29|| Stone-cold beast

Okay, I don't know how but I let out the inner poet of me in this chapter. I don't even know how I came up with these stuff 😂  Anyways enjoy this ultra poetic chapter 🍿

I needed her, I needed her so bad.

Every moment, I was saying "I need you".

Every moment, I was hoping, wishing she was here.

Every moment, I was wishing that it was all a nightmare.

Yet she didn't return.

{ AMIR'S POV }

Every day light peaked through the small window, yet all that had reflected through the light was darkness.

In a few months, I had literally turned into a beast. A beast much worse than the one I was two years ago.

This beast hated everyone, including himself. Actually, mostly himself.

This beast was offered food and water every day, yet he didn't drink a single drop or ate a single bite.

This beast was forcefully living, as though he was living in his death.

This beast, was given life imprisonment for killing his belle.

Yet, this beast was alive. Alive, for no reason. No purpose. Except for hating himself.

This beast was so dark, that even the shining stars would fail.

This beast was so cold, that even the hot sun couldn't burn on it.

This beast only cried behind closed doors.

This beast only howled in pain silently.

This beast broke down every day, yet he never asked for help.

This beast felt so much, that he started to stop feeling.

This beast held his tears inside, only to seem like a ruthless and stone like man.

But, he knew from inside that he was still Amir.

He knew his heart wasn't as cold as he pretended to be.

He knew that after so long he had given up. Yet, his heart still searched for her.

He knew that he was only punishing himself, for his bad deeds.

And one day, when his heart had given up. His mind had given up. His soul had given up. He made a deadly decision.

A decision that he thought would free him. Free him from his pain. Free him from his grief. Free him from his deathly life.

Only, if he knew what was coming ahead wasn't so dark. What was coming ahead would actually make him free. What was coming ahead would be the sweet fruit of his patience.

Yet, he took the deadly step. The step, he never thought will occur to him. Yet, it did.

And if he was to die tonight, she would be the last person in his mind.

He went ahead to a silent corner, a corner where he thought no one would see him.

"I can't bear this anymore"

"Life is not worth living"

He held his neck. He held it tight. He started choking himself. As though he was choking on his bad deeds. His sins. His mistakes. As though he was choking by swallowing the pride that led him here.

And he started feeling as though he was fainting. As though he was passing out. He had lost all his strength. And that's when he thought he was dead.

But, he wasn't. When he started passing out, his hands started weakening. It didn't have enough strength to continue choking himself.

And suddenly he heard her voice.

"Before you give up, think of why you held on for so long"

It was as though, his mind was making it all up. He felt as though Alizeh was there for her. She was the one who had stopped her. But, he knew she wasn't there.

It was just the fragrances of her body, that was still present.

Her voice, that still echoed. Echoed loudly in his ear.

Her memories, that he could never forget.

And that's when I realized, what a stupid step I was about to take.

That's right his body sabotaged himself and kept him alive 😂 I know I know you can't choke yourself 😆 Okay, I won't joke about serious stuff 🙂

But, I found a meme that is me AF

And yes, this beast won't speak in third person anymore, it was just this chapter. I kinda wanted to do something new 🤷🏻‍♀️

Oh and also, for those confused about the pic it's basically a representation of his cold heart that is basically stone cold but is still soft... you know what I mean right? 🤣

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Intermission

What will happen next?

Taking a break from posting for 2 weeks 😐 Why? Because I have a field trip for drama where they are taking us to New york and well I will be there for like 10 days 😍 Though, I don't really like New York it will be fun to watch broadway plays and go with friends. I'll do a double update after 2 weeks

Also, sorry for the long outro 😐