Thea's POV
"I told you to stay with me" Xander hushed
His lips felt like lava in my cold skin. His touch was softer, but his hold on my waist was tight as always. Bruising, almost claiming.
"Xander. What are you doing here?" I asked, trying to get out of his hold. Seeing me struggling he removed his hands from my waist and I was actually naive of me to think that we were going to have a civilized conversation because he flipped me around, grabbed my waist, picked me up and plopped me on the edge of the sink. The unexpected movement caused me to let out a loud embarrassing screech.
"Shhh kitten. We don't want your friend waking up now do we?" Xander said as he pushed his body between my legs and secured his hands on my waist.
"Xander. What are you doing?" I asked again, desperation clear in my voice
"Getting confident with my name, aren't we kitten?" Xander mocked, and for a second I thought he would be angry, but his voice didn't hold anger.
"Rouge" I said, as I straightened my back, trying to show some confidence but Xander still towered over me.
"I told you to stay with me. I told you it wasn't safe"
I almost laughed at his words. His men were the ones who tried to kill me. I scoffed at his words and said
"Explain to me how I would be safe with you if you were the one who tried to kill me?"
"I didn't fucking try to kill you. You think if I wanted to kill you I wouldn't have? I had a lot of opportunities and I didn't. I don't know what your detective friend told you, but it wasn't me" He growled out, almost screaming at the end. Someone clearly doesn't like Lila.
"So who was it?" I questioned, clearly very confused
"That's not your concern kitten"
"Not my concern? I almost DIED. How is MY LIFE not my damn CONCERN?" Was he hearing himself?
"Watch the tone kitten. You might be hurt now, but that wouldn't stop me from taking you across my knee" Xander's voice dominated the silence and if I wasn't sitting on the sink, I am sure my knees would have wobbled with the intensity of his voice. Everything about him screamed danger and hot. A deadly combination I would say. Clearing my throat, I said
"I don't know what is going on but if my life is in danger and I deserve to know it. I just wanna know why this is happening. I am overwhelmed with everything that has happened today" I don't know why I explained myself but there was something about his voice that forced me to give an explanation.
Xander took a deep breath and ruffled his hair, almost struggling with what he wanted to say. Would it be wrong that despite the messed up situation I was in, I still found him really handsome?
"Please talk to me?" I begged. Xander looked at me, staring at me for a full minute, before turning around and smashing his fist on the wall. The sudden show of aggression caused me to retreat into the mirror behind my back, trying to protect myself.
Xander continued to say things in Russian and I didn't understand a word. After a few seconds, Xander turned around and wrapped his hand on my throat. He squeezed my throat with pressure, not enough to hurt me, but enough so that I couldn't breathe properly. My eyes widened in surprise and I wanted to say something, but his hands only pressed on my neck, almost like a warning sign that he didn't want me to speak
He brought his face close to mine, his lips rested on my ear, and his other wrapped around my hair. I could feel my breathing getting heavy, but more than that, I felt Xander's breath on my skin. It burnt and tingled at the same time.
"Your begging does things to me, kitten. You looking at me with those eyes makes me want to bare my soul out if I had any of course. You want to know why someone is out to kill you? It's because I claimed you. I told the world you are mine and now it's out to get you. That night in the club when I shot that man, I knew what I was doing. I fucking knew the danger I was putting you and everything I built in but I didn't care. His hands on you got my monsters screaming for blood. Sometimes I just want to put a fucking bullet in you and end all this"
"Why claim me then? Why not just kill me now" I struggled to let the words out but I did. His hands only tightened, both in my hair and neck. My head was starting to get dizzy
"You think I don't fucking want to" He growled out
"Then why do you keep saving me. That night on the street, those men you sent, following me around, lurking in the dark. Why put all the effort on someone you want to kill?" This time it was me who was mocking him. It was quiet for a few seconds. The only sound that echoed in the bathroom was the sound of my breathing. I was breathing heavily.
"ÐоÑÐ¾Ð¼Ñ ÑÑо каждÑй Ñаз, когда Ñ Ð±Ñл ÑÑдом Ñ Ñобой, мне бÑло Ñепло" (Because each time I was around you, I felt warm) Xander whispered
"I don't understand," I said softly. I didn't get any response from Xander and if it were me a few days back I probably wouldn't have asked for more but nothing seems the same anymore does it?
"Tell me please. I just want to understand you. You clearly are bad for me but somehow each time I am around you I throw every sense of preservation out of the door"
Xander's hands left my body and my mind screamed with a sense of loss.
"I am glad that you know that I am bad for you. I am the worst thing that has or will ever happen to you"
"Will you tell me anything that will help me understand you?"
"I have to go. I need you to stay with your friend till the time I can fix this. I am going to end this, once and for all. You didn't get hurt today, and one might say you got lucky. But in my world, it wasn't luck. It was a warning. So I need you to listen to whatever the detective says. Okay?"
"Will they try to hurt me again?" I asked, and I am pretty sure I felt my heart crack with the question. I hated pain. Xander just stared at me, and for the first time I saw hesitation in his eyes. I just want my old life back.
"Will I see you again after all this? After you found the guy who hurt me? Will you still come for me?" I asked again. I knew he said he didn't do romance but my heart was naive to feel for Xander.
"My world Thea, it's filled with pain and vengeance. The kind of people that live in my world, they will taint your soul and I don't think I have the courage to watch the only innocent thing I have seen in my life get ruined because of me. I will protect you from all of this but after that, you have to go back to your world and I will go back to mine. I can't give you what you want. My life has no place for what you seek." This was sounding like a goodbye.
Xander has only been in a small chapter of my life. And yet the thought of never seeing him again brought tears to my eyes. Yes he hurt me. The first time we met, he almost killed me, the next few times were not exactly rainbows either but I guess it was easier for a broken soul to find peace in someone else's pieces.
He turned around to leave and I wanted to say something, anything to make him stay.
"You are the first person to ever touch me. It isn't because I am a prude or something because that is what most of the girls back in high school called me. I simply didn't want to share such moments with anyone. I wanted it to be with someone I felt safe around. I wanted the sparks and every other feeling in those books I had read. When I felt your hands on my skin, I thought I would hate it. I thought I wouldn't feel anything. No sparks. Nothing because I was being kissed by a stranger"
Xander turned around to look at me but his eyes held no emotion. I knew I had his attention because he made no move to leave.
"Each time you touched me, I felt like I was being struck by lightning. My body felt alive and for the first time I felt like I was wanted. I thought that it was probably because it was my first time but then when that guy got so close to me in the club," Xander growled, annoyance clearly evident on his face
"THEA" He warned, danger lurking in his voice
"I felt uncomfortable and I didn't like it. I don't remember most of that night but I am very sure I hated having him anywhere close to me. But when you kissed me, I felt safe. When you touched me, my body yearned for more. Every intimate moment that we shared, even if it was wrong, every part of it felt right"
"You don't know what you are saying Thea. I may not be the gentle man sorts but I knew better than to touch an unwilling woman. Everything I did to you was wrong"
"Then why did is feel so right?" I said, adamant in my mission to make him stay.
"FUCK THEA, DON'T SAY THINGS LIKE THAT ESPECIALLY WHEN I AM IN POSITION TO TOUCH YOU" Xander roared, and moved his body between my legs again. I am surprised Alex wasn't awake by now.
"You have any fucking idea what you are doing to me. I can't think straight and the only thought that's in my mind right now is the only thought I cannot act upon"
"What are you thinking?" The boldness of my question surprised both Xander and me. But I guess after what happened today, I didn't want to run from anything. I didn't want to be that shy girl who cowered away from the world.
Xander let out a grunt, and then a small growl.
"I want to take you on this sink. Bury myself in your cunt and make you scream my name"
I was embarrassed of his crude words but I also felt my toes curl.
"Xander you can't sa..." before I could finish my sentence, I felt Xander's lips on mine.
Rough, hard, intense and demanding. His teeth bit down on my lower lip and I gasped in pain. Xander shoved his tongue in my mouth and kissed every corner of it. I wanted to kiss him back with the same intensity but I don't think I could keep up. A lewd voice left my mouth when he sucked on my lip and any sense of rationality flew out the window. I didn't care if Alex woke up. I didn't care that Xander was the most dangerous person for me. At this point, I completely understood the statement 'safe in arms of danger'.
"I want to take you right here. I want to take you hard and fast. I want to edge you for hours and not give you what your body craves. Punish you for making me feel these pathetic feelings. Tell me kitten, should I? Hmm?"
I was too lost in him, his voice, just all of him, to give him any answer. Xander placed his lips on mine again, the kiss just felt more and more intense. My body wanted more. My mind was fogged up with Xander to remember the events of today.
This is what Xander did. He made me forget everything.
We kissed for a while. Each time I needed to breathe, Xander would let my mouth go and leave marks on my skin. After the few close encounters with him, I knew he liked leaving them. His hands that grabbed my waist from under my hospital gown explored the skin of my stomach and back. I was trembling. I was praying that Alex doesn't wake up for a while. I didn't want this to stop.
"Tell me kitten, what is it you want from me?" Xander said in the crook of my neck.
Was he really expecting me to answer while he was this close to me. I can barely think straight just seeing him. Not hearing any response from me, Xander bit down on my skin a little harder than usual which caused me to yelp.
"I asked you something kitten"
"I...I don't kn...ow"
XANDER'S POV
"I...I don't kn...ow"
I just touched her some more. I knew I had to stop but nothing came easy when she was involved. I was bad for her. I was very bad for her. Taking a final breath of her scent I took a step back and I looked at my kitten. Lips swollen, and neck littered with my marks. My monsters hummed with pride but this was the end. A soft whine escaped her lips as she brought her hands to my shoulders, pulling me close.
"Don't whine Kitten" I said, putting more distance between us. I had to leave before the detective came.
"You are going to leave aren't you" She whispered out, hurt evident in her voice. I had to be the monster everyone believed I was. This was the only way to protect her.
"After all this is over, find someone who will hold your hand and give you flowers. That's what you deserve. I will only give you pain Thea. My life is filled with just that"
Her eyes filled with tears and I hated it. I had to get away from her. There is no place for the weak in my world and she was making me weak.
"Goodbye kitten. Ðогда-нибÑдÑ, еÑли Ð½Ð°Ñ Ð¼Ð¸Ñ Ñнова ÑÑолкнеÑÑÑ" (Someday if our worlds collide again)
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