Jaxon
Her eyes blaze. Her scent envelops me. Workaholic Barbie with all of that disdain. I want her so badly, itâs criminal.
âItâs like thereâs no end to you,â she says. âNo limit.â
âThatâs part of why youâre so hot for me,â I say.
âThere will not be a repeat. I prefer to kiss men who have some kind of a moral compass.â
âIâm sorry to hear that,â I say. âA man with a moral compass will never kiss as well as a thoroughly corrupted and power-drunk Lothario.â
âHeâll kiss better. Ask me how I know.â With that, she walks off.
I watch her, fascinated.
Iâve kissed princesses, fashion models, socialite hostesses with the mostest. I know a good kiss. That was a great kiss.
Beyond great.
I was stupid for herâstupid for the taste of her lips, obsessed with the feel of her skin with my palm. I couldnât suck in enough of her scent. And Jesus, the way her eyes changed when I pushed her against the wall. The entire feeling of us changed, as if we were trembling and coming alive together. I was a hungry beast, dying of starvation, and she was the feast, and I had to devour her, drown in her, ruin her like she was all I knew. Though âknewâ isnât the word. There was no âknowingâ happening whatsoever. My brain was being bypassed entirely, there was just my need and my hands and my lips, a mad orchestra directed by my cock and my libido.
Itâs not like me to lose control like that. Fucking has always been a sport to me. Ninety percent strategy. Ten percent luck. A hundred percent control.
Thatâll be all.
I grit my teeth.
She dismissed me? In the middle of that kiss?
The rest of the employees drift in, and soon the place is its usual hive of activity. A few minutes later, Jadaâs up at the worktable ripping open packages with the usual garment-making suspects.
Iâm trying to focus on making notes for Soto, but then I look back over, and they seem to be struggling, all high drama. Jada reaches up and pushes a bit of hair out of her face.
Of course she had to push me away. Sheâs a good girl, after all. She didnât think I had that level of wrongness in me, and she didnât think she had it in herself, either. Those delicious kissable frowning lips and the grabbable blonde bun.
Her imitation runs through my head. Quick, bring the servants, I shall need some smelling salts. Where is my cravat? Where is my Foppish Ascot?
How could I have ever thought it was anybody but her? That imitation was pure JadaâJada in her noble warrior Joan of Arc mode, sniffing out the hypocrisy and going for it.
Now that Iâve found her, what will I do? I tell myself Iâll decide when I decide. Iâm running the show here. In the meantime, thereâs a problem in shipping: Some software glitch made it so that we lost a lot of inventory data last night, and the guys have been scrambling to catch up before Bert does something drastic.
I ride down the elevator, ready to pitch in. I need to stop pretending to be somebody else at some point. I know who the butt-dialer is, after all, but for now, the shipping guys need my help. Theyâre good guys who donât deserve to have to cancel their weekend fishing trips and football games because of a software glitch.
I grab the tablet and get to work.
My parents truly were amazing. Not only did they have the world convinced that they were parents and philanthropists with big hearts when the complete opposite was true, but they had people believing that they run a good business when even I can see itâs being trashed.
Weâre making good time. The inventory project is a mindless task that requires me to hold a tablet and check stock against numbers in the systemâjust enough distraction to not think about the kiss with Jada or Jenny showing up with all of those explanations and memories.
It would have been nice for the ten-year-old boy that I was to have gotten one of those cards or to hear her say those things. But for the man I am now, itâs an unwanted if not outrightly perverse gift.
Needless to say, I lit into Arnold after work. He had no business sending Jenny into the office. Into my place of business! Arnold protested that she was leaving town for a while and there wouldnât have been another chance, as if that matters. I was harsher with him than I shouldâve been. But seriously, after all these years?
Jenny showing up to explain things at this late date is like showing a man whoâd cut his arm off to escape a trap that the key had been hidden within reach all along.
Not. Helpful. At all.
Jada would think she can sew back the arm. Sheâd give it everythingâthis is the woman, after all, who thinks she can bring a dead cactus back to life. But no way would she succeed, and I wouldnât want it anyway. The good thing about losing something crucial is that nobody can take it away from you a second time. Itâs a glorious form of immunity.
The shipping and logistics end of the business is actually kind of interesting. Iâm doing inventory with a man named Sammy whoâs been here for years. Sammy knows everything about ground shipping, about getting pieces of garments moved all over. Itâs complicated and fascinating, a large system where all the parts need to be functioning at peak efficiency, just like a pit crew.
Sammy is complaining about how much money gets squandered by shipping late or having to ship in separate parcels lately. This seems like intel that I could bring to Soto in my quest to wrest control away from Bert and Bloxburn or however itâs all arranged.
Surely I can get rid of them if theyâre outright screwing it up.
I order twenty-five pizzas for lunchâenough for the entire shipping team. I lie and say the pizza place owes me; not out of any Good Samaritanism, but weâre running behind. I add an anchovy pizza and use it to bribe Dave to come down and help; I happen to know he has a light afternoon.
My plan works. Sammy and Dave start tossing out ideas over pizza. They start running numbers and discover that adding one more full-time shipping person would save the company double that expense in rush fees. They tell me about this new kind of order alert system that would help with inventory. Not that I give a shit about the business, but I do think a lot about speed and logistics in motorsport, and we all start geeking out on it.
Clearly this company wouldâve been better off being run entirely by the employees this whole time, not that my parents would have gone for that.
Dave is all about helping with inventory now that he grasps the situation, and he identifies some other employees whoâd pitch in for pizza, and soon we have a crowd, and we get back to work.
Being a member of a team racing the clock is invigorating. Not that Iâm going to go all in on the charms of honest work, but we finish with two hours to spare, and there are high fives all around, even this sense of camaraderie, like weâve been through something together.
When Sammy invites me out for beers after work with the crew, I hear myself telling them that Iâll meet them.
I head back up in the elevator, wondering if Varsha has a gopher list.
She doesnât. Instead, I find tensionâI can feel it the moment I stroll into the design department. Jada looks up as I pass her. She widens her eyes and shakes her head ominously.
And then I see Bert leaning by the back shelving, looking all smug. Heâs watching Lacey go from design table to design table. She looks like sheâs about to collapse, and nobodyâs helping her, which is strange, considering sheâs the design department mascot.
Whatâs going on?
I focus back on my spreadsheetânot easy with the silent keening and gnashing of teeth. I can barely concentrate.
What has Bert done now?
I pull out my phone, put it in selfie mode, and study the scene behind me. Bert is more than smug; heâs looking like the cat that swallowed the canary.
I text Jada:
Jaxon: whatâs up?
Jada: Lacey screwed up a promo thing
that had to go out. She has to switch
a thing around and get it out in the
three oâclock Ship2Speed rush overnight
or itâs too late.
Jaxon: frowny face
Jada: He gave us extra tasks when
we tried to help. Shondrella might
have to miss her kidâs soccer game now.
Shitshow.
Jaxon: Lacey has 2 demerits, right?
Jada: CANNOT get another.
I glower at Bert whoâs twiddling merrily on his phone.
Jaxon: I donât understand why
it canât be rushed.
LA is not on another planet.
Jada: it has to be Ship2Speed.
Approved vendor only.
Jaxon: so this is a setup
Jada: to fire Lacey
Charley was right about meeting people Iâd like to hit on this job. I wouldâve gone after Bert so fast in my old life, but of course I keep thinking about Jada. Her distressed expression. And the shipping guys. I canât let myself get booted without knowing for sure that I have control over the operations here.
Is this how poor people have to go through life? Wanting to hit shitheads like Bert but there is too much to lose? And said shitheads control their lives and make thoughtless, asinine decisions that screw things up for them, and thereâs nothing to be done?
Because it really is intolerable.
I grab my phone and storm out of the office and down the hall to the rooftop patio. Itâs nearly rush hour; the street down below is fully gridlocked. The sounds of horns and sirens drift up on the breeze along with the diesel fumes and the faint scent of grilled meat from a nearby gyro cart.
I put in a call to Soto. Heâs gotten a copy of the Bloxburn contract, which he calls âunusually extensive if not draconian.â Heâs pulling in contract lawyers. He tells me that wresting control away from them might not be easy.
âMake it easy,â I say, tired of having my hands tied. âAlso, thereâs an employee here who I want moved to minimal part-time hours, but she still keeps her health insurance. Ten hours a week, ideally. Add that to my list of requests.â
âNow you want to get involved in individual employee arrangements?â
âThatâs right,â I say.
âThat sort of thing can involve modifying entire categories on the human resources level,â Soto says. âWhy is this person suddenly important?â
âSheâs not, itâs just that everyone is so maudlin about her situation, I can barely concentrate. Itâs annoying. Figure it out.â I hang up, staring out at the scaffolding on the building down the way. I have to get rid of Bert.
Bloxburn. The name still bothers me. I was never in the same location as my parents for long, but I do remember the name. I have this memory of it coming up in angry whispers. Though that might not mean much, being that so much of what my parents said came out in angry whispers.
Jada comes out and frowns. âOh, youâre here.â Her voice drips with disdain.
A good man would tell her his real identity at this point, but Iâm not a good man.
âThree pencils in your bun. Things didnât go well, Iâm thinking.â
Outrage flares in her eyes. Outrage is scathingly hot on her. I have this sudden and utterly savage urge to haul her little body right up to mine; this sudden, savage urge to take those angry lips in mine. I have this need to provoke her that I canât seem to control.
âOur friend is about to lose her job but oh-ho-ho I have three pencils in my bun,â she says. âYou want a comedy award?â
âDepends on the award.â
âDonât you even care? Her life is basically ruined.â
âSo Iâm guessing you missed the last Ship2Speed courier pickup.â
She glares up at the clouds.
I donât know much about shipping, but even I know Ship2Speed is a bad, low-rent option for overseas shipping. The carrier everyone makes fun of.
âDo they not have flights from the airport?â I ask.
âTheir customer window closes in thirty minutes, and itâs at least an hour away at this time of day. Obviously we wouldâve thought of it otherwise.â
I look over at her, heart pounding. I wait for her to feel me, to look back at me, because Iâm just that evil.
Eventually, she does.
Our eyes lock.
The heat between us spirals.
âWhat?â she demands
âI can get it on that plane.â
âThe customer window closes in thirty minutes.â
âI could get it there,â I say.
Jada narrows her eyes. âThirty minutes? No way. Youâd have to have perfect luck on the road. Parting-of-the-Red-Sea luck.â
âA good driver makes his luck.â
Sheâs giving me this look like she doesnât believe me. âIt sounds reckless.â
My eyes fall to her lips. âWell.â I lower my voice. âI could get a little reckless out there with the right incentive.â
Her lips fall open. Her outrage sparks something deep inside me.
âYou wouldnât.â
I give her the evilest smile I can. Which, let me just say, is pretty evil. Itâs a talent of mine.
Her pulse pounds visibly in her throat, and the urge to put my lips there is overwhelming. I wanted her before, but now that I know sheâs the butt-dialer, sheâs irresistible.
âGod, you are the worst,â she bites out. âLacey is in there crying. Our friend might lose her livelihood, her health insurance, her family. You would literally get pleasure out of making a woman give you sexual favors as payment for things you should do out of the goodness of your heart?â
âIf you keep standing there pointing out the obvious, Iâll never make it.â
âYou are an unbelievable jerk!â
âAgain with the obvious. Do we have a deal?â
Her lips twitch. The movement is tiny, but itâs fucking delicious, because yeah, she loves it a little, and I love her loving it.
I turn to her, go up close to her.
This little game turns her on, and she struggles so hard to pretend it doesnât, it pushes the hotness factor clear off the charts. Iâm addicted to her struggle. Iâm addicted to her pleasure.
She comes right up close, her mouth near mine. Smudgy eye shadow. Pink cheeks. âYou would be so fired for this.â
âAs weâve established, Iâm a jerk who doesnât give a shit. And we now have twenty-eight minutes.â