Chapter 0136 âMommy where are we going?â Noah asks me as I lock our house.
I hadnât planned on this little trip, but I knew it was something that I needed to do. Nora and Theo have been calling me for days.
They wanted a relationship with me, but instead I kept keeping them at armâs length.
I decided that I was going to give them a chance. After all, how was I supposed to know if they truly loved me if I just kept pushing them away? And besides, I needed more good people in my life.
âI want you to meet some peopleâ I reply, taking his hand in mine as I lead him towards my car.
As we were walking towards the car, my eyes gets caught by the moving vehicle that was parked a few meters down from my house.
âLooks like someone is moving inâ I tell Noah. âWeâre going to have a new neighbor.â
The house has been empty for months. It was similar in structure to mine with the only difference being it looked a bit bigger.
âMan, I hope they have a kid my ageâ Noah says in excitement. âDonât get me wrong mom. I love this place, but itâs full of old peopleâ
I chuckle at that. When I picked this place, I didnât realize we would be surrounded by elderly people who were all up in your business. I chose this place because of the tranquility and the big yard. The other two kids in this community were like fifteen house down from us.
âWell baby, letâs hope soâ I say as I help him get in the car and buckle up.
I get in and start the car. I was nervous and we werenât even half way to where we were going. I was so used to getting hurt that I was skeptical and doubtful about anyone who wanted to get close to me.
Pushing the nervousness away, I try to focus on driving.
âSo, who are we going to see?â Noah breaks the silence bouncing in his seat.
One thing about Noah is that he doesnât like being kept in suspense. A character that is just like his father. He prefers knowing things in advance and doesnât like anything that surprises him which is a weird character for a kid.
âYouâll just have to wait and seeâ I smile at him. âThey are people I currently met and theyâve been dying to meet youâ
His brows pull together in a frown. Right now he reminds me so much of Rowan. Noah was an exact replica of his dad. It showed in the way he looked and behaved.
âCanât you just tell me? You know I donât like surprisesâ he grumbles See what I told you? He doesnât like not knowing.
âI promise this is going to be a good surpriseâ I assure him.
He was going to be so happy when he realizes heâs getting two additional grandparents. Mainly because he knows it will mean more gifts and love for himself. As much as he is looking forward to having a sibling, he canât hide that he loves being the only grandchild.
âMommy, is dad going to marry your sister Emma?â Noah asks after a while.
My breath stills at his question.
âProbablyâ I mumbled.
Even though I feel the familiar pain. It isnât as earth shattering as it used to be. I accepted it long time ago. Rowan wasnât mine. He never was. He always belonged to Emma mind body and soul. Right now they may have hit a rough patch because of her lies, but they will get back together eventually.
Their love has spanned over a decade. Itâs impossible for them not fix whatâs broken. Sooner or later, when they worked their issues, theyâll resume their romance.
âI donât want that. I donât want a stepmotherâ he says in a small voice.
It breaks my heart to hear him so sad, but there is nothing I can do about it. Rowan and I were wrong from the beginning. We shouldnât have gotten married and I will always regret that I didnât fight harder when he said we should marry.
Life would have been easier if I had. Instead we got married and pretended we loved each other in front of Noah. Now he was having a hard time accepting someone else as Rowanâs possible wife.
âNoah...â
1 want you and dad together. You were happy together, you loved each other. Why canât you go back to that?â he asks sullenly.
How do I tell him that nothing he was saying was real? That Rowan and I werenât happy together. That we werenât in love and that we played a part for his sake. How do I tell him that Rowan had always been in love with Emma? That my obsession with him led to them breaking up.
Right now youâre too young to understand, but when youâre older Iâll explain things, then youâll understand It pained me to see the sadness in his eyes, but in this case, I have to break his little heart. There was nothing between Rowan and I. There never was and there will never be. Our ship went up in flames before it even got a chance to sail.