16.

𝐊𝐀𝐘𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒, 𝟏8

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PENTHOUSE📍

im pregnant.

the last few weeks ive been throwing up like crazy

and i havent had my period.

so i took a pregnancy test a week ago and turns out..im fucking pregnant.

i dont even know what the fuck to do, i dont know how to tell siah..

i have no doubt he'll take it well..

but i don't know if im ready to be a dad..

everything it happening way too fast

between kyah being missing and prob fucking dead, my parents getting a divorce..and me being pregnant.

i just cant.

"you okay?" siah asks kissing my lips, i nod in response

"you sure?"

"yeah."

he hums

"ima go to the store for ya fever, getchu more medicine." he says before kissing my cheek gently and walking away.

i climb further onto the bed, pulling myself into a cradle position.

i wish i wasn't born with this body.

i feel disgusted with myself almost every day

my tears roll down my face as i rock back and forth.

i feel pressure trying to come outta my throw and i rush to the bathroom.

hacking up what i previous ate

which was strawberries and mayo.

don't judge me ho, im pregnant.

i closed and flushed the toliet

then started to brush my teeth for the 7th time today.

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𝐈𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐀𝐇 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐒, 𝟏𝟗

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ma baby is so sick, he been throwin up like crazy.

im getting pain pills fa him and some food.

he been eatin alot of food lately, lot of weird shit.

ass gettin fat too though

"that'll be $35.57 sir." the cashier says as she scans ma stuff.

i hand her a hundred dollar bill and walk out the store.

a few minutes later i arrive back ta his house

i unlock the front door, and hear gagging coming from the bathroom.

i rush up the stairs and swish the bathroom open

i quickly get next to him and pull his locks into a ponytail, pattin his pack gently.

he finally stops and sits up.

"you sure this is just a fever baby?" i say wipin his mouth off with a warm washcloth

"we can go to the docto-"

"n-no, ill be fine"

"nah, medicine is obviously not enough. we need to go to the doctor." i say this time not suggestin but tellin

"Isaiah i dont wanna go." he whines, and i smack ma lips

"and why not-"

"because i-its not a sickness siah.."

huh?

"wdym?"

"isaiah, im..im pregnant."

whoa.

"a-and im keeping it so if you wanna leav-"

i pull him into a hug, cutin off his last words.

"dont you ever say that, i would never leave you." i muffle inbetween tears.

he hugs me back just as hard, and we just sit there

on the floor.

in eachothers arms

in silence.

i finally pull away and look at him, kissin his lips hardly before wipin his face.

"i cant believe im gonna be a dad.." i say smilin, he gives me a weak smile before gaggin

he opens the toliet bowl and throws up again.

"yeah, we are goin to the doctor."

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