Chapter 0124 Rowan Fuck! In my hand through my hair as I watch her sleep. Tears tracks were still visible on her cheeks and it breaks me seeing her so broken.
Ava has always been fucking good at hiding her feelings. Today she didnât and it was fucking raw. It was drowning her and without even her realizing it, she was drowning me along with her.
I take a seat near her sleeping form. I push my fingers through her hair as I massage her scalp gently.
How the fuck have I never realized how soft and thick her hair is? It was bliss just touching it.
She sighs in her sleep in contentment. Her face relaxed. All the pain from earlier melted away. In her sleep, sheâs at a peace. She doesnât have shadows accosting her.
I know itâs fucking creepy, but watching her sleep has become my favorite thing. I did the same thing yesterday and here I am doing it today. Sheâs so beautiful it hurts. Even with dark under eyes, sheâs still stunning. I donât know the fuck I ever thought she couldnât compare to Emma.
I softly kiss her cheeks before standing up. I am reluctant to leave. I fight the part of me that wants to pull the covers and slide in next to her. I donât know where this need is coming from. It was never there when we were married. Back then, I didnât want her next to me. I always avoided cuddling. Right now though, itâs all I can fucking think of.
I force myself to leave her room and walk out of her house. Taking a breath, I contemplate going back, but I donât. I know she wonât appreciate me being in bed with her. She might have accepted my comfort, but that doesnât mean sheâs forgiven me for my part in hurting her.
I havenât even asked for her forgiveness for heavenâs sake. I should and I will. I just need her to be more stable when I do.
I take out my phone and call my twin. He picks up on the first ring.
âMeet me at the clubâ I tell him before hanging up.
I donât have to wait for his reply. I just know that he will be there.
I give Avaâs house one last look before I jump into my car and drive away. About half an hour later, Iâm at one of my clubs. I enter through the VIP entrance thatâs only meant for me, Gabe and any of the visitors we bring.
âSirâ the bouncer greets. I nod at him then enter the club.
12 +15 AGNUS The damn music was loud and it was giving me a headache. Moving fast as the bouncer parts the way for me, we get to my private booth where things are much quieter.
He proceeds to stand guard at the entrance. Itâs not once or twice that women tried gate crashing just to get free drinks.
My personal bartender walks in with my drink and hands it to me. I donât have to tell him what I take, he already knows. Just like he knows what Gabe and Travis take âWhatâs got you in such foul mood?â Gabe asks walking in.
Heâs your younger than me by three minutes. While heâs the outgoing and social one. Iâm the brooding antisocial twin.
âNothingâ I mumble leaning back in my chair.
I still canât get the fucking image of Ava on the cliff. The way she was so close to the edge. It all but killed me when she took a hesitant step forward. The fear that had encased me was like nothing like Iâve ever felt. It was tangible and it suffocated me My heart honestly stopped and I saw my fucking life flash before my eyes. She was so broken and I wanted nothing more than to piece her back together.
I donât know what I would have done if I had been late. I donât know why, but I know that if she had died then my heart would have died with her.