Chapter Sixteen

Chapter 16:

The entire day I've been restless, tired and worried. Sin finding out...

How is he going to react? Will he get angry, pity me, hate and despise

me?

I sighed as the night set in. It was as if the moon goddess wanted this

secret to be revealed. But what would that do? Destroy the new

relationship we've built? Or Strengthen it Even more?.

I slipped into my black nightdress that fell right above my knees,

tightening the shoulder straps, I threw on a silk loose gown and stared

at the mirror of the walkthrough closet. What was going to happen

tomorrow? The same question circling my thoughts.

I felt warm arms wrap around my waist pulling me into a warm chest.

Sin's scent tickled my nose as he buried his face into the crook of my

neck, placing light kisses.

"What's got your mind so occupied?” he questioned.

I quickly slapped a smile on my face and turned towards him shaking

my head.

"nothing really.” I said as I stepped out his hold and sat on our bed.

Caitlin was long asleep. I pulled the duvet over my bare legs, slipping

off the silk gown and laying my head on the pillow. Sin slipped in next

to me his bare chest pressed against my back as he switched off the

side lamplight.

"Sin?" I called out to him.

"hmm," he replied.

"Promise me something?" I requested. He shifted a little, pulling me

closer his hot breath hitting my nape.

"hmm" he repeated.

"promise me tomorrow, you'll try to understand and won't go on a

horrid rampage?” I asked.

A silence lingered, and I turned around only to see him fast asleep. How

will he react tomorrow? just how?

I walked into a dark room. Nothing but a mirror in front of me. It was

starting again. I looked at myself not trying to find any beauty. I was

just Isabelle. I didn't deserve to be called any stunning name, I didn't

deserve to be called a true mother, after all, I put Caitlin and me

through. I wanted to Cry. The dreams were starting again and no doubt

I was going to degrade myself again. But that's fine Sin won't have to

see my pathetic side.

I sat alone in the darkness. I was used to it. A little light doesn't always

last. Once Sin finds out tomorrow it's over for me. The once strong

Isabelle will show how pathetic she was and still is. He won't accept a

weak mate and maybe that's why I couldn't come back to him in the

first place.

I knew Liliana was the Devils daughter but in all honesty, I would have

returned to the Palace after hitting off a few fumes, my thought was

maybe allowing him to suffer for 2 years. But during that I put myself

through alot, trying to hurt Sin only destroyed who I was. I wasn't

Isabelle anymore, I was pathetic, insane, I was ugly... I was just

disgusting.

Nothing could save me from this dream. Nothing in all honesty.

Nothing at all, because the darkness is never, and will never let me go.

And I cried. I let my tears fall, I can't be strong in this dark place. I

couldn't. I just couldn't.

I felt a cold hand burning my hot skin as I shot up and looked around

hastily. I was always woken up like this. And I hated it. My eyes scanned

the room as quickly as it could and a strong arm pulled me to a warm

chest.

"Shh Isabelle, it's okay, you're okay.” Sin's voice invaded my ears.

"I'm fine," I said as if nothing happened.

"You were crying Isabelle, there's no way nothing happened.” I stilled in

his arms.

I picked up my shaky hands as my wet face touched the pads of my

fingers. Why now? I've never cried to the point t where it would be

noticed in reality, I only cried in my dreams. So why now?

Sin caressed my bare back as he placed kisses in the crook of my neck.

"you're okay." he whispered. If only he knew. "come on Isabelle it's

already past dawn, we have to go the pack doctor.” he said as he let me

go and slid out of bed.

I looked at the draped curtains and brought my knees to my chest. Sin

was not going to be happy. Not a single bit.

-Rama!