failure

I seem to write down my thoughts

But not always tell the truth,

I tend to know my fears,

But then I lie about them when I said them out loud

Because there are many fears that haunt me,

And it's the greatest one I seem to be blinded by

What does it actually feel like,

Hitting the rock bottom,

Finally feeling the solid ground beneath me

Finally feeling the deep ends of Earth

Failure, that's the worst fear

But, I should know it by now

The word itself carries so much power

Looking at things thinking there well

But they aren't. failure

Oh, why do you love me so much

Nobody tends to notice, not even I

Because I chose to be blind when it hits.

Failure, when papers are due, tests arrive,

Projects appear here and there

Failure don't come now

I seem to be doing so swell,

Don't come while my reputation is clean,

Failure don't come and taunt me