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⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️

Y/N

Atlanta

"Hey babe" I heard behind me as I was washing the dishes in the sink thinking about the video of a masked woman giving Jevon some head along with him fucking her. "Hey" I mumbled continuing to do what I was doing. He started going on and on about his day as it went in one ear and out of the other. I turned the sink off and dried my hands off before grabbing my phone.

"Can I ask you a question?" I questioned "Y/N don't start with this shit" he started off. "I already told you I have an interview in the morning with papa johns" he said as I just shook my head. "I wasn't talking about that" I said soon being cut off "you pregnant?!" He asked. "No" I answered as he just looked at me. "What's the issue then?" He asked as I pulled up the video and showed it to him.

"Why THE FUCK" I started off "Bae that ain't me" he expressed as I looked at him crazy pausing on his face. "So that ain't you?!" I asked showing him my phone again. "Whoever sent you that shit lame as fuck" he said waving me off. "No Nigga you're lame as fuck. I sit there and handle my shit and this shit" I said referring to the apartment. "Yet you go and cheat on me with another bitch?!" I questioned.

"You went in this bitch raw too" I added as he rolled his eyes. "You know what" I started off placing my hands on my head. "I can't" I expressed. "You can't what?" He asked "I can't with this!" I semi yelled. "You want to know why I cheated on your ass?!" He questioned. "Why?!" I asked crossing my arms. "You act like all you're worried about is school, work and dance you ain't worried about me and what I want." He explained.

"I AINT WORRIED ABOUT YOU?!" I asked loudly. "NO WHY YOU THINK I FUCKED THAT BITCH?!" He questioned yelling. "You got to get the fuck out" I said walking towards the door. "I ain't going no where you got me fucked up" he said as went in the room beginning to grab his things. "Bruh" he said yanking his stuff out of my hand and pushing me to sit down on the bed forcefully.

"Don't put your hands on me!" I expressed standing up as he pushed me back onto the bed this time with more force than the last time. He then pushed me again as my back hit the bed this time. "I ain't going no where" he simply said. "Then I'll leave" I said trying to get up but he pushed me back on the bed and grabbed my legs beginning to forcefully dragging me on the bed closer to him.

"You ain't going no where" he said in my face as I tried to push his hands away because he was beginning to grip me to hard. "Jevon stop" I started off as he grabbed my arms pinning them above my head with one hand. "Stop Jevon I'm not playing with you" I warned. "What? You want to be fucked like that bitch in the video?!" He questioned. "No Jevon I want you to let me go" I said feeling my eyes water.

His hands soon went around my throat as I tried pushing him off but he wouldn't budge. "Stop!" I expressed feeling him pull my gown up as I started kicking. "Jevon no I don't want this" I frantically said. He soon begun to choke me harder as I started to cry. "You do what the fuck I tell you" he said in my ear. "You ain't going no where you know what happened last time you tried to leave. Do we need to do that again?!" He asked as I begun to cry like a baby.

"DO I NEED TO GET MY GUN Y/N?!" He yelled as I continued to cry beginning to gasp for air. He took his hands from my throat going in the top drawer of the dresser. "Jevon" I started off as he pulled out his gun. I decided to get up and hurt into the bathroom but he grabbed my arm pushing me up against the wall forcefully. He then placed his gun up to my head. "It seems like this the only way I can get you to suck some dick around here" he loudly said in my face as my tears just streamed down my face.

"I fucking hate you" I let out hearing him chuckle before I felt a string across my face. I just grabbed the side of my face as I didn't look at him. "No one else is going to want your black ass so you're stuck" he started off. "Now get your ungrateful ass on the bed" he said as I got on the bed slowly. "Nah turn around so I can look at your face." He said as I felt a whole bunch of emotions but of all I felt weak and humiliated.

"Jevon I don't want too" I started off but he cut me off. "I don't give a fuck about what you want it's about what I want" he spitefully said as I laid on my back and looked up at the ceiling waiting for him to start, hurry up and finish. About ten minutes He finished and walked out of the room not saying anything.

I just turned on my side hearing the front door to the apartment close and then started crying even more. I was really wishing I took Michael up on his offer about me staying with him before I left for Atlanta because I hated everything right now including myself. I contemplated heavily on suicide but I was also scared that if I did it that'll immediately go to hell so I never went through with it. I just tough it out but I honestly don't know how much I got left in me.

I grabbed my phone going to my Pandora app while walking towards in my bathroom. I turned the shower on and closed the door beginning to play Rihanna Radio through pandora.

I started getting undressed as "Love On The Brain" begun to play.

"And you got me like, oh

What you want from me? (What you want from me?)

And I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high

Baby you got me like, oh, mm

You love when I fall apart (fall apart)

So you can put me together

And throw me against the wall"

My Gown was soon off as I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I looked horrible. I just didn't feel nor looked like myself. Although I wasn't a virgin with Jevon I just felt like some part of my innocence was stripped away. I just wanted to be comfortable and safe With my partner and he made me not only scared of other men but him too. I just wanted to feel loved and to be okay but I was never allowed too. I continued looking at myself seeing bruises on my neck from the hickies he left.

"Oh, and baby I'm fist fighting with fire

Just to get close to you

Can we burn something, babe?

And I run for miles just to get a taste

Must be love on the brain"

I just stared at them til my eyes got blurry from the tears forming in my eyes. I hurried and got into the shower beginning to scrub myself harshly while crying hysterically. After twenty minutes of crying I finally washed up and got out of the shower.

I got dressed into a pair of sweats and oversized shirt deciding to Try and call Michael. I sat on the bed and placed the phone to ear as it begun to ring and ring and ring and eventually went to voicemail. "Hey Michael it's Y/N. I know you're probably busy but I just wanted to talk to you because I miss you" I started off feeling tears roll down my cheeks. "Um" I said and looked down. "Just call me whenever you can. So Be safe and I love you ALOT" I added. "Bye" I ended before hanging up and tossing my phone to the side.

I just laid back beginning to cry myself to sleep.

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Present Day

My eyes immediately opened as I felt an arm Around me and I looked back at Michael asleep. I just grabbed my phone reading "3:25 AM". I then seen two missed calls from Ayanna along with a text from Dani.

Dani🦕: who is this bitch?!

She asked as I seen a link to a Instagram live . I slipped from out of the bed with Michael and went downstairs into the kitchen beginning to play the video seeing Maya and What sounded like Jevon going back and forth on live.

"No because you raped me and you placed your hands on me and I'm exposing you" She argued. "Bruh Why you capping ain't nobody rape you" Jevon argued. "You've been putting your hands on me for a while now. You even admitted to doing the same thing to Y/N when we first started messing around with each other" She brought up.

"Y/N who?!" Jevon asked "Michael B Jordan's Y/N. you know, don't play fucking dumb Jevon she was your girl friend back when we were all in college together" Maya explained as I felt my heart drop hearing her continue to talk. "You raped her more than once and you placed your hands on her more than once and now you're doing it to me."  Maya argued. "aight yet you was okay with it and was on my dick behind her back while Y/N and I were dating. Make it make sense" Jevon said. "I'm going to expose you simple" She said before the live ended.

I just threw my phone on the island counter and leaned on the counter placing my face in my hands beginning to have a breakdown because this was the LAST thing that needed to get out.