Chapter 11

The End of the Dream – unedited

I felt my head turning weird with that scent and the heat’s fever.

Just as Yuugo told me, I took off everything I was wearing and got down on all fours on the bed. In my right hand was the optional item from that long and thin box.

That thing that I took out from the paper bag, was rod-shaped and thicker than my thumb.

It has the same white color as the other round optional item, but was made of a different material. This one was about as hard as an eraser, and the surface was slick rather than smooth.

It has a rounded tip and a streamlined body. The base of the body is slightly wider, and there was a ring-shaped handle on the end of it. Even without being explained what it was for, it has a shape that made me could easily imagine how to use it.

If I was in a normal state, I probably wouldn’t want to touch it. But that wasn’t the case with me now.

I felt a tingling inside my butt just by looking at that shape.

That’s just how much I was delirious from the heat’s fever.

{Sou. You don’t have to put it in right away, just try rubbing it at your asshole for now.}

“Mn…”

As Yuugo instructed me, I rubbed the rounded tip around my asshole.

The liquid that was the characteristic of omega slid down and oozed from the hole. I’ve noticed that this place would get wet from a long time ago, so I wasn’t surprised.

I slid it over and over as if to smear the slimy liquid from my butt.

Just that sensation alone already felt so good, enough to make my hips rock back and forth.

“Mm mn….”

The slippery sensation was totally different from the time I rubbed it with my fingers back then.

I arched my back as I grunted. This feels really good.

{Looks like it’s going smoothly. Aren’t you scared?}

“I- like this…”

{I see. You’ll feel even better if you press it against your asshole.}

“—I’ll try.”

I’d feel even better.

When I heard that, I couldn’t help but try it out. I pressed the tip against my asshole.

It made a squelching sound.

“Ngh ah….”

The soft and tender part of me could almost swallow that thing with just a light push. Still, I didn’t have the courage to push it hard enough, so I just pressed against it lightly for now.

Just doing that alone already felt so good, just like what Yuugo said.

Even my inner thighs started to tremble. My breathing was getting faster and hotter.

“ah, ….ahh, ngh.”

{That’s a cute voice. You seem to be feeling good.}

“Ngh…. It feels- good.”

I was so absorbed in it that I pressed it again and again.

Maybe Yuugo could hear the wet squelching sounds.

Even though it felt embarrassing, I couldn’t seem to stop.

“….ah ….aah!”

My body stiffened at the shock that suddenly hit me.

I didn’t know what had happened for a moment, but the pressure I felt inside my butt made me realize what had happened.

{Did it get in?}

As I reacted with gasping for air, Yuugo seemed to notice what had happened.

As Yuugo had said, the tip that I had been pressing against my hole like crazy, has slipped inside.

“Ah… ah, what to do.”

{It’s okay. It doesn’t hurt, right?}

“It, doesn’t.”

Because I panicked, I unconsciously released my fingers from the ring-shaped handle. Even so, that thing that has got inside didn’t fall out from my butt. It seems like the first knotted part has gotten inside.

I shuddered to my knees with the fear of something unfamiliar.

I could feel the vibrations in my butt through the optional item that had entered me. And that wasn’t all.

“Ah… What- is this…? It moved on its own.”

I didn’t touch it, but that thing was inching its way inside.

I screamed out in surprise at the increased pressure. I tried using my strength to squeeze it out, but it didn’t seem to work.

When I stopped straining my stomach, it got even further inside instead.

“No, ah…. It’s scary.”

{It’s okay. It’ll stop at the right spot. Just relax your body.}

“Eek, ….no, Yuugo, …..Ahh ah.”

{Calm down. Come on, breathe in slowly.}

While hugging a cushion that was in front of me, I frantically called out Yuugo’s name.

I just realized that I wasn’t breathing properly when Yuugo told me to breathe in. I desperately tried to breathe in while pursing my lips.

The inside of my head went numb again.

“Ah… the scent, is-”

{I made it a bit stronger. So you could tell.}

“Mn, ugh…”

Every time I breathed in, I felt a numbness in my head. My body twitched on its own.

I pressed my lower body against the cushion.

My body curled up with the stimulation from both the back and the front. It seemed like I had unconsciously tightened my asshole as well, because an indescribable sensation spread slowly from inside there.

“Aah, ngh… ah”

The scent from the round thing felt like it has melted the core of my head.

A warm feeling of happiness spread from my butt. I could tell that my omega’s desire was being fulfilled from there.

{Sou. Does it feel good?}

“Mn…. It’s really- good… I’m happy.”

{Look at you, melting this much by my scent. So cute… Sou.}

“ugh… ngh, ah, ah….”

I couldn’t tell what was being said to me anymore.

Just hearing Yuugo’s voice made me happy. I want him to talk with me more. I want to hear his voice more.

“Yuugo, talk… more.”

{You like my voice?}

“Mm, I like it. I like you, Yuugo.”

I didn’t even have the leisure to be aware of what I’m saying. Those words spilled out on their own.

Once I realized that rocking my hips back and forth while tightening and loosening my asshole feels the best, I got absorbed in that.

The center part of my body that I hadn’t touched at all was painfully tense.

“Yuugo…. my…. my- alpha.”

{You think of me that way? I really like you too, Sou. My… My one and only omega.}

“Ngh, nghh…. aaah!”

—My one and only omega.

The moment I heard those words, the fever inside me swelled up.

It happened so fast that I couldn’t hold back the urge. White liquid spilled out from that part of me down there.

The trembling in my body didn’t stop.

It should be the first time I touched it, but I reached a climax with just the stimulation from behind.

*

After the gut-wrenching first day, the rest of my heat was surprisingly peaceful.

Even the second day that was usually tough, was symptom-free as long as I took the meds. To think I didn’t even feel any fever or tingling, it was the first time my heat felt this mild.

Still, my head hurts every time I remembered what happened on that gut-wrenching first day.

When I woke up that day, I couldn’t understand what had happened to me.

I thought it was all just a dream, but that round optional item was still on the desk, and in my butt…. the other item was still inside. I hurriedly pulled it out and threw it in the trash can as if to hide the evidence.

It was garbage day, so those items were no longer in my hands. But that didn’t erase the memory of that day. It was like the sensation was still left in me.

The earphone and phone were still lying on the bed.

I checked my phone fearfully, but there was no call history of it left, and the chatting screen was ended with the text “its tough and theres something weird” that I sent.

It was rare that I hadn’t received any reply from Yuugo.

I haven’t talked to Yuugo since then. Or rather, I couldn’t do that anymore.

That was because I had terminated the Virtual Alpha app.

After I opened the app and pressed the button with ‘close’ written on it, Yuugo no longer send me any messages.

It was obvious, yet I feel somewhat lonely. Maybe I’m just stupid.

“….But, what do you expect me to do other than that?”

Even if it was just a dream, I still didn’t know how to accept it. I remembered everything, but only vaguely. Yuugo’s voice, his breathing…. I remembered everything.

When I remembered it, my body trembled regardless of the heat’s fever.

I didn’t want to be conscious of that part of myself, so I ran away. Yuugo told me to accept myself, but I couldn’t possibly do that.

I’ve always enjoyed it.

The trivial talks I had with Yuugo, the serious talks, the silly talks, everything.

Thanks to Yuugo I almost came to like studying, and I could go through my heat feeling better than before.

But, I couldn’t think…. that I can just use him like that anymore.

“…Damn. Why?”

My eyes were hot.

I didn’t know why I felt like crying just because of something like this.

But, it’s been like this for the past three days. I thought I would be able to get rid of these unstable emotions once my heat was over, but as the days went by it only got worse.

I had no one to talk to about this.

I pressed my face against the pillow. I didn’t want to think about anything for now.