Wrenn had been harboring a thought in her heart for a long time, and it was starting to overwhelm her.
âActually⦠I am a bit scared, not of her, but of her despising me,â she confessed to Frederic.
Frederic paused his actions, took her hand, and held it in his own. âWhy would you think that? From what I see, Neera is not a petty person, and I donât think she has any disdain for you.â
âEven if I donât want to admit it, I have indeed done many things that hurt her, and Iâve also hurt Jean.
These are things that canât be erased. How could she not be fed up with a bad mother-in-law like me?â
Wrennâs heart felt heavy, as if burdened by a stone, making it hard for her to breathe.
She was in such distress that she could hardly bear it, and tears welled up in her eyes. âHoney, what was I thinking before? How could I have been so foolish, unable to discern peopleâs true intentions?
The Laker family was clearly using me, trying to climb up to Jean. How could I not see it? Also, Jean clearly expressed his thoughts to me. Why couldnât I listen? I⦠I wasnât such a harsh and bitter person before. How did I become like this? I feel like Iâm losing myselfâ¦â
As she spoke, her sadness grew, and tears rolled down her cheeks. âSheâs such a good girl, yet I was blind, always distrusting her, doubting her, speaking harshly to her. How can she possibly forgive me?
Because of my foolishness, I almost harmed Jean, causing him so much suffering. What kind of mother/am I? No wonder she doesnât want to deal with me. Now that I think about it, I canât even forgive myself! She tolerated me so many times before, but it was because Jean was hurt that she couldnât bear it anymore. She truly cares for Jean. Why couldnât I see that? What kind of person am I? I despise myselfâ¦â
The long-standing guilt and remorse buried deep in her heart had been tormenting her incessantly.
No matter how many times she apologized, no matter how many times she expressed her gratitude, that pain couldnât be eased.
Every time she saw the cold indifference in Neeraâs eyes, it felt like a needle pricking her, making her hate herself more and more.
At that moment, Wrenn poured out all her worries. She buried her head in Fredericâs quilt, crying silently like a flustered child.
Frederic watched with distress, continuously stroking her shoulders and back, his eyes filled with tender concern. âAll right, all right. Wrenn, stop crying. If you keep crying, your eyes will swell up.â
But Wrenn continued to cry as if she wanted to release all the sorrow she had been carrying for so long.
Frederic smiled helplessly. âWrenn, if you keep crying like this, people will think my condition has worsened again.â
Upon hearing those words, Wrenn was displeased. She sat up and lightly slapped him, though she didnât use much force. âWhat nonsense are you talking about? Donât jinx it. Take it back.â
Frederic chuckled heartily. In a very good-natured manner, he complied. âOkay, okay, I take it back.â
âStop crying, okay?â He tried to sit up a bit, to be closer to her, but he lacked the strength and leaned back again.
Wrenn stared at him, somewhat worried, and quickly stood up to support him. âDonât move around recklessly.â
But he held her back. âI wonât mess around. You sit down. Are you feeling better now?â
The conversation returned to the initial topic. Wrenn sniffed, murmuring, âItâs just unbearable.â
A soft chuckle escaped Fredericâs lips, tinged with affection. âYouâre all grown up now, yet youâre crying like a little child.â
Wrenn, her eyes glistening with unshed tears, glared at him. âIf I feel suffocated inside, isnât it natural for me to cry? Iâve been holding it in for so long, and you keep causing trouble, scaring me half to death. If I donât vent a little, Iâll either go mad or become depressed.â
Gazing at her tear-streaked face, Frederic sighed. âYouâve been carrying too much on your mind. Ever since Jean fell ill, youâve never really relaxed. You should let it all out. As for Neera, donât rush things.
Mending relationships takes time. Neera isnât petty or overly concerned about minor details, but itâs inevitable that she has some resentment. We were in the wrong, and we have to face the consequences.â
âI knowâ¦â Wrenn unconsciously rubbed her hands together. âI know that when I do something wrong, I have to take responsibility and accept the consequences. Iâm just⦠just feeling so choked up and angry at myself. Sheâs such a good girl, yet I judged her based on my own standards. I was so foolish to have messed up our relationship like this. Moreover, I realized that Iâve never prioritized Jeanâs feelings. I always doubted him, putting him in a difficult positionâ¦â
âItâs not too late now,â Frederic said thoughtfully.
âIs it?â Wrenn was uncertain. âI always feel that, no matter how much I try to make amends, Neera will never forgive me. Are we, as a family, destined to live in this awkwardness forever?â
The thought of her actions potentially ruining their potentially blissful family life filled her with even more regret.
Frederick sighed again. âWhat has happened, even if you regret it, has still happened. Itâs an unchangeable fact. I understand you want Neeraâs forgiveness, but I have to tell you, this canât be rushed. What we can do is to be as good as possible to Neera and the children. No matter what Neera says or does, we must be tolerant and understanding.â
At that moment, he paused, then continued, âTo be honest, there is no need for us to demonstrate understanding or tolerance. Even if she appears to dislike us, she has never treated us with indifference. Whenever there is a problem, she always puts forth her best effort to assist, never allowing past grievances to influence her actions. This girl, she is truly a genuine and pure individualâ¦â
The realization that Neera was willing to go to great lengths for the heart intended for the heart transplant surgery made Wrenn feel even more ashamed.
She wiped the tear from her cheek, experiencing a profound sense of relief and tranquility. âI comprehend. Regardless of Neeraâs attitude towards us, I will strive to treat her well and love her as if she were my own daughter. Even if she disregards me, it is acceptable. As long as she and Jean are happy together, that is all that matters.â
Frederic nodded. âIt is commendable that you hold this perspective, and it is not just you, but also meâ¦
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