5 : Panic.

A M E L L I A

"Elli, I would like you to come to my office after dinner. Rules will be given, but before that, Enzo will be checking your wounds and injuries." Dad said.

It's already night and we're already eating dinner, we're having pasta as diner but as good as it looks I can't really eat.

I'm not used to eating such foods, morely this much food.

"Ell!" Someone shouted.

I flinches then looked at my Eldest brother who apparently been calling.

"Don't you like the food? We could ask them to cook something else." He asked.

"No, it's not like that. I'm just not used on eating too much." I explained.

"Eating nothing is too much? Who told you that Sorella?" Lorenz asked.

"Yeah, you haven't eaten anything since you came here." Enzo said raising his eyebrows.

"I mean I could eat some apple? Please?" I said hoping that they'll let me.

Keilo opened his mouth only to shut it up again when Dad talked first.

"Okay, but we will talk about your eating. If needed I will hire a dietician for you. You need to gain some weight Bambina." Dad said handing me an apple.

"But Dad-" Xandrix tried talking.

"Let her." Lorenz stopped Xandrix.

"She haven't even-" Handrix tried but stopped with just a look from our brother Enzo.

The three who tried looked at me worried. But what caught my attention is Xandrix, he's usually cold and would never talk to me. Since I came here this morning he haven't talked to me, it's like he's avoiding me.

We looked at each other for a little then he raised his eyebrows showing his cold as ice eyes. He then rolled his eyes avoiding my gaze.

I looked down not knowing what I did wrong.

X A N D R I X

She's back, fuck. My Sorellina is back. But fuck, now's really the bad timing. I'm keeping my distance from her, I will not allow myself to bring out my anger on her. I can't control it, when anger comes in it just comes out on anyone in front of me. Only my brothers and father could handle it. I don't want to hurt her, I'm supposed to protect her.

I smile mentally every time I looked at her, she reminds me of how happy we all are when she was born. Her Eyes reminds me of our Mother.

I could still remember how I couldn't protect Our Mother, the reason she died. The reason my sister wasn't able to see her right now.

I promised, not only to Mom but to myself that I will protect my sister even if that means I need to stay away from her.

I just need to end this thing with this fuckers. If it's only my father and brothers this wouldn't be a problem, but with my sister? No I don't want her Involved into this kind of things. At least not yet.

"So Deep into your thoughts, aren't you Xan?" My twin brother suddenly asked.

I let out a big sigh as I looked at him tiredly.

"I'm just scared that I'll just let my anger out on our Sorellina." I said.

"Yeah, like that's all." He sarcastically said.

"Fine. I can't leave the Gang. They said I need to kill them first before I could leave, they do know that They have a lot of power while I'm still there." I said.

"Why don't you just tell Dad? He could kill them." He suggested.

I looked at him with the are you serious look.

"What?" He asked like he really didn't think about he said.

"Dummy, they do know. They just can't go around and kill them, and after all I already said yes on fighting them." I said.

Reckless I know.

"I see, that's not the only reason your keeping your distance from her." He said out of nowhere.

I looked at him confused.

"You remember Mom. And you still blame yourself. Xan, seven years. Seven years has already passed yet you still blame yourself that night?" I looked at him blankly.

I don't know what to say, I mean he is right.

"Xan, even our own father doesn't blame you. Is that the reason you got into that Gang?" He asked.

"No." I simply answered.

"Then why?" He asked.

I looked at him, my eyes starting to blur, my head starting to hurt as I remember what those jerks did.

How the hell did I get this emotional?

"That night, after our sister was kidnapped. That jerk called me, told me that's she's there. I was still young and dumb at that time Xen, I wanted to see our Sister, I don't want to see Mom and Dad cry anymore. So without their permission I went out, got my car keys and drove to the plays they wanted me to be in." I explained.

They scared me, I couldn't fight that time, my body is so tired, I also have a weak body when I was younger, I get breathless with just a certain movements. My body is not used with fighting.

My twin brother followed me that night, I didn't notice that. They caught him, they touched him and tortured him in front of me, that made me lose. I lost that night, not wanting my brother to be hurt anymore. They don't have my sister, I tried getting the hell out of there but I can't. This would cause a big war, that gang is together with the Syria Mafia. Not that big of a Mafia but would really cause a war.

Not now that My sister literally just came back home. Not now that she still doesn't know anything.

"Fuck! Xan. Xan! Breath you dumb ass." Xen shouted.

I didn't notice it, but I was slowly losing control on my breathings.

X E N D R I X

"Xan! Heck, breath with me, follow my breathing." I said to my twin who is now having a panick attack.

This always happen when remembers something. He have memory of this certain happening that I couldn't remember at all.

I pressed the intercom that connected to my Father's office when his breathing still isn't stable.

"D-Dad, Xan's room. Please." I beg as I look at my brother who is now looking everywhere while holding his hair.

"Coming." Dad said as I heard foot steps.

A R M A R R O S

"D-Dad, Xan's room. Please." My son Xendric beg as I hear my son Xandrix's breathing getting heavy.

My Oldest sons practically run downstairs to their brothers room, I followed them Amellia at my back following us.

"Xan, Xan, Xan follow my breathing." Enzo said as he made Xandrix hold his wrist.

"Look at me." Enzo said.

Xandrix's breathing is still heavy, he won't calm down. Fuck.

"Brother, I know your mad at me but please calm down, your scaring our brothers and our father." I looked at my daughter surprised as she hugged her brother tightly.

Xandrix's breathing started to go back to normal as he let his sister hug her tight. After a while he hugged her back.

"I'm sorry La mia sorellina. I'm not mad. I will never be mad at you. Please understand your brother for now." That statement shocked not just me but also his brothers.

He never said sorry. He have his Ego high up, but this, this moment really do say something about my daughter's power over her brothers.

He hugged her a little tighter.

"Kizutsuite iru no wa wakatte imasuga, imōto-san, shinjite kudasai." He said hugging her as if his protecting her.

"You do know that I don't understand a thing about what you said, right?" She said that made everyone in the room laugh.

"Way to ruin the moment Sorellina." Xandrix said with a playful annoyed voice.

She laughed.

Hearing her laughs makes us happy, I want her to be that happy always.

A U T H O R

I

actually wrote this chapter while at school, I was so bored, there was no class because we were trying to verify our accounts for the NLCA which is some kind of a test.

(Don't mind my penmanship, I don't usually right like that, only when I'm tired or not in the mood.)

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