Chapter 0125 âYou forget I know you better than you know yourself brotherâ he takes a seat opposite me âAvaâ her name slips out of my mouth in an anguished tone âYou care about herâ
âOf course I fucking care about her. Sheâs the mother of my sonâ I snap at him, frustrated The whole thing was frustrating me. She was spiraling out of control and I just didnât know how to help. her. I didnât know how to be what she needs. Iâve spent so much time pushing her away, that I donât know what makes her tick.
âItâs more than that big brother, you just refuse to open your fucking eyes and see itâ he drawls.
Heâs been on and on about that one issue. That my concern for Ava stem from feelings that ran much deeper. We keep arguing about that. I think I would fucking know if I was in love with her. I care about her, and I have feelings I canât describe, but love? I donât think so.
âHowâs she doing?â he asks when I donât say anything else.
âSheâs pregnantâ
He stares and me with wide eyes and an open jaw. âWith Ethanâs baby?â
âWho else would she pregnant for?â I ask him in irritation.
When I found out yesterday, something just shifted inside me. Knowing she was expectant with that bastardâs baby just made everything more real. I had been blocking the knowledge that she had slept with Ethan out.
When I found out, there was this primal part of me that wanted to kill Ethan for touching whatâs mine.
After that I blocked it out. Tried pretending that it didnât happen because thatâs the only way I could calm myself down. Her pregnancy now was proof that she did sleep with another man and for some reason it fucking hurts and drives me insane knowing that.
Itâs completely unreasonable. I wanted her to move on. I wanted her to leave me alone. I was planning to woe Emma and marry her later on. Yet now that I know that Ava had moved on. Moved on to the point she felt comfortable enough to let another man touch. I feel like a fucking piece of me died. I canât explain it and I donât know why, but I feel lost.
âSo what is she going to do?â he pulls me back to the present with his question, 1/2 +15 BONUS âI donât knowâ I whisper, staring at the amber liquid in my glass I debate telling him what happened at the cliff, but I stop myself. She has been through too much already.
I wasnât going to tell my brother what she tried doing in her darkest moment. She deserved to be protected and that was what I was going to do.
Sir, this came in for youâ Mike, my bartender hands me a small envelope.
He leaves immediately after.
âWhat is it?â Gabe asks curiously, moving to the edge of his seat.
âI donât knowâ I tell him as I open it.
A piece of paper falls out. I unfold it and read it.
[Iâm not one to go after kids, so you can rest assured that I wonât go after your son. I canât say the same. for the rest of your loved ones though. Iâm coming for you Rowan and everyone you hold dear]
It was signed in the Reapers insignia.
I should fear, but I donât. All that registers is that they wonât go after Noah. Thatâs all that matters to me right now.
I never want to feel the fear I felt when I saw her on that cliff. It was time for Noah to come home. He has always been Ava life line, and now more than ever she needs him.