. "Is it a gift?" He questioned "It's a date idea I have" I said. "Well our anniversary is already planned" he informed.

"Oh really?" I asked "yeah baby you know I stay ahead" he said as I smiled.

"Okay well I'll save it for your birthday then" I said as he smiled. "I think you're going to like it." I added as I finally pulled up in front of my OB/GYN. "Anything you do I'll like" Michael assured as I smiled. "I'm at my appointment" I brought up. "Call me back when you get out" he said. "Okay love you" I said. "Love you too be safe mama" he responded as we said our goodbyes and hung up.

I got out the car and went into the doctors office checking in and about fifteen minutes later I was called into the back where they collected my information like my last period which was the day after yesterday along with my weight and etc. They also collected urination samples to run any testing before directing me to my room. Once I was in my room I stripped down and got into the examination gown they had for me. I climbed up onto the examination table and just sat there swinging my feet taking a breath. Along with my Pap smear I wanted for my doctor to remove my IUD. I didn't know how long it was going to take before I could get pregnant so I just wanted to take it out a couple of months early before the wedding to see if I am even fertile because if I wasn't I was going to have to finally talk to Michael about other options because I really wanted a child and I know for a fact so does he.

The doctor came into the room, completed the exam along with the IUD removal as I felt slight cramping. "Some of your side effects of the IUD being removed is cramping, Nausea, passing of blood clots and bleeding but you also may not experience any of it, it just depends on your body" she started off "hopefully for your sake none of them stated happens because Valentine's Day is around the corner" she joked as I laughed some and agreed. "Your periods will also be irregular for a couple of months" she added as I nodded. "Do you have any questions about the IUD or the removal of the IUD?" My doctor asked I shook my head . I don't , Thank you" I thanked . L"you're welcome they will take care of you at the checkout desk" she informed before we said our goodbyes and I went out to set up my yearly Pap smear exam for next year around this same time.

I didn't tell anyone I had my IUD removed because I wanted to lay low about this whole baby thing. I wanted it to be a surprise of course for everyone but also didn't want to get any hopes up in case something happens.