Hand in hand, we walk into the outside garden restaurant. I feel like Iâm going to vomit⦠or come. Damn Sebastian for making me horny. As if I wasnât wound up enough already.
âGarcia!â voices call as we walk through the restaurant.
Sebastian smiles and waves, and we head towards the table.
âYou didnât tell me that you knew everyone in the Maldives,â I whisper.
He smiles at everyone sitting as we arrive at our table. âYou do know that this is the pre-wedding dinner, right?â
âOh.â I fake a smile as I glance around at all the eyes fixed firmly on me. âI do now.â
This is hell on a stick. Everyone he fucking knows is here.
Great.
He pulls out my chair, and I sit down. He slides in beside me. Weâre sitting at a small table for six. His four friends are already here.
âYou remember Julian and Spencer, Brielle and Lottie.â
âYes.â I smile, âHello.â
âHi.â They all smile and stare at me like Iâm a freak in the circus.
âWhat were you two doing all day?â Spencer asks. âWe were waiting at the pool for you. How rude. I would have thought you would make more of an effort, April.â
âThey were getting busy,â Julian mutters.
My face falls, and the girls burst out laughing. âSpencer, stop it,â Lottie says.
I put my hand on my chest in relief. âOh my God, donât tease me. Iâm nervous enough,â I admit.
Sebastian rolls his eyes. âDonât be nervous about these fucking idiots. Nobody to impress here.â
âHey!â Brielle chimes in.
âWatch your mouth.â Lottie laughs.
âTwo jugs of sangria,â the waiter says as he puts two huge jugs of some exotic looking red drink on the table.
âYes, thank you,â Brielle smiles. âKeep them coming.â
Charlotte rolls her eyes. âOh, this is just great.â
âJust keep making babies for me, babe.â Spencer gives her a sexy wink as he rubs her pregnant stomach.
She fakes a smile at him and fans herself with a paper fan. âWhen I have this baby, Spencer, Iâm going on a bender for a week, and youâre babysitting the entire time. Breastfeeding and all.â
Spencer raises his glass to her. âYes, dear.â
I canât help but smile as I watch them. He adores her, itâs obvious. He has a likeable, naughty boy charm about him.
âHow long have you got to go?â I ask.
âTen weeks.â She smiles.
âFirst baby?â
âNo, fourth.â
My eyes widen. âWow.â
She seems nice and has a real toffy English accent. I wonder where sheâs from.
I turn my attention to Brielle. âDo you have any children?â
âYes, five.â
âFive?â My eyes widen, unable to hide my shock. God, these women are full-on breeders.
âThree are ours, and two are my step kids.â
I think I pick up an accent.
My eyes drift to Julian. He must have had kids with someone else before.
âAlthough, they like Brielle more than me,â Julian mutters dryly.
âWe all do,â Spencer replies casually against his glass of sangria.
âAm I picking up an Australian accent?â I ask.
âYes, Iâm an Aussie. Tell me about you.â
Julian smiles as he watches her. Itâs obvious heâs smitten, too.
âIâm American.â I smile. âLawyer.â
They all hang off my every word. I shrug bashfully.
âHow did you two meet?â Charlotte looks between us.
âAh.â My eyes find Sebastian. Heâs sitting back, enjoying the show, not a word to be heard. Cut in any time, fucker. âWe met in a café about six years ago. We dated briefly then but it didnât work out.â
Sebastian, Julian, and Spencerâs eyes meet, and I know his friends know the real way we met.
Screw it. He wants to be honest with his friends, so do I.
âActually, thatâs not all of it. After we met in the café, I worked in a strip club, and Sebastian came in.â
A broad smile crosses Julianâs face, and he glances over to Spencer who is also wearing a goofy grin.
âSteady on,â Sebastian chokes.
The girlsâ eyes widen.
âIâm telling you two the truth because I canât lie, and I know that Sebastian has already told the boys. I want to be honest with you both right off the bat.â
Charlotte slaps Spencerâs arm. âWhy didnât you tell me?â
Brielleâs mouth falls open when she turns to Julian. âYou knew this?â
Sebastian holds his hands up in surrender. âIt was the one time I went to a strip club, and she was working behind the bar to put herself through law school,â he stammers.
I look over to see Julian is smirking into his drink, his eyes holding mine.
Heâs impressed that I told them the truth.
So am I.
âOh, I like you.â Charlotte gasps. âSomebody pour her another drink. I want to hear all the strip club stories.â
Spencer playfully puts his hand over my glass. âLetâs not.â
âSo how did you girls meet your lovely men?â I ask.
âWell I was actually Julianâs nanny,â Bree responds with a smirk on her face. âAnd Charlotte is the rich daddyâs girl that Spencer couldnât haveâ.
We all laugh. Maybe this night wonât be so bad after all.
They actually seem nice.
I watch as April chatters and laughs with the girls at the other end of the table. This is so weird.
The girls never like anyone I date. Not that I ever bring them to anything like this, I guess. Iâve taken dates to black tie balls before, but Brielle and Charlotte have always been guarded and not overly friendly.
Theyâre different tonight. Or maybe itâs just that itâs April.
Unassuming and pretty, she oozes warmth and kindness. But most of all, sheâs intelligent.
âSo, whatâs the plan if you go into early labor while weâre here?â April asks.
âI donât know.â Charlotte looks over to her husband. âWhatâs the plan, Spence?â
He shrugs. âFreak the fuck out.â He puts his hand over his mouth so the girls canât hear. âAnd then getting rolling fucking drunk,â he mutters under his breath.
Julian and I laugh. Spencer is hardly drinking due to Charlotteâs condition in case he needs to drive somewhere in an emergency. He wants the baby to come more than anyone.
âYou can call me and Sebastian,â April slurs in her âIâve had way too many sangriasâ voice. âIâm good in emergency situations, and Seb always knows what to do.â
I smile against my wine glass. When do I always know what to do?
Never.
âAnd besides, my cat had kittens,â she continues.
âTrust me, this pussy is a lot bigger than yours. We need back up,â Spencer mutters dryly.
We all burst out laughing.
Charlotte slaps him on the arm. âSpencer.â
Brielle goes to stand and stumbles back on her chair, crashing spectacularly backwards into the garden bed.
âFucking hell,â Julian mutters, jumping up.
April bursts out laughing, and she scrambles to pick Brielle up. She grabs her hands and begins to pull her out of the hedge. Theyâre laughing loudly as they fumble around, and everyone is looking our way.
âNo more for you. Weâre going home,â Julian says as he pulls Brielle to her feet. âYou could have broken your neck.â He smooths down her dress and straightens her up.
âBut weâre going dancing,â Brielle slurs. Her hair is wild, and she has the Devil in her eyes. Jeez, I think sheâs even drunker than April.
Drunker. Is that a word?
âYes. Dancing!â April gasps. âLetâs go.â She grabs Charlotteâs hands and pretends to slow waltz with her. âBubba loves to dance.â She bends down to Charlotteâs stomach. âDonât you, cutie pie?â she says in a baby voice.
âOh God.â I roll my eyes. âThatâs it. Weâre out, too, April.â
Brielle sidesteps and stumbles again on her heels. Just as sheâs about to fall back in the garden, Julian catches her. âHome,â he demands, putting his arm around her.
âYes, good idea.â She looks lovingly up at him. âWhat have you got for me, big boy?â
Julian winces, and Spence and I burst out laughing.
I take Aprilâs hand. âCome.â
ââ She laughs. âDonât be a party pooper, Seb. Me and the girls are out on the town. Arenât we girls?âNoo.
âThere is no town,â Julian replies.
âYes!â Brielle calls from under Julianâs arm. âIâm going out, Jules.â She goes to pull away, and he takes her arm in a vice-like grip. âHome time, Bree.â He pulls her along. âYouâve had enough.â
Brielle puts her hand to her mouth, whispering while sheâs being pulled along like a child. âHeâs being boring.â
âWhatâs new?â Spencer mutters.
We walk through the gardens back to our apartments. The girls are on each arm of Charlotte, chatting and giggling, tottering along like drunken sailors.
The boys and I are walking behind them, rolling our eyes at their antics, and a strange thought crosses my mind.
This is the first time that this has ever happened.
The three of our partners, getting along and having fun. Actually, having more fun than us.
Weird.
Julian slaps me on the back when we get to their hut. âGood luck with that one tonight.â
âOh,â Brielle frowns. âI donât feel so good.â She holds her stomach. âJules, I feel sick.â
âChrist almighty,â he winces.
I chuckle. âI think youâre going to need some luck yourself⦠and a bucket.â
He helps her up the stairs, and Spence and Charlotte say their goodbyes. I take Aprilâs hand, and we continue to walk to our room.
She hiccups in an exaggerated way as she looks up at me, and I smile down at her. Even blind drunk, sheâs adorable.
âI like your friends.â She beams.
âThey like you.â
âReally?â She seems surprised. âBecause I like them.â
âYes, you just told me.â
âDid I?â She frowns.
I lead her up the stairs, and she sways as I unlock the door.
âAre you alright?â I ask.
She nods. âYep.â She hiccups again.
âWhy did you drink so much?â
âIt was Charlotte,â she slurs.
I frown. âCharlotte?â
âYes, I had to drink for her, too.â
I chuckle. âThat makes sense.â I lead her into our room. âBed.â
âNo, I need a shower.â She rises on her toes to kiss me. âCan you run us a shower, babe?â
I smile against her lips.
âYou owe me an orgasm.â She smiles sexily and cups my cock in my pants.
Blood starts to swirl around my body. Now I can do. Even drunk, this woman is hot for it. âAll right.âthat
I walk into the bathroom and turn the shower on. I retrieve the towels, undress, and I get under the water to wash myself. I give myself a few sneaky strokes.
Hmm, yes, I feel like this. I imagine how good sheâs going to feel around me.
âApril.â I smile. âCome and get it.â
Silence.
âApril?â I frown. Whatâs she doing out there?
Silence.
I walk out of the bathroom and around the corner to see her curled up on the end of the bed, still in her dress, fast asleep.
I exhale heavily. This is not what I had planned.
I pick her up and put her bed, taking her shoes off. I pull the sheet up over her and kiss her forehead as I brush the hair back from her face.
I frown as I stare down at her. I didnât realize how much Iâve been missing by being alone. This weekend has opened my eyes, and I feel like this is a turning point in our relationship.
I bend and kiss her again. I kiss her shoulder, her cheek, her arm, and I just canât get close enough.
I lie down beside her and hold her in my arms. Sheâs dead to the world, fast asleep, but it makes me feel better by holding her close.
The longer I hold her, the stronger my need becomes. I get up and return to the shower. I see the lube and squirt some into my hand.
No use wasting this boner. I may as well help myself.
I sit in the sun, my sunglasses on. Iâm somewhere between Heaven and Hell.
Being hungover is bad.
Feeling near death from alcohol poisoning while sitting in the sun at a wedding is the fucking worst.
We are on the beach, sitting on the chairs that are lined up in pretty rows as we wait for the bride to arrive.
I am in a world of pain with absolutely no sympathy from Sebastian.
Bree is worse, and Charlotte thinks this is the funniest thing that has ever happened.
Brielle has been throwing up non-stop all morning.
âOh.â Brielle sighs and holds her head. âI swear to God, Iâm literally dying here. If I even see a bottle of sangria again, Iâll throw up. That shit is the Devil.â
âIt doesnât come in a bottle,â Julian says, staring straight ahead. âItâs a cocktail.â
She rolls her eyes, annoyed by his response. âHow come youâre not sick, April? Do you have an iron stomach or something?â
âTrust me, I am,â I whisper.
Not a lie. I really am feeling as sick as a dog.
âSome people can handle their liquor,â Julian replies.
âDid you bring me any water?â she asks him.
âDo I look like I have water?â He holds his hands out.
âSeriously, Jules, if you love me, you will go find me some water. Iâm so dehydrated, Iâm turning into a sultana.â
Julian rolls his eyes.
Sebastian smirks, and I can tell that Julian and Brielleâs conversations often keep everyone entertained.
âAnd if you love me, you wouldnât expect me to fly all the way to the Maldives to be your hydration slave. Your condition is self-inflicted. Suck it up, princess,â Julian replies flatly.
Spencer drops his head and chuckles.
Sebastian glances over at me and gives me a soft smile. I reach over to take his hand and pull it into my lap.
This all feels so natural and not at all what I expected. I really like his friends. Theyâre my kind of people. The girls are around my age, and we have a natural rapport. Spencer and Julian are dry and witty.
Spencer is soft and swoony, and Julian is a hard ass, although I kind of get the feeling heâs a big softy underneath, too.
And then thereâs my man, Sebastian Garcia.
Tall, dark, handsome, guarded and damaged.
Perhaps the most beautiful man Iâve ever been with. In terms of looks, definitely, but itâs his heart that has me convinced. Heâs like an onion. With every layer that I slowly peel back, I get a little more from our relationship.
Heâs deep and caring, bossy and dominant, with a huge heart.
I know he said that he loves me, and in his own way I know that he does, but his walls havenât come completely down yet. I guess itâs just going to take time to build that trust between us. For me, too.
But I have faith it will come. Whatâs between us is too good for it not to. By admitting what weâre both feeling, itâs a big step in the right direction.
And now with his friendsâ¦
He lifts my hand and kisses my fingertips. I smile over at him.
The way he looks at me is just everything.
âGet a room, you two,â Spencer whispers. âIâm about to vomit in my own mouth here.â
âThat makes two of us,â Bree moans as she holds her temples.
âDonât even think about it,â Julian warns her.
âOh, please do,â Charlotte whispers. âThat will be the highlight of my life if you vomit here at the wedding.â
âDo it on the groom,â Spencer whispers. âLet me film it.â
I drop my head and giggle. Brielleâs hangover is hilarious.
âHurry the fuck up.â Sebastian looks around. âItâs two thousand degrees. What are we waiting for?â
âThe bride.â Charlotte widens her eyes to accentuate her point.
He exhales heavily, unimpressed. âAh. Her.â
The music starts, and we all stand and turn to see a beautiful bride walking down the beach, wearing a classic white dress and a veil. With long, dark hair, she looks every bit of the wedding fantasy.
âOh, no.â Brielle drops her head and fans her face. âI think Iâm going to throw up.â
âHow lovely,â Julian murmurs, faking a smile at the oncoming bride.
I bite my bottom lip to stop myself from bursting out laughing. Even sick as a dog in ten-thousand-degree heat, Iâm having so much fun.
We walk along the beach on our way home from the wedding. Itâs nearly 1:00 a.m. Weâve had the most amazing afternoon and night at the romantic beachside wedding.
Thereâs been laughter and dancing. Sebastian has been utterly gorgeous, and Iâve been swooning at his every word.
The moonlight is dancing over the water now, and the breeze is blowing through my hair. We stop walking and look out to sea.
Sebastian takes me in his arms, and I stare up at him. Our lips slowly meet and, unable to help it, my eyes close. Iâm giddy over this man.
Like a wave in the ocean, attachment is beginning to flood through us. Itâs exhilarating and terrifying.
Real.
Sebastian stares down at me, and itâs as if he can read my mind. A frown creases his brow. âWhat?â he asks.
I swallow the lump in my throat. I donât want to admit that Iâm petrified of loving himâthat this is all going to go south, and that the next time my heart breaks it might be beyond repair.
When Iâm alone, Iâm safe. Nobody can hurt me.
Butâ¦
âI donât want to be that person anymore,â I whisper.
Our eyes are locked. âMe, neither,â he says softly.
He kisses me, and I know that he feels the same. Unbridled fear is running between us like wildfire.
âSebastian,â I whisper. âPromise me that we wonât fuck this up.â
âYou know that I canât.â
My eyes search his. He reaches up and tucks a piece of hair behind my ear.
âI can promise you two things,â he says.
The wind whips through my hair. âSuch as?â
âThat you have me.â He takes my hand and places it over his heart. I feel the warmth of his chest. âAnd that Iâm trying my hardest.â He leans down and kisses me softly. âYou make me want to be a better version of myself. The old version⦠beforeâ¦â He cuts himself off.
âWhatâs that old saying?â I stare up at him. âLove like youâve never been hurt.â
âI wish I could.â His eyes search mine, âHow do you do that?â
I shrug as emotion overwhelms me. For some reason, I tear up because, fuck,
I wish I knew.
He sits down on the sand, and I sit down beside him. We both stare out at the sea in silence.
I feel like Iâm on the precipice of heartache.
Relationships are hard when both people are whole. Relationships are barely doable when one person is broken. But both parties⦠how could that possibly work?
âWhy did you stop seeing Duke?â he asks.
I frown, surprised by his question. âBecause I didnât love him.â
âHow did you know that you didnât love him?â
âBecause it didnât bother me if he slept with anyone else, which he did. We had an open relationship. Not that I ever slept with anyone else. I would never put a title on our relationship. I hated the thought of being tied down and trapped.â
âHow does that differ to how you feel about me?â
âBecauseâ¦â I pause. âFrom the first moment I saw you in the street with that homeless man, I could see you.â
âFor what?â
âFor who you really are.â
He stares at me.
âIâd been dating all these supposedly great guys who said they loved me. Then there was you, telling me you didnât want me, acting like you hated me, treating me terribly, wanting me to be your whore⦠but deep down, I always knew.â
He drops his head as if overwhelmed with emotion. âKnew what?â
âThat you and I would end up together on a beach on the Maldives one day.â
He breaks into a slow, sexy smile. âHungover?â
âOnly one of us is hungover.â
His eyes twinkle with a certain something. âThe other one is smitten.â
I smile at the beautiful man in front of me. His eyes oozing with honesty. His hair windswept and wild. âI do love you, Seb. So much.â
âShow me.â He rolls us over so that Iâm on top of him.
I sit up, my legs on either side of him, our most sensitive parts touching. I stare down at the beautiful man shining in the moonlight. âYouâd better undo that fly on your pants, Mr. Sandman.â
He chuckles, and I go up onto my knees to give him room to move. He struggles and unzips his suit pants. âNow what?â He smiles up at me.
I pull my panties to the side. âWe do this.â I slide down onto him.
He looks up at me in awe. âI like that weâre doing this.â
I smile, the double meaning not lost. âMe, too.â
Buzz, buzz, buzz, buzz.
Hmm, whatâs that?
âHello,â Sebastian answers in a husky voice. He stands and walks over to the window and peers out onto the street below as he listens to whoever is on the phone. âIs he alright?â
He falls silent.
I rub my eyes as I watch him. Whoâs he talking to?
âIâll be on the first plane home.â He nods and turns. His eyes find mine. âSee you soon.â He hangs up.
âWhatâs going on?â I ask.
âThey found Theodore.â
I smile. âGreat.â
âHeâs dead.â