7: The Secret.

A M E L L I A

We are now sitting in the living room, the younger ones including me are having fun teasing the old ones while the older brothers talks about something.

"Okay, I think it's time to tell her." Alec said, of course referring to me, after all I'm the only lost girl here.

"You haven't?" Uncle Lucian asked

And yes I got to memorize their names and how they look like!

"No, we haven't, well we were supposed to, but knowing you all are coming, then why not tell it all together? That could make sense for her more." Dad said.

"Okay, Okay. Tell me what?" I asked totally confused.

They all looked at me.

"Amellia, please listen carefully, for sure this will shock you. But please stay calm and tell us when you feel uncomfortable, okay?" Giovanni said.

I nodded my head eager to know about what they were hiding from me.

"Amellia, do you know what mafia and yakuza are?" Ojīsan asked.

"I know Mafia, but Yakuza? No, I haven't heard of that. What is that Ojīsan?" I asked.

"They're almost same Magomusume. Only that they came from japan." Ojīsan answered.

I looked at them confused.

"And what's that got to do with us?" I asked.

They all looked at each other, I already have a feeling but heck I need to confirm it.

"We are one of them Figlia." Dad said.

I looked at them shocked but recovered immediately.

"She really is Hara and Ruscov mixed, fuck, if our eyes ain't focused on her, we wouldn't notice how her expression changed, it was so fast. She could change expression faster than any of us." Ao said in complete shock.

"Yeah." Alec and the others agreed while the oldies just smiled.

"So, care to explain?" I said.

"Yeah, so here Figlia. This started with our ancestors. We— my side of family owns 2 mafias, the Italian and the American Mafia, the American Mafia was won by our ancestors and passed down to my grandfather's father then to my grandfather then to your grandfather then to me and then to your brother. So we basically held the position of being the strongest Mafia for ages. While your Mother side of family is the leader of the biggest Yakuza group in Japan, they are well known for it." Dad explained.

"D-Do you kill?" I asked hesitantly.

"Yes." Alec answered standing beside our father looking at me with no emotions.

"Innocent one?" I asked again.

"No." Gio answered.

I was relieved with that answer.

I look at them hesitantly, I want to ask this question but I'm scared that this will anger them.

"Ask it Magomusume, we won't be mad." Ojīsan said.

"Did your kind of men k-killed Mom?" I asked on the verge of crying.

I never met my mother, all I know is that she would cry all night.

They all looked at me shocked, well Xandrix is Angered, he looked away as soon as he saw me looking at him.

"Y-Yes." Dad answered my question.

"Why? What did Mom do?" I asked.

"She did nothing Ell. She did nothing." Xandrix answered.

"Then why? Why would they-" I was cut of by a raging Xandrix.

"BECAUSE OF ME! OKAY? CAN WE NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT OUR MOTHER?! 'CAUSE IT'S HAUNTING ME STILL! SO PLEASE! JUST PLEASE SHUT UP ABOUT HER! I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS ANYMORE!" He shouted angrily and walked out.

I looked at him in shock, fuck. O triggered him, oh self you just got here and now your triggering your brother.

"I'll talk to him." Xendric said.

But before following Xandrix he kissed my forehead and whispered "Everything will be alright Bambina. He's not mad at you."

X E N D R I C

I followed my twin brother to the balcony of the house.

"You do know you scared her right?" I said pointing out his mistake right there.

"I know, I messed up, so much!" He said crying.

For the first time, he admitted it, and he cried. Just because it's our Sorellina we are talking about here.

"She's curios Xan, She doesn't know a thing about our Mother." I reasoned to him.

"I know..." He said looking up in the sky, it's near night, you could see the sun going down in this balcony.

"This, this was the time she died, the sun was going down, we were watching it." He said still looking at the sky.

"I know Xan, but what can you do at that time? You were still young and you were scared. Even Dad don't blame you." I reasoned.

"I know, but I was there when she was killed, she was protecting me." He said crying even more.

"Everything will be alright Xan, trust me." I said.

"I know." I looked at him and smile.

Such a development for those 2 ½ days that our sister is here.

"So now, what are you going to do?" I asked.

"I'll talk to her, when I'm already calmed and I can make sure that I could handle taking all her questions without being angered by it."

I nodded with his answer as we both watch the sunset.

X A N D R I X

Couple of hours passed, I'm now walking towards my sister's room. I don't know if she's mad at me or worst scared of me.

I knocked on her door.

"Come in." She said.

I could feel the guilt that I was trying to ignore earlier, this only happens when it her. She sounded like she just finished crying.

I opened the door and walked in, it's dark, which shocked me as it always scared her. She would cry and cry before because it's dark, only Alec could make her stop crying, but now here she is crying in the dark because of me.

"Elli." I called her.

Even in the dark, I could see how she wiped her tears when she saw me.

"Xan! You need anything?" She asked fake smiling.

"Don't ever use those fake smiles on me again Bambina, it hurts a lot." I said.

I know I'm the reason why she's like this and seeing her fake her smile just doesn't sit right with me.

"What do you mean? I'm not faking my smile." She said laughing, or let say forcefully laughing.

"Don't lie to me Elli. I know what I did, and I admit it." I told her which made her stop and look at me.

Just for her, I'll admit anything, everything. I promised to never let her get hurt and cry, but here I am making her cry, I need to fix this.

She lowered her down down a little, then I heard faint sobs.

I walked towards her and hug her.

"I'm sorry." She apologized.

"No Sorellina, I'm sorry. Your not at fault, you will never be at fault because of what happened, okay?" I said to her trying to ease and calm her down.

"You got angry, I asked about something you don't want to hear." She said still crying in my arms.

"It's nor your fault Elli, it will never be your fault for being curios about our mother. It's not your fault I didn't want to talk about her. I didn't even asked you if you wanted to talk about her. So now Elli, I'm asking you, do you want to talk about her? Hmm?" I asked.

Right now, I don't care if I get those memories back, I want my sister to know everything, I want her to feel that I'm not hiding anything from her. I can't keep myself away from her for my whole life, that won't just kill me, it would kill her too knowing that she will think that I hate her.

I felt her nod her head, that's the sign I needed to start telling.

"Our Mom, she's the most beautiful woman you would ever see, like you. She would never let her children feel alone at any cost, she would also always protect them. We didn't expect having a girl in the family after 10 boys, but we were so happy, we're over the moon when we saw you, all we could see is beauty in you. Mom named you after our Grandma, and she also decided on your second name, Mio. Which mean beautiful cherry blossoms. That necklace of yours, she designed that, all of us have it, the only difference is that in our necklace 1 butterfly is missing." I started and showed her my necklace.

We always wear this necklace, no one ever removed it.

"Did you notice why?" I asked.

"Because the missing butterfly is protecting the butterfly inside the circle." She answered.

"That's right, each of the butterfly represents all of us, you being inside the circle. Your necklace is designed by Mom to remind you how many protectors you have. While ours reminds us of how we should protect you. Even if that means leaving our place just to protect you, we will. And we stand by that." I continued.

"That day, the day our Mother Died. It was sunset, we were watching the sun go down as usual, it's something we always do that reminds us of you. The sunset is always so beautiful. But that day, it was tainted with red, someone got inside of the house, someone we trusted with our lives, he tried taking me, he said I'm next after you, that's when I knew he knows something. But mom did not let it, she hugged me tight, but he shot her, 3 times, in the heart, that made sure she's dead, I saw how she died and I couldn't do anything, I was already 10 but I couldn't do anything, I saw how our mother signaled me to run away. He also tried to shoot me but failed when Alec shot his hands first making him let go of his gun." I told her the story that haunted me everyday.

I wish I could have done something.

I felt her hug me tighter.

"Xan, please don't blame yourself, Mom will be mad at you." She tried comforting me.

"I just can't help but to think that I couldn't do anything." I cried.

I never cried in front of anyone, even if it's my twin.

We just cried at each others arms that night, I felt relieved, I felt loved, I felt those feelings our mom once used to make me feel. You're our Light Amellia, you've always been my Amellia.

But I wish, we too could be your light, your our darkest light.