Chapter 84: Confessions
âYou have no idea what it was like to grow up in my family!â Serena said. She was trying to remain
calm, but how could she when she was going to have to dive into all her past trauma? âYour family
loves you,â Logan said. âI know that, Logan!â she spat. âThey love me and I love them. There is nothing
we wouldnât do for each other, but thatâs not the point. I wasnât chosen to be the next Alpha, my twin
was.â
âWhy does that matter?â Logan asked. He knew that in multi-child households where one was to
become the Alpha, the other could get less attention. Serena didnât show any outward signs that she
hadnât felt loved or adored.
âIt matters because after we hit a certain age, Santino was the one they did everything for. It didnât
matter what I wanted, it didnât matter what my goals were or anything about my own life. We always did
everything Santino wanted. Whatever food he wanted to eat, the vacations he wanted to take, it was all
about furthering his education.â
Logan arched an eyebrow at Serena. She crossed her arms and shook her head. She didnât think that
Logan would ever understand what she wanted to say. He was an only child, and he was the successor
to the Alpha line. âI had to find other ways to prove myself,â she explained. âYou never had to prove
yourself to them,â he said. It was a nice sentiment, but Serena shook her head, scoffing. âYou donât get
it,â she said firmly. âI had to show my family I was worth being proud of, that my education and that my
personal wants and needs were worth paying attention to. So, I decided to go for something no one
else in my family had. Something that would make me just as needed by the pack and just as
important.â Logan watched her. Serena shook her head again. She turned around, looking out the small
window in the treehouse. The ground looked so far below! Wind blew by and the treehouse creaked.
Thankfully, Logan was listening rather than raging and getting out of control. Serena hoped he would
keep it together, if for no other reason than to hear what she had to say.
âI chose being a doctor,â she continued. âBecoming a doctor in the human world requires intelligence,
determination, competitiveness, the same qualities that an Alpha possesses. I wanted my family to see
that I could be just as good as Santino, and that I could be an Alpha too.â Logan chuckled, shaking his
head. Serena glared at him over her shoulder. âA female Alpha?â he asked. Serena rolled her eyes.
âIt isnât that simple,â she said. âI knew Iâd never actually be Alpha, but I also knew that as a pack doctor,
Iâd be one of the few that could go toe to toe with the Alpha.â âYes, youâve demonstrated that
stubbornness more than once with me,â Logan reminded her. Serena gave a humorless smile. She
sighed, leaning against the wall of the treehouse. More wind blew by, and leaves whirled around
outside. âSo, I left to pursue my own avenue to the same kind of strength and worthiness as my
brother,â she went on. âI was determined to measure up. I was determined to show my family my worth.
There was no turning back for me.â âAnd thatâs why you stayed in the human world after having the
twins?â Logan asked, filling in parts of the story. Serena chuckled. âYouâre skipping ahead,â she said.
âFirst, I found out I was pregnant. I was terrified! | had no support in the human world. I was used to
having the pack to fall back on. I already knew how rigorous my schedule with medical school was, and
I had no means of support as far as a job.â âBut you still didnât ask for help?â Logan pointed out. Serena
shook her head. âI couldnât!â she insisted. âIf Iâd told my parents I was pregnant, they would have come
and taken me from medical school. They would have brought me back to the pack, and my career
would have been over before it began.â âThat would have been easier;â Logan said. Serena scoffed
and shook her head. âYouâre just as bad as them!â she said, throwing her arms up in the air. Her hands
hit the ceiling of the treehouse, and she retracted them, rubbing the backs of them. âI get it Serena,
needing to prove yourself. Donât you think I felt that way?â he asked. âI became Alpha younger than
almost any other Alpha in history. I had big shoes to fill, and no one to guide me, because my father
was dead.â He ended his statement with a growl.
Serena rolled her eyes. âYou really donât get it,â she said. âI had a lot of options to weigh, and none of
them were easy. The only thing I could do was cut ties with the pack and make my own way. It was the
only way I could ensure that my babyâ¦babiesâ¦wouldnât cost me my career. I wasnât willing to give up
either.â âThat is admiral,â Logan admitted. âBut in all that time, you didnât think about contacting their
father? You had the means to run DNA there in your school. You didnât think that would have been
beneficial?â
âHonestly, it wasnât a priority of mine,â Serena admitted shaking her head again. âI just wanted to give
my kids the best like I could. That meant finishing medical school and returning to the pack. I didnât
have time track down the father.â âTrack down me,â Logan said pointedly. Serena nodded. âI was busy
all the time, exhausted all the time. It was hard enough going through medical school being pregnant,
let alone with twins! When I found out I was pregnant
with twins⦠well, I thought maybe I was making a mistake,â she admitted. âI had to reevaluate what I
was going to do.â
âYou almost gave up, didnât you?â Logan asked. Serena nodded. âI almost came running back to the
pack, tail between my legs. I found my strength, though,â she said. âWhen I first held them in my arms,
that was when I knew I had made the right choice. I was alone in a hospital, no friends, no family, just
my babies. I made a promise to them then, that I would never to anything that would hurt them.â
Logan growled. Serena looked at him, his eyes sharp. He had his arms crossed, and he was getting
angry again. Serena didnât want to tempt the beast, but she had to be completely honest with him this
time. âAnd then what happened?â he asked, clearly picking up on how she thought telling them the truth
would hurt them somehow. Serena didnât care about hurting Loganâs delicate feelings. But she did want
to keep him from getting angry again. âI finished medical school, but I didnât want to go home,â she
said. âThat was when I got in touch with Adriana and transferred to Night Sky pack. I thought I was
escaping a problem by not going home. Instead, I stumbled right into another.â She motioned to Logan.
âI donât understand what you could have been thinking when you didnât just tell me,â Logan snarled.
âEven if you didnât know the truth, you could have brought up the night we spent here.â âTo what end?â
Serena asked. âWould it really have given you any peace of mind to know that we had a one-night
stand when I first came to the pack, or would it have raised more questions?â
âI donât know!â Logan growled, throwing his arms out to the sides. âIt would have raised questions,â
Serena surmised. âYou would have wanted a DNA test, and I wasnât ready for that. I didnât know who
you were, and I wasnât going to put my kids in a situation to be hurt!â âI would never hurt them,â Logan
argued. âYou donât know that!â she snapped. âI didnât even know who you were as a person yet! I have
to think of my kids first, always. That means I canât make snap decisions about people I donât know.â âI
had a right to know!â Logan hissed. Serena snorted. âYou didnât!â she hissed. âThey are my kids. I
birthed them, raised them, protected them. They are my everything.â âYea, and you did that to yourself!â
Logan snapped. Serena bit her lower lip. âI know,â she said. âBut it was what was best.â âBest?â Logan
snarled. âYou think keeping the truth from me, from them, was best?â âLogan, even now, there is no
way you can be their father! You are having a baby with
another woman, remember? She will never accept them, therefor the pack will never accept them!â she
screamed. âTo keep them safe, they can never know!â
Logan shook his head. He didnât want to believe it. Serena looked away again, calming herself with
deep breaths.
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