Chapter 0224 Rowan.
Itâs been two days since the truth came out, and I still canât get over the k*ss.
When I dipped my head to k*ss Ava, I expected her to push me away. Worse, to slap me. I canât deny that I was surprised when she let me k*ss her. That surprise soon turned into happiness and joy.
I canât F***ing believe that I went so long without her k*sses. Her l*ps were soft, and her mouth is addictive. I could spend my entire life just k*ssing her, and I would be happy.
Again, I say, I was F***ing foolish. Every time I denied Ava a k*ss when we were married, I thought I was punishing her. I didnât realize what I was missing out on. For that, I will always be regretful because |
missed out on so many things.
Iâm currently in my office, and I canât focus for shit. I have business meetings in the next few days, yet the only thing that played in my mind is that k*ss.
I feel like a F***ing teenager all over again. Kissing her and then having her reciprocate was similar to the thrill of getting a first k*ss from a girl. It left me excited. I felt like I was on top of the world.
âWhat has you grinning like an idiot?â Gabeâs voice interrupts me.
I look up just as he drops on the seat in front of my desk.
âNothingâ I say, clearing my throat.
Thatâs definitely something. If I have to guess, then I think itâs something related to Avaâ
I donât say anything, but we know that he is spot on.
âSo what happened?â he asks curiously.
I debate whether to tell him. Finally I give in. He was my twin. What is the use of hiding it from him?
âI k*ssed Ava and she F***ing let meâ I tell him proudly.
It felt so F***ing good. Like I had achieved something miraculous. Those few minutes where she didnât push me away gave me hope. Hope that maybe she still felt something for me.
Gabe grins at me with happiness. âThat good progress.â
Yes I say then groan. âWell it was going well until she reminded something I told her and push me away You see, the thing about hurting someone is that when you try to make amends, you fight against the Thatâs what happened with Ava yesterday. The memory of my words came back. That, along with the pain that she must have felt when I flung those words at her.
Those two reminded her that I was the enemy. I was the one that hurt and caused her pain. Those two served as a warning.
They warned her that trusting me could lead to more pain. So she did what any sane.
person would do in that situation; she asked me to leave.
âWhat did you tell her?â
I I I didnât want to repeat those words, but I did. I told Gabe everything, from how Emma lied and manipulated me. To how I angrily went to Avaâs house and told her those cruel words.
When Iâm done, Gabe is staring at me with an unreadable expression.
âYouâre and idiot and an assholeâ he says, not mincing words.
I run my hands down my face. âDonât I know itâ
âIâm not even going to bother with telling you how wrong you were. The fact that youâre beating yourself up is enoughâ
I donât even know how she used to stand me. I canât stand myself every time I think about what I put Ava through. It makes me appreciate her more, knowing she tolerated me for all those years. Not a lot of women would have put up with my shit.
âOn the bright side, she was receptive. Thatâs got to mean something, right?â he asks after a while. To I was about to agree when something hits me.
1 âWhat if itâs just the hormones?â I ask in panic running my hand through my hair. âDue to the pregnancy hormones, most women go through an increase in libido. Maybe that is it. Fuck.â