We had just finished our makeup and styling in the waiting room of the gymnastics stadium and climbed into the vehicle.
âBrr, itâs cold.â
It was November, and the weather was unforgiving.
Dressed in suits, we all flapped our hands to warm up while checking each other.
Rihyuk recited a list from his smartphone.
âSneezing medicine.â
âTaken!â
We shouted, fists raised.
âRunny nose medicine.â
âTaken!â
âThermal underwear.â
âWorn!â
ââ¦Thereâs no need to answer with your fists raised.â
âBut thatâs-â
We looked at each other.
â-our spirit!â
We all answered with our fists raised again, and Rihyuk shook his head, slipping the smartphone back into his pocket.
âAnyway, with this, weâre perfectly prepared. No runny noses on the red carpet now.â
âHey, if anyone feels like dripping, do it now.â
âHold on.â
The youngest, with a tissue to his nose, snorted then showed an OK sign.
âAll clear.â
âWell done.â
âPhew, we canât suffer the embarrassment of last year again.â
Our meticulous preparations were because of last yearâs Mango Chart Awards.
The red carpet event.
A sneeze and a sniffle there had made the headlines all about our runny noses.
Thatâs why this time, we were fully prepared.
âDonât get so solemn over just one runny nose pill.â
Ignoring someoneâs comment, I looked outside.
Guided by the staff holding torches, the vehicles moved one by one towards the red carpet.
The distant cheers of people were faintly audible.
âTime really flies.â
Bijoo, using his phone as a mirror to fix his bangs, said.
âLast year, when we came here, I wondered if this time next year would ever come, and now itâs already November.â
âIndeed. Itâs winter.â
The thought that another year would pass in just two months felt strange.
Perhaps because of that thought, the faces of my younger brothers suddenly caught my eye.
Thanks to the camera massage, they all seemed to have that celebrity aura.
I couldnât help but admire Jung-hyun, who, like a spy in a spy movie attending a party, was adjusting his bow tie with one hand.
âThe jelly is good.â
His image, munching on bear-shaped jellies, shattered immediately, but stillâ¦
âJung-hyun.â
âYes?â
âCan I have one too?â
âIâll give you two.â
I took the transparent and red gummies and chewed thoughtfully.
Is it the sweet taste?
The tension in my body, stiff as a board, seemed to ease slightly.
During the rehearsal earlier, I wasnât that nervous, but now that Iâm actually here at the awards, I feel a flutter of excitement mixed with a touch of anxiety. á¹ï¿½
Itâs my second year.
Iâve moved on from being a rookie in my debut year to receiving a report card for a yearâs work as a professional singer.
âHey, Woojoo looks nervous. Thatâs his nervous face.â
Jiho asked.
âAre you nervous, hyung?â
âA bit.â
Then he grabbed my hand abruptly.
I thought he was trying to melt the anxiety with his warm intention, butâ¦
âSince youâre nervous, take some of mine too.â
ââ¦â
âDo you want to join in, Rihyuk hyung, and Bijoo hyung?â
ââ¦â
âThen me too.â
As they placed their hand on mine, I could only offer a hollow laugh at their attempts to ease my tension with playful jests.
It was then that Rihyuk spoke up.
âWhy are you so unnervingly tense?â he asked.
âJust a bit nervous,â I replied with a smile.
âYou know that feeling, right? When youâve finished all the problems, closed your exam booklet, and youâre doing the rough scoring, shouting âWow!â without knowing if youâve actually done well.â
âI get what you mean.â
âItâs a bit like that. A mix of nerves and excitement.â
With that, I gave the youngest a reassuring smile.
âOf course, someone who scores 69 wouldnât understand this feeling.â
Silence.
The youngest, who had been trembling, suddenly burst out, âI can just retake the test, right?â causing everyone to erupt in laughter.
Rihyuk chimed in again, âI think I get what youâre saying. Iâm feeling a bit jittery too.â
âReally?â
âYeah, I couldnât sleep much last night. Too anxious. Not sure if Iâll make it or not.â
Excluding one unusually calm individual, it seemed the other younger ones felt similarly.
It was inevitable.
Even as a child, receiving a single âGood Kidâ sticker was enough to excite anyone.
This was, after all, the first awards ceremony since we started our careers.
My heart was pounding.
As I was lost in these thoughts, the car slowly began to move.
âGuys, get ready.â
âOkay!â
I exchanged glances and smiled with my siblings.
âNow.â
We all reached out our hands together.
I shouted with a laugh, âFlip it over~ Turn it upside down~â
âUp!â
âDown!â
Rihyuk, the only one with his palm facing down, wore a proud smile and was the first to prepare to get off.
The vehicle door slid open with a rumble, and the sound of camera shutters began to pour in. Dressed in a suit, Rihyuk elegantly stretched out his leg.
Screams erupted.
And with it, the murmuring of countless people blended into the air.
âItâs Button! That guy Button!â
ââ¦â
âItâs New Black! Itâs Fade Denim, right? Fade Denim?â
Following behind, we couldnât help but smirk.
In front of the gymnastics stadium.
The place was filled with noisy sounds amidst the ongoing red carpet event.
âWowww!â
The screams pouring out towards New Black made even the reporters on-site flinch.
New Black, waving to the press in front of the â2015 MCAâ photo wall, was a boy group that posed in formation effortlessly, without any need for instructions.
With each pose, loud cheers followed.
âWow, these guys are seriously popular.â
âWere all these their fans?â
The reportersâ eyes sparkled with surprise.
Most of the gathered crowd were thought to be fans of TNT or Teen Spirit, but it seemed not.
The number was significant.
Among them were faces that clearly looked like they had come from overseas.
âWowâ¦â
Amidst such a heated response, the male and female MCs conducting the red carpet event exchanged smiles.
Announcer Chae Ji-eun lowered her microphone and said, âThis is no joke.â
âSeriously. What a cheerâ¦â
Especially Andrew from Daydream, who was hosting the red carpet for the second year in a row, widened his eyes in astonishment.
âIâve been hearing their name a lot lately.â
They were the hottest rookie group last year.
Idols like âWind Flowerâ and âNineâ had secured their spots at the top of the charts.
And recently, I had seen the news that they had made it onto the Billboard Hot 100 with the OST of Nostalgia.
âIâve finally made it to the top,â I thought to myself.
Even from the crowdâs reaction, I could feel the offline energy pulsating through the air.
This yearâs response from the fans, exclaiming âSo handsome!â was markedly different from the subdued reactions of NewBlackâs fans last year.
Andrew from Daydream felt a strange emotion watching the quintet walk with a newfound ease, a stark contrast to their rookie days.
âNewBlack! NewBlack!â the fans chanted, their voices rising above the din.
Like a mother guiding her child, the members steered one who had wandered off, waving his hand in the wrong direction, back to the group.
Laughter spilled from the crowd.
Famous for his poor sense of direction, the photographers eagerly snapped photos, transmitting them instantly.
âWelcome, NewBlack!â the announcer greeted.
The five handsome members of NewBlack bowed deeply, their backs at a perfect right angle.
âOne, two, three, hello! We are NewBlack!â they greeted in unison, and the crowd erupted in cheers.
Andrew smiled and commented, âThe cheers are incredible. Itâs like the term âhotâ was made for this moment.â
âThank you,â they replied.
âIâm not sure how well the audio is capturing this, but the warmth of the cheers is reaching us up here.â
While Andrew spoke about NewBlack, the announcer asked, âYouâve really heated up this year. With âWindflowerâ topping the charts in the first half and the music video for âNineâ surpassing 50 million views, weâve heard your international popularity is soaring!â
Woojoo, holding the microphone, answered, âYes, weâve been feeling it firsthand during our international tour.â
The members of NewBlack smiled and responded one by one to the MCsâ comments.
But something was different today.
They seemed more subdued.
For any other group, a calm interview would be normal, but not for NewBlack.
âIs it just me, or is the atmosphere a bit different today?â Andrew inquired.
âOops,â they all gasped, eyes wide, eliciting laughter from the crowd.
Jiho, taking the microphone, asked, âIs it that obvious?â
âYou seem calmer than usual,â Andrew observed.
âAhh, thatâs becauseâ¦â Woojoo began, a shy smile on his face.
âWeâre a bit nervous!â they all exclaimed together, causing the MCs and the audience to burst into laughter.
âWho shouts about being nervous with such energy?â Andrew joked.
âSorry, itâs an occupational hazard,â they apologized, returning to their composed demeanor.
After filming so much content for MiTube, their reactions had become second nature, they explained with a smile.
Following a brief discussion about simple choreography and multilingual greetings, they mentioned, âWeâre currently running an event on the red carpet.â
âAn event?â the MCs asked.
âYes, itâs a relay acrostic poem challenge. We take turns creating lines based on a given word.â
âWow,â the MCs responded, impressed.
âThe TV has been abuzz with NewBlackâs spontaneous composing and lyric-writingâ¦â
âItâs amazing how well you craft lyrics. Shall we expect some quick thinking today?â
âYes!â NewBlackâs eyes gleamed with competitive fire.
âThe prompt is âMango Chart Awards.ââ
âMango Chart Awardsâ¦â they pondered.
âLetâs start with RiHyuk,â the MCs suggested, passing him the microphone.
Before the MCs could continue, the other members of NewBlack shouted energetically, âMang!â
âYou said you were nervous,â Andrew teased.
As Andrew blinked, NewBlackâs lead vocalist began, âMy heart feels overwhelmed.â
It all started with a clever twist of words, turning âë§â into âë§â.
With a gentle smile, a melody as lyrical as a song filled the air.
Jung-hyun took the microphone.
âMust be the sweet potatoes,â he said.
The poetic acrostic changed in an instant.
Laughter spilled from the audience, and the announcer dipped her head, her lips twitching.
The other members took their turns.
âGot any cold drinks?â
âCould use some soda to burp.â
âAh, thank you.â
Jung-hyun pretended to drink, letting out an impressed âWow-â, and everyone burst into laughter.
It was like a scene from a soda commercial.
Woojoo ended it like a commercialâs closing shot, beaming as he playfully tapped the air with his finger.
âFinally, I feel relieved.â
The male and female MCs smiled adorably at his exuberant laughter.
âIâve heard youâve been shooting a lot of commercials lately, maybe a soda ad is next?â
âOh!â
The members, still smiling brightly, winked at the camera, âCall us~â
âWere you nervous?â
âAh. Yes, I was.â
And with that, New Black calmed down again, as if to say, âWe were nervousâ¦â
Jung-hyun, who had been smiling warmly, watched the members closely and then transformed into a serene statue himself.
Every time I saw such a variety of expressions, I understood why New Black had such an endearing image to the public.
âYes, thank you! We wish you success at todayâs awards ceremony. We were New Black.â
âThank you!â
âBeiju, letâs go,â I said, herding the main dancer like a parent, a small smile on my face.
As the hall filled with warm laughter.
There were those who couldnât laugh.
-Yes, this idol captured the publicâs heart this year with their pure, warm, and refreshing songs, right?
Teen Spirit entered the red carpet with innocent smiles, greeted by cheers.
But inside, they werenât smiling.
âNo, damn. Itâs our turn next.â
âWhat the hell do we do.â
âDamn, damn⦠those damn trolls⦠Iâll sue them.â
They were the refreshing pretty boys, smiling brightly while crafting rough acrostics in their heads.
âThe viewâs great here.â
âWeâll see the stage better from here.â
We took our seats in the artist section.
Right at the front.
In the center was TNT, with Teen Spirit and New Black seated around them.
âHello!â
The camera director crouched in front of us, perhaps capturing our reactions before the performance.
And we were busy standing up to greet the other artists as they entered.
âHello.â
There were people we met at last yearâs awards and some we were seeing for the first time this year.
Most were familiar faces.
âHello-â
Senior Cha Woo-hyun entered wearing sunglasses.
Scarlet and Girls On Top passed by, giving us a light greeting.
Jiho sat down triumphantly after eyeing his rival, Gil Chaekyung.
There was also the Jo Yu-ri Band.
Given that the awards were based on music chart performance, it was no surprise that these well-known artists were gathered.
Most were senior artists.
âHello!â
Among our debut peers, only Serenity attended the ceremony.
And Enoti and Highcolor were there to receive the rookie awards. Both looked frozen, and I could guess they felt just like we did last year.
âUmâ¦â
âYes?â
I turned to see the Enoti members behind us, hesitating.
Rolling their eyes as if bracing for a serious conversation, they clasped their hands and said,
âWeâre fans. Of you.â
âWow, thank you. We enjoy your music too.â
âReallyâ¦?â
âCongratulations on the rookie award today.â
As we clenched our fists and shouted âFighting!â, they timidly echoed back, âFighting.â
Then, they turned their gaze forward again, brushing their hair back with a sweep of their hand.
âHeh⦠Hmm.â
âHmm.â
I couldnât help but suppress my flaring nostrils and pressed down on my cheeks as hard as I could.
âI finally did it. I congratulated someone on the rookie award.â
âIâve successfully cosplayed as a senior.â
âWeâre not the newbies anymore.â
Last year, everyone had such a solemn face when they said âcongratulations on the rookie award,â and I was somewhat envious.
It feels like Iâve finally fulfilled that wish.
While we were feeling proud among ourselves, Teen Spirit and TNT had finished entering.
When the gloomy-faced Hwiyeon from Teen Spirit came in, I tilted my head, and a whisper came back.
âI lost the acrostic poem game.â
I pressed down hard to suppress my laughter.
In the meantime, the TNT members looked at my empty wrist and asked, âWhereâs your watch?â I pointed to the younger members.
ââ¦â
It was our younger siblings who returned a warm gaze as if to say, âWas it you guys?â The younger line of TNT dodged away.
I had expected the senior group to boast with a fiery gaze, âWe bought it for you, why?â
As always, they were a ragtag bunch, then and now.
âYes! Welcome to the 2015 Mango Chart Awards!â
After the opening VCR, the actor Yoo Baek-han with pomade hair took the stage as todayâs MC.
Every time he recited the lineup of singers participating in the awards ceremony, the audience filled the gymnastics stadium with cheers.
âNew Black!â
âWaaaaah!â
Our Suplesâ cheers, gathered with all their soul, made me laugh unwittingly.
When I made a finger heart towards the camera crouched in front of me, an even louder cheer erupted.
âTeen Spirit!â
âWaaaaaak!â
âTNT!â
âUaaaaaak!â
At the end, the noisy cheers seemed to compete in volume.
After the lineup introduction, the award ceremony proceeded swiftly.
âYes, itâs an award you can only receive once in a lifetime.â
âItâs the rookie award given to newcomers who have achieved excellent results in the music market this year.â
I naturally processed my gaze between the audience and the camera as I recited the lines from the cue card.
We were the presenters for this yearâs rookie award, having been the recipients last year.
âShall we meet the nominees?â
âLetâs play!â
As I shouted the slogan put forth by this yearâs awards ceremony organizers, the candidates flowed onto the screen.
Jung-hyun introduced them with a deep voice, like a voice actor.
âIris, Aple B, Enotiâ¦â
I wonder if last yearâs presenters felt the same way.
Itâs a strange feeling.
While the only boy group that debuted in 2015 shone their eyes, we announced the winner.
âCongratulations! Enoti!â
âNoTâ appeared on the screen.
The boy group from one of the four major agencies, SNH, walked up with a brisk step.
As they almost reached a 90-degree angle to receive the trophy, Bijoo matched their angle, eliciting a small laugh from the audience.
âCongratulations.â
After handing the trophy to High Color, the female rookie award winner, I returned to my seat to enjoy the stage.
Last year, I was part of the first partâs opening, but this year, my turn was pushed back to the middle of the second part, so it was more relaxed.
âWaaaaah!â
As other singers performed, I hummed along to the songs and followed the key dance moves, enjoying the stage.
The Top 10 with the best results this year were called up one by one to share their thoughts.
According to the cue sheet, we were scheduled to receive our award in the second part.
While enjoying the performances, I pondered whether there were any songs worth referencing for our album.
âYes. This next award is given to the songwriter who made the biggest impact on this yearâs Mango Chart.â
âThe Songwriter of the Year.â
âCongratulations!â
The announcement was followed by a roar of âWaaaaah!â
TNT and Teen Spirit stood up, and we also rose with our younger siblings, all clapping.
âWuaaaaaah!â
The younger ones jumped around happily.
I clapped along and whispered to Rihyuk next to me with a smile.
âWho won it?â
âItâs you.â
âYou?â
I hesitated, then recalling the subject of âyou,â I asked.
ââ¦Me?â
Turning my head, I caught my own gaze on the screen, clapping for myself.
Next to it, the title âSongwriter of the Yearâ appeared under the name âWoojoo.â
â¦Was I the composer of the year?