Demetri
It was over.
We were so over.
I scrolled through the texts that Nat had sent me. She said Alec made her eat soggy friesâsounded like him. Swear the guy was obsessed with people eating.
My hotel room was dark. I was supposed to be returning back to Seaside in less than twenty-four hours. But I didn't want to go.
Because Nat was there and I didn't know how to face her. You know that feelingâwhere you have so much going on, you're so overwhelmed that you don't even know where to start?
Like kissing another girl when I hadn't even really broken things off with Nat.
In my mind it made sense. If she saw me for who everyone else saw me as⦠it would be easier for her. In the end that's what I wanted.
I wanted the choice to be easier because right now it was hard as hell. Her hesitation was because of my weakness, which just made me hate myself that much more.
And even if she rejects me, once she knows what Alec did.
I'll be the broken bird she wants to put in a box and nurse back to health. Wasn't that how things worked?
I ran my fingers through my hair, my legs shaking as I tapped my feet against the carpeted floor.
If I stayed in my hotel room I was going to go insane.
Yet, going out meant meeting up with old friends and drinking. Drinking always led to getting high, and then doing something else that was stupid, and for once I needed that clear head.
If she saw the kiss⦠I'd ask for forgiveness.
If she saw nothing⦠then I wasn't sure what I'd do⦠but I'd do anything to get her to see that I needed her just as much as Alec did.