The drone buzzing in the background wakes me from my slumber. I wince, roll over and turn off my alarm.
I lie for a moment to get my bearings, and I look around. Iâm alone in bed. Where is she?
Thoughts of last night run through my mind. I close my eyes in disgust.
Fuck.
A moment of weakness has ruined everything. I get up and walk to the bedroom door and listen. I can hear CNN in the distance, and April talking to Bentley.
Sheâs downstairs. Relief fills me, and I frown as the realization hits me.
Stop it.
I shower, get dressed for work, and I make my way downstairs. I find April in the kitchen, drinking coffee as she cuts up fruit.
She looks up and smiles. âHey, you.â
âHello.â I stand on the spot.
She raises an eyebrow, and I raise one back.
âAre you going to kiss me good morning?â she asks.
And so it begins.
I exhale and walk over to her. She takes me in her arms, rises on her toes, and she kisses me softly. I feel it in the pit of my stomach, and I pull out of the kiss. âI have to go. Iâm running late.â
âItâs only 6:45 a.m.â
âEarly meeting.â
She smiles up at me.
âWhat?â
âAre you in the middle of a freak out right now?â
I swallow the lump in my throat, itâs a strong possibility. âNo.â
âAre you regretting anything?â
I hesitate for a moment, and she raises an eyebrow.
âNope.â
She smiles up at me as she runs her hand over my suit-covered cock. âDo you still love me?â she asks.
âOh, for fuckâs sake, April. Enough of the lovey dovey crap. You caught me in a moment of weakness. We donât have to go on and on about it.â
She giggles and rearranges the lapels of my suit jacket. âOkay.â
âWhat are you doing today?â
âWell, I canât go into the office with this black eye. Iâll go home and work from there.â
My eyes hold hers. âStay here.â
âWhy?â
âIâve arranged security for you.â
She frowns. âWhy?â
âHave you looked in the mirror lately?â
âSebastian, itâs okay. Iâm safe.â
âThatâs debatable.â
âDo you think sheâs going to try and hurt me?â
I rearrange the cufflinks on my sleeves, trying to act uninterested. âI donât know what that woman is capable of but Iâm not taking any risks.â
She smiles proudly, as if knowing something I donât.
I turn toward my coffee machine and flick it on. âSo, you will stay here?â
âYes, dear.â
âAnd you wonât leave without security?â
âNo, dear.â
âStop patronizing me, April. I donât like it.â I fill my cup, and her arms come around me from behind. She kisses my back.
âDo you want to go out to dinner tonight?â she asks.
âNo.â
She lets out a deep sigh and steps back from me.
Fuck, Iâm being a prick.
Itâs not her fault that Iâm fucked up. I turn and take her into my arms. âI can bring home dinner, if you like.â
She acts uninterested when I kiss her cheek.
âAnything you want. Text me when you know what you feel like.â I kiss her to try and sweeten the deal.
âWhat we had last night was pretty good,â she says casually.
âAll right.â I take a sip of my coffee. âChoked out chicken it is.â
She laughs out loud, and it brings with it a warm fuzzy feeling. She has the most beautiful laugh Iâve ever heard.
She kisses me and pushes the hair back from my forehead. âIâm feeling like the luckiest girl alive today, Seb.â
My heart swells before I quickly recover. âYeah, well, you do have a brain injury.â I hug her. âI have to go.â
âOkay.â
I grab my keys and briefcase, and I take one last look at the woman in my kitchen. Wearing my dressing gown, with her messed up hair and black eye, Iâve never seen anything so beautiful.
Itâs me whoâs feeling lucky.
âNext question,â I snap and point to another reporter. Fuck, I hate this part of the job.
âCan you release any further details on Theodoreâs condition?â
âNot at this stage,â I reply. âNext question.â
âIs he having a mental breakdown?â someone yells.
No, but I might if they keep this up.
âTheodore is suffering from exhaustion. There is no need for concern, he just needs to rest,â I lie. âHe will be back at work before you know it.â
Fuck it, this canât go on. We need to fess up that heâs a loose cannon with a drug problem and admit that heâs missing. Where the hell could he be? We have so many people out searching, and with every day that passes, my fear for his welfare escalates.
At first, I thought heâd just gone on a bender with a wild woman. Now, Iâm not so sure. His phone has been switched off for weeks. He hasnât touched his credit cards. Although, I know that he does have others in different names so that he could escape the press when he wanted to disappear. I guess his plan has worked a little too well this time.
I wish I paid more attention to those fake names when I saw them way back then. Never in a million years did I think this would ever eventuate.
âAre you going to supersede the Prime Minister?â someone calls.
âNo.â I look around. âNext question.â
The warm afternoon sun is beaming down on me in Sebastianâs backyard, and I smile up at the sky. The rare London sunshine is a delight.
Bentley is stretched out beside me. I think Iâve found my own little piece of paradise.
I love this house.
I can see why Seb is so attached to it. My mind goes back to Helena and the fact that sheâs been in here. We are still trying to work out how she got a key. Apparently, a few weeks ago, she turned up at Sebastianâs sisterâs house to âseeâ Bentley when she had him. Putting the pieces together now, Seb and his sister think that she was there to steal the key to Sebâs house, because she turned up again a few hours later saying that she left her scarf there. Thatâs when he thinks she went and got a key cut and was sneaking it back in.
Bitch.
I wonder what she was looking for.
I walk back into the house and wash my coffee cup up with my mind ticking. What does he have that she wants so badly? I walk down to Sebastianâs office and pull out the filing cabinet drawer that she had opened. She was searching somewhere at the back. I go to the area I think she was looking, and I read the dividers.
Bank Statements
I take them out and lay them across the desk to look all through the dates. Thereâs nothing missing. All the statements are here. I go to the next divider and go through them. Nothing missing.
Hmm.
I look again and again, and I get to a drawer right at the back. I lay them all out and frown. The statement goes from March, April, May, and then it jumps to July.
Thereâs a statement missing here.
I turn it over and read the back, and then I read the front.
Itâs a credit card statement from six, nearly seven years ago. I slip into the seat and roll my fingers on the desk as I think. What would she want his credit card number for?
What does she want?
I text Sebastian.
Cancel your credit card ending in 507. Helena has the number.
A reply instantly comes back.
Already done X
Good.
I narrow my eyes as contempt fills my every cell. If you want to hurt him, bitch, youâll have to get through me.
Itâs just gone 7:00 p.m. when the garage door goes up.
I called Seb earlier. I wanted to cook dinner for the two of us. Takeaway choked out chicken didnât sound appealing. I have a baked dinner in the oven, and Iâve had a productive day. I vacuumed the house, did some washing, took a nap, and I made a little surprise for Sebastian, which could go either way, but it had to be done. I guess Iâll soon find out by his reaction. I hope I havenât overstepped the mark.
I know I have, but I needed to do this for me.
I stir the gravy and take the large baking dish out of the oven. The heavenly aroma of roast meat and vegetables fills the house. Iâm wearing my new favorite outfit: Sebastianâs dressing gown. My blonde hair is in a messy bun, and I have no fucks to give about my appearance. This man makes me feel comfortable in my own skin. He likes me best like this.
I like me best like this.
He appears and leans against the doorframe, watching me. His big brown eyes find mine across the room, and he gives me the best come fuck me look Iâve ever seen. Wearing a navy suit and a crisp white shirt, he is the epitome of dreamy. My heart skips a beat.
âHi,â he purrs.
âHello, Mr. Garcia,â I smirk.
He pushes off the wall, and in one swift movement, he has me in his arms.
He gently pats my blue eye socket. âDoes it still hurt?â
âNo. Itâs getting better.â
âHow was my girlâs day?â He kisses me with suction and dominance.
Just delicious.
âBetter now.â
He unfastens the tie of my dressing gown to reveal my naked body. His eyes drop to my toes, and he licks his lips.
âMine, too.â
He stands back and cups my breast, his thumb dusting back and forth over my erect nipple. His hands slide down around to my behind, and he kisses me as he pulls my body against his hard cock.
Oh, this man.
âDinner.â I smile against his lips.
âIs right here.â His lips drop to my neck, and his teeth graze my skin. Goosebumps scatter up my spine.
I tip my head back to allow him greater access. No matter how hard I try, I canât resist him. âSeb.â I smile goofily up at the ceiling. âIâve made you dinner. In fact, Iâve made you a lot of things today.â
He pulls back to look at me. âSuch as?â
âA surprise. Now sit down while I serve.â
Sebastian rolls his eyes and takes a seat at the bench. I pour us both a glass of wine and pass his to him. He takes a sip, his eyes lingering on my face.
âWhat?â I smirk.
âI like coming home to this.â
âTo what?â
âYou, half naked in my kitchen.â
I giggle and point to him with the tongs in my hand. âThatâs because youâre a sex maniac.â
He taps his lap. âCome.â
I go to him and put my arms around his neck. He slides his hands in under my robe and holds me tightly. We stay here for a while, and itâs nice. Thereâs a closeness between us, and itâs not hurried or passionate. Itâs comfortable.
Homely.
Something Iâve been searching for, for a very long time.
âWhatâs this surprise you made me?â he asks.
Oh crap.
âUmm⦠wellâ¦â I really donât know how this is going to go down. Knowing Sebastian, it could very well be the drop of an atomic bomb. âI was thinking about everything today, and howâ¦â
He listens.
âI know that itâs not⦠I mean, I donât want you to ever go through that again.â I stumble over my words trying to make this come out in the right context.
âApril,â he says in his deep, commanding voice.
âI made you something. Of course, you will need to get Bart or someone you trust to check it,â I babble on.
Nerves dance in my stomach.
âAprilâ¦â He warns impatiently.
I push off his lap. âIâll just go get it.â I walk up the hall and into his office to retrieve the ten-page document in his printer. I walk back out and hand it over.
He frowns as he looks down at it in his hands.
âItâs a prenup agreement,â I announce.
His eyes rise to mine, and he raises a pissed off eyebrow.
Oh crap, he thinks itâs about me. âI mean, itâs not for me or anything. Itâs for you to have for the future. Like, if you ever meet the right person. I donât want you to get ripped off ever again, Seb.â
Unimpressed, he throws it onto the table and stands. He goes to the cupboard, takes out a glass and fills it with scotch. He takes a sip as his angry eyes hold mine.
âAre you angry?â I ask.
âYes, Iâm fucking angry,â he growls. âIf you want to leave, just do it.â He drains his glass.
I open my mouth to say something, but no words come out.
âI cannot believe you would have the fucking audacity to draft a pre-marital agreement for my future wife to sign,â he says.
âSebastianâ¦â
âDonât.â He fills his glass again.
âThis is for your own protection. I wonât let another woman rip you off.â
âI donât want another fucking woman!â he yells.
Oh crap, he thinks Iâm leaving.
âThen, Iâll sign it,â I stammer. I grab the pen from the shopping list on the fridge. âHere, Iâll sign it right now.â
Fuck, this is going bad.
Real bad.
I flick through the pages to the back and quickly sign my name on the dotted line. Iâm half expecting him to throw me out onto the street. âThere, see?â I smile. âItâs done.â
He glares at me.
âSebastian, I donât want your money; not one penny. But if Iâm going to stay here in your house and be with you, I need to have this for my own sanity. I want us to go into this relationship unencumbered.â
He storms past me, heading toward the stairs.
âWhere are you going?â I call after him.
âTo take a shower. Do you want to do up a premature legal agreement for that?â he yells.
I roll my eyes. Smartass.
He marches up the stairs, and I slump onto my stool. I thought I was doing a good deedâthat he would be happy.
Premature legal agreement.
I exhale heavily. I guess not.
I peer into the oven and glance at the clock. Sebastian has been upstairs for half an hour. Is he even coming back down?
Too soon.
It was too soon, you idiot.
What the fuck was I thinking?
I honestly thought he would be happy that I took that upon myself to do that.
I hear the stairs creak, and I stir the gravy to act busy. He walks in and takes a seat back at the kitchen counter.
âAre you ready for dinner now?â I ask with my back to him.
âYes, please,â he replies curtly.
Big baby.
I dish out our food and place it in front of him.
âThank you.â
âYouâre welcome.â I smile through gritted teeth.
I sit down, and we eat in silence while I repeat the mantra, hold your tongue, hold your tongue.
Eventually, he breaks the silence. âIâll have my own lawyer draft an agreement.â
âThatâs fine,â I say, trying to keep a straight face.
We eat in silence again.
âAnd I donât like being pushed into anything,â he states.
âOkay.â
âYou will not be moving in here until we discuss it.â
I roll my eyes. Heâs pissing me off now. âThatâs fine, Sebastian. I donât want to move in here, anyway.â
His eyes rise to meet mine.
âWhat?â I scoff. âItâs okay for you to say it but if I agree, Iâm in the shit.â
He raises an eyebrow and goes back to his dinner.
âI was only trying to protect you,â I say.
âI donât need your protection,â he snaps.
âReally?â I scoff, âFrom where Iâm standing, you kind of do. Youâre a very wealthy man, Sebastian. Donât be a fool.â
He gives a subtle shake of his head. âYouâre fucking infuriating, April.â
âAnd youâre a big baby.â I stand and pick up my plate.
âWhere are you going?â
âTo eat my dinner in front of the television.â I walk out into the living room and sit down on the couch. I begin to eat my dinner on my lap. âAnd I might write up a contract for this, too!â I call out.
If he wants to be a dick, I can be a bigger one.
âWrite up a contract that you have to suck my cock every day!â he calls from the kitchen.
âIf you check the fine print of the already-written contract, you will see that it is me who gets head on the daily,â I call back. âIâm not stupid, you know.â
âCould have fooled me,â I hear him mutter.
I smile to myself, and I know that he will be smiling, too.
âAnd youâre washing the dishes,â I call.
âI canât hear you.â
I smile, knowing our fight is over.
I think that maybe I won.
I lie back in the deep, hot water as the steam rises. I think this is the deepest, most luxurious bathtub Iâve ever seen. Sebastian has been fussing around downstairs. He washed up and fed Bentley. God knows what heâs doing now.
Itâs the strangest thing. We have these disagreements, but never once do I consider going home, which is weird. Usually, thatâs my first response.
He walks into the bathroom and takes off his sweater.
âWhat are you doing?â
âGetting in. What does it look like?â
I smile and scooch over. He slides his track pants down his legs, and Iâm gifted with a full frontal from my Adonis.
His skin has a beautiful honey hue. His chest is broad with a scattering of dark hair. His stomach is rippled with muscles. My eyes drop lower to the well-kept, black pubic hair and his large family jewels. No matter how many times I see him naked, Iâm always taken aback by his beauty.
He climbs in the opposite end and rearranges us so that I am lying between his legs. He takes the soap and begins to wash my legs. I stay silent as I wait for him to say something. Eventually, he does.
âI have a wedding in the Maldives this weekend.â
Oh no. A weekend without him. âOkay.â
âI leave on Thursday and get back next Tuesday.â
I nod, damn it. Heâs going away for work tomorrow for two nights, so that means I wonât see him for a week.
âIâd like you to come and meet my friends.â
âTo the wedding?â
âYes.â
I smile goofily.
He remains straight-faced as he soaps up my feet. âIâm going away for work tomorrow, remember? I wonât see you for an entire week otherwise.â
âOh, I had forgotten about that,â I lie as I act casual. âIâll have to see if I can get off work.â
Bang work. If they donât give me time off, Iâll leave. Not really, but still.
âI have a lot of time in lieu owed to me, so it shouldnât be a problem.â
He nods as his eyes search mine, and I know that he has a million things that he wants to say that will never leave his lips.
âIâm sorry about the contract, but you need to know that Iâll protect you, even if you donât want me to.â I slide up over his body so that I am lying on top of him.
âI hate that you think this is about money. I donât care about the money.â
I melt, and kiss his big, beautiful lips, running my hand through his thick, dark hair. âThis is about freedom, Seb,â I say softly.
He frowns, not understanding.
âI need to know that we are on the same page. You need to remember that I lost everything to an ex-husband, too. That contract protects both of us.â
He blinks. âYou think I would take your money?â
âNo, not that I have a lot, anyway.â I pause as I try to get the wording right in my head. âBut if there ever came a day when we decided to go furtherâ¦â
âDefine further.â
âElope or something crazy. This way, the legalities are already taken care of.â
âElope?â He frowns.
âWell, Iâm never having a white wedding again. What a crock of shit that was.â
He smiles softly.
âMy next wedding will be just me and my husband. It will be for us and us alone. No witnesses, no bullshit, no lies, and no fear of losing everything again.â
He kisses me as his arms slide up over my back, and I know that he likes that answer.
âI just need you to know that Iâm not here for what you have, Seb. Iâm here for what you are.â
He pushes the hair back from my face as we stare at each other. âI love you, April Bennet,â he whispers.
I smile. âI know.â
His lips take mine, and Iâm lost.
Sebastian Garcia is special, and heâs all mine.
Iâm sitting at the table with two of my colleagues. Itâs been a full-on day with press conference after press conference.
We are at a dinner function filled with five hundred people, but all I want to do is go back to my room to call April. Iâm over this political shit for the day. I hate staying away from home. Iâve had enough.
Bart appears through the crowd and pulls out a seat at our table. âSeb.â
âHello.â
âI had a look over that contract you gave me this morning.â
âAnd?â
âItâs watertight. She did a good job. I say sign away.â
I knew she would have done it right. âThank you.â
A waiter arrives at the table with a tray of drinks. He places them down one by one. âHere you are.â
âThanks.â I drain my glass and pick up my new one as I glance at my watch. Another hour and Iâm out of here.
Pound, pound, pound, goes my head.
Searing pain ricochets through my skull.
Fuck.
I drag my eyes open to see the room spinning, and quickly I clench them shut again.
Ohâ¦
My stomach rolls, and I sit up in a rush. Perspiration wets my skin.
What the hell, I feel sick. I stumble to the bathroom and throw up violently. My body is shaking, as though dealing with some kind of fever.
Fuck.
I get into the shower and under the hot water. I lean up against the tiles. I have zero energy. Why am I so hungover?
What did I drink last night? I frown, trying to remember.
Huh?
My mind is blank. The last thing I remember was sitting at the table in the bar.
Butâ¦
I frown as I try to clear my brain fog. How did I get back to the hotel?
I get out of the shower and dry myself. I wrap my towel around my waist and walk back into the room to look around for my things.
My phone vibrates on my side table.
April
I pick it up.
âHi.â
âHowâs my man this morning?â
âGood morning, Miss Bennet. Where are you?â I ask.
âIn bed.â
I smile as I walk into the wardrobe to retrieve my suit. âI wish I was there. My bed was lonely without you.â
âMine, too,â she purrs sexily. âWhat happened to you last night? I thought you were calling me when you got back to the hotel.â
Huh?
âWaitâ¦â I frown. âDid I speak to you last night?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âItâs the weirdest thing, I canât recall anything.â I take the coat hanger with my suit on it and lay it out on the bed.â
âYou called me three times. How much did you drink?â she asks.
Three times! What?
I search my mind for some kind of memory. âI donât remember speaking to you at all.â
âWhat?â she asks.
âDid I sound drunk?â
âNo, but you were very lovey dovey.â
âDefine lovey dovey.â
âTelling me how much you missed me and stuff. You were as cute as. It made me miss you more.â
I screw up my face. Cute as is not my style.
I stay silent of a moment as I try to reconcile last night. No⦠nothing. I change the subject. âWhat are you doing today?â
âI have to go into the office to pick up some files. Iâm going to work from home for the rest of the week. This eye of mine looks horrendous.â
âThatâs a good idea.â
Whereâs my wallet? It must be in my suit trousers from last night. I look around the room and see my suit crumpled on the chair. Fuck, I must have been drunk. I always hang my suit up when I take it off.
âWhatâs on today for you?â she asks.
âNot much. Same shit, different day.â I walk around the room with my phone to my ear. âWe have to find Theodore as a matter of urgency. Apparently, thereâs been a possible sighting in some country town. Who knows if itâs a genuine lead.â I pick up my pants from the floor and feel around the pockets for my wallet. Itâs not there.
âI canât wait for the weekend. What do you think the dress code will be for the wedding?â she asks.
Whereâs my fucking wallet?
âI donât know. Itâll be hot, so something cool, I imagine.â I continue to look around. âYour birthday suit works for me.â
She chuckles, and I smile. I pick up my suit coat and feel around. I locate my wallet in the inside coat pocket. I pick up my white shirt from the floor, and my stomach drops as I stare at it.
Red lipstick is smeared across the collar.
What the fuck is that?
April chats away as the room begins to spin. I look around in a panic.
What happened here last night?
My eyes go to the coffee table, and I see a silver wine chiller with an empty bottle of champagne sitting in it. There are two glasses beside itâone still half-filled with a champagne. Two glassesâ¦
My stomach drops.
âSeb?â April asks, and by the tone of her voice, I can tell sheâs asked me a question.
âSorry, what did you say? I couldnât hear you.â
I drag my hand through my hair as I walk over to the bed in a panic. With my phone to my ear, I angrily toss back the blankets to inspect the sheets.
âI just said that I canât wait to see you,â April whispers huskily.
I close my eyes. âMe, too. Listen, babe, I have to go. Iâm running late.â
âOkay, have a nice day.â
My heart beats hard and fast. This canât be happening.
âLove you.â
I screw up my face. Donât.
âYou, too.â
I hang up in a rush and pick up the pillow to smell it. The strong scent of perfume cements the evidence, and I throw the pillow against the wall in disgust.
What the fuck did I do?