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it's been weeks since i've spoken to paige, i've been working on school and stuff , trying to keep my social media up you know? kinda how i make my money. but it's been hard not talking to her but i don't know how to feel. she just really hurt me and i didn't know how to communicate that, kk has been texting me none stop to be team manager since the season starts in a few days, i talked to coach and he seems like he really wants me to do it. but idk seeing paige every day after what happened?? i might have to call her over and talk to her because being team manager sounds extremely fun. besides all that drama i haven't talked to my mom since i found out i got accepted into uconn,, like i've mentioned me and my mom haven't really got along for a while. idk she just switched up all of the sudden and i try to be the perfect daughter for her, and she doesn't even know i'm gay.
i decided to call paige over and she came over right away, i let her in and we sat on my bed and talked
"hi paige"i say getting her attention "wsp.." she says trying to be nonchalant "look paige. i'm sorry for everything and how it went down. i shouldn't done something differently that day instead of going out with jada, and i'm sorry. but like i said last time we talked she's just a friend nothing more , i've known her for too long to see her like that." i say trying to explain myself
"yeah no it's okay. i realized i over reacted with that whole thing." she says
it was quiet for a minute
"so .. what about starr blowing up ur phone?" i say trying to get her to explain
"no reign i promise it wasn't like that, idk why she was even texting me, i blocked her after the night i promise" she says pulling her phone out and showing me the messages then showing me she's blocked
" k listen paige. and this is on both parts. we need to communicate way more, and better. like if ur angry walk away and come back and tell me wsp. i can't keep doing this ignoring shit and yelling. it's hurting me" i say explaining to her what needs to change. she looks at me and smiles
"i promise rie" she gets up and hugs me and kisses my forehead, god i've missed this
"soooooo i've heard you might be the new manager" she says letting go sitting on my bed "i might idk we'll see" i say smiling and walking into my closet "hmmm idk what to wear" i say
"where are you going?" the blonde ask confused and a little bit jealous "the club" i look at her and wink "are you being fr" she says with jealousy in her tone. i laugh "yes ma'am, ice invited me with the team so i can get to kms them just in case i say yes to being the manager" i say still going through my closet "interesting" paige said getting up and helping me with my outfit "i'm coming too then" she says
as we get to the club i see the team and we go up to them "hey guys" i say with a smile on my face "hey reign!" ice yells over the music "i didn't know you guys knew each other" she says referring to me and paige , we laugh "oh they know each other very well" kk says giggling "kk don't make me hurt you" i say with a playful tone , she puts her hands up in surrender
we danced and drank all night, i lost paige and went looking for her. i see her and she's talking to some girl, but with a big smile on her face and the girl brush's her hand against paige's arm feeling her muscles. i walk up to them looking at paige "oh hey reign" paige says looking at me "this is jessica, jessica this is my friend reign" 'friend' that word sat in my head for a while till paige nocked me out my thoughts
"you okay?" she says pausing her conversation with jessica "yeah i'm fine. i'm gonna go back with the team" i say walking away. as i walked away i hear paige say "yeah she's just the manager" my heart sunk. i walked past the team even tho they were screaming my name and got in my car and left, paige can find her own ride home. i'm tired of her hurting me i should've listened to my instincts..
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later that night i hear a knock on my door, i open it and of course it's paige. "hey what's wrong whyd you leave me like that" she says concerned "how'd you get back" i say avoiding her question "jessica.. why?" she says confused. i let a little chuckle "got itt" i say "i think we should just be friends" as those words came out of my mouth i wanted to cry, i love her but i can't do it anymore.
"what?" she says walking in and closing the door behind her "paige i heard you say i was just a manager you were flirting with that girl all night, you keep hurting me bro and i'm tired. like so fucking tired" i say holding back my tears " bro your so problematic" she says throwing her head back "ok so get out" i say with the most serious voice "bro" she tries to explain herself " by paige" i cut her off and walk over to the door opening it. she looks at me shakes her head and walks out.
i get in bed and think, i mean of course i'm still gonna be manger i love the team and we've gotten close, i'm just gonna keep my distance from paige , i can't take the pain anymore