9: Revelations

I watch Gemmy wave to me as she begins to make her way to school, we talked for hours until her parents got home yesterday. She told me all about how she had made a bunch of fake friends and among those fake friends was Hollie.. I had to hold back my comments about her and how I knew her sister.. She looks just like her it's really scary, her sister Jamie was the girl I “Dated” back in high-school. The one who made it a bet to date me.. the same Jamie who actually shed a tear at my funeral. But what really got to me was when she mentioned Nick.. I can tell she was apprehensive in telling me, maybe she thought I'd get jealous? But she has no real motive to think that unless she actually feels something for me.. And I know for a fact she doesn't. The way she described how her introduction with Nick went surprised me.. It sounds nothing like the best friend I once knew and loved like a brother.. The Nick I knew was a fun loving all around nice guy, he would never treat a girl the way he treated Gemmy and for a second it made me want to go after him.. Because Gemmy doesn't deserve to be treated that way.. This Nick she described seems so angry and frustrated, and I can't help but wonder if it's because I well died.. Get over yourself.. It can't be just about me.. Maybe he's being bullied? I mean I guess the both of us were sort of loners.. But I always thought I held Nick back in that sense, he always wanted to try out for after school things and I was always the one two shoot him down about it. I always thought he had potential in having real friends, not like me.. I ruined everything with my My dad died so i'm allowed to hate the world attitude.. I hope today she actually manages to have a proper conversation with him.. If he's still the same old Nick I know deep down, than there's hope.

“So this what you do all day? Sit and wait for Gemmy to come home?” My dad's voice sounds all too quietly throughout the room. I turn to face him, “Pretty much” I sigh looking down at the floor and then back out the window where Gemmy is far away enough that she looks like a small speck. I would bombard my dad with all the questions he left me with after saying Gemmy and I needed one another.. I know he won't be able to elaborate more I just wish I knew why that is.. But I have a feeling if I ask I won't get an answer. “How long has it been since you've left this house?” He takes a seat on the far side of the window seat. “A year” I shrug, hugging my knees to my chest. I feel like such an adolescent, love struck by a girl I can't have, and most likely doesn't want me, and not being able to really live.. It's like high-school all over again.. except i'm actually dead.

“That's a year too long Niall..” my dad breaks through my thoughts

“Yeah well I have nowhere else to go” I sigh and rest my chin on my forearm. “C'mon” he stands and pulls lightly on the sleeve of my shirt. “Where?” I look up at him confused, “Out” he states simply and start to head down the stairs. I don't know why but I end up following him, maybe he can't tell me the things he wants to say but he can sure show me? At least I hope so..

I tried my best at avoiding Hollie and her clones but it was no use she found me every time I thought I was safe.. “Gemmy are you even listening?” Hollie brings me back from my thoughts, actually I wasn't even thinking anything I had just found a way to phase Hollie out and her mindless talk about shopping, hot guys, and makeup.. Seriously there's a lot more to life than all those material things.. Like being able to talk to the dead.. My subconscious purrs and I ignore it, I am not normal.. I mean I always knew I wasn't there is just something that makes me think differently about everything, sort of like I have an outside point of view of my own life.. I can see things others don't like Niall, and I guess I am unique in a sense but I don't try to be. Not like Hollie or her clones, I am naturally like this.. I wonder if it has anything to do with the fact that I feel like I don't know where I come from, yes I know the first year of my life is probably meaningless anyway I mean I was an infant.. But I feel like there's so much more to it than just that.. “Gemmy!” Hollie interrupts my thoughts yet again, “Huh? Oh sorry I was um-”

“Whatever, look we're having a bon fire down by the pier later you wanna come?” she asks as we walk into homeroom and take a seat at what I assume is her usual table. “Um I dunno..” I stall I don't know how to say no to this girl, she'll most likely just keep insisting. “Well think about it and make up your mind by the end of the day” she sighs as Robin takes his seat beside her. I notice Nick walk in behind Robin and my gaze follows him to his seat in the back of the room. As soon as he sits he buries his face in a book. But it's not a book to read it looks more like a journal.. briefly I wonder what he must write about.. His words from yesterday replay in my head, “Because your friends with her..” what could Hollie have done to him? I mean I can imagine she's capable of whatever but still..

The bell to go to third period sounds, as the hall fills with a swarm of students I take the opportunity to escape from Hollie. I have Spanish next and guess who I have it with? Yep, Hollie.. I would rather get there late and get a seat in the front just so I don't have to sit with her. She looks all around for me and I manage to stay hidden, leaving her to walk away with her boyfriend and clones. I sigh in relief when I see her turn the corner down the next hall, and as I'm about to take the long way by going upstairs and around I notice Nick walk right past me. The halls begin to empty out and I don't know what comes over me but I decide on following Nick.. I know I sound all crazy stalkerish but i'm curious about him, I want to be his friend for some unknown reason. Well actually it's not unknown, he just seems normal..

I keep my distance behind him as he rushes down the hall taking a right, then a left, and another right until I believe we end up at the other side of the school. Down by the abandoned gymnasium, Hollie told me they decided not to use it anymore after a storm they had and a tree practically smashed that part of the building. Sure they cleaned up the debris but the schools budget wouldn't allow for them to rebuild the gym. Since they had another gym they just left it that way and cut off that part of the building from students. Although by the looks of it, Nick has found his way around the blockade.. and now so have I.. I wait behind the corner as I watch him stop at what appears to be an old trophy case.. I watch as he opens the glass case and pulls out a photo? Taking an old bucket he turns it upside down to take a seat with his back to me. His head hangs low I think just staring at the old photo..

As quietly as possible I tiptoe my way over to him, I don't even realize what i'm doing until it's too late.. I take a wrong step an trip over a broken tile falling against the shattered lockers.. “What the hell!?” He stands up knocking the bucket over, he wipes his eyes as I steady myself again. Was he crying? “What are you doing here? Were you following me?!” he glares at me his eyes slightly red.. he was crying.. “No I um I got lost..” I lie and hug my books to my chest. “Bullshit.. no one would get lost in this part of the building..” his hard gaze softens as he turns to put the photo back in the glass case. “Why were you crying..?” I ask changing the subject to lessen my embarrassment. “Mind your own business..” he looks at me from the corner of his eye, “You know, the only reason I am so intent on talking to you is because you seem like the only normal person around here.. unlike Hollie. I thought you'd be a nice guy but your just the opposite.. all i'm trying to do is be your friend” I say sternly and he just stares at me. I sigh and start to walk away giving up on trying to be his friend.. for good. “I was crying!” he calls to me and I stop in my tracks, “I was crying because.. I was thinking about someone I lost..” he admits and I turn around. “Was it that someone in the picture?” I walk slowly back to him and he nods closing his eyes to keep the tears back I imagine.

“It was my best friend..” he says and for some reason a little siren goes off in the back of my head.

“I'm sorry..” I squeak, he merely nods. “Um how did they pass away? If you don't mind me asking..” I feel bad for asking but I have a feeling if I don't this conversation will end. “He was shot during a robbery at work” he leans his back against the wall next to the glass case and I walk to stand in front of him. “I'm so sorry..” I don't know what else to say and he just sort of shrugs, while we stand in an awkward silence.. That's when I notice that the glass case has several cards that read, 'you will be missed' 'Rest In Peace' 'Never forgotten' dried up flowers and dusty stuffed bears accompany each one. “Can I..?” I ask pointing to the shrine dedicated to Nick's best friend and he moves over a little to let me have a look. My eyes look up and down at all the lovely messages on the cards until I get to center where the picture that Nick had been looking at sits.. and the breath from my lungs feels like it's been taken from me.. Niall.

Sorry it's short :( but it needed an update.. I'll be updating every weekend if it's possible, but they might be short like this one because I don't have time to wrtie during the week bc of school and such.. But something is better than nothing :) Anyway, Robin Hollies boyfriend is portrayed by Zac Efron ;) and Hollie is portrayed by Mila Kunis :)

P.S. please go check out my other Niall ff's and my harry ff too :) and my newest fanfic Don't Wish that one's a 5 seconds of summer fanfic (; about Michael and Ashton it's gonna be good so please if you can go check those out :D