Sometime after dark, I pulled on a black Lycra bodysuit. The thing clung to every inch of me, showing off every curve and dimple. I slicked my short hair back and fit the mask across the top half of my face.
Downstairs, Batman, Robin, and the Joker waited for me.
I eyed Vaughn in his Robin costume. âYou look hot.â
He scowled, like I hadnât been one-hundred-percent serious. âI look like a joke.â
Fang elbowed him. âCanât all be Batman.â
âSays Batman,â Vaughn grumbled.
Kian grinned, his teeth extra white beneath face paint. âHey, I said we could swap and you could be the Joker. You didnât want to put the face paint on!â
âI just got a facial, Kian!â
Me, Kian, and Fang all stared at him. Simultaneously, we all burst into laughter. Laughter that turned into hysterics, until I was glad I wasnât wearing makeup because tears streamed down my face from laughing so hard.
Some of it was nerves, and I was grateful to get them out now. We were all on edge, but teasing Vaughn for his upper-class upbringing and expensive taste was always good for some light relief.
Eventually, even Vaughn laughed. âI was joking by the way.â
Kian snorted. âYou werenât, but thatâs fine. I so enjoy when your hoity-toity side comes out to play.â He turned to me and Fang. âDo you think thereâll be little cucumber sandwiches cuts into triangles for Vaughnâs sensitive palate at this party? Or should we pack him a lunch box?â
I covered my mouth to hide my smile, while Fang pressed his lips tight to keep it together.
Vaughn shook his fatherâs car keys in our direction. âIf weâre finished making fun of me, can we get going? Weâre already late.â
âParty donât start âtil I walk in,â I announced, grabbing my purse from the hallway table.
Fang frowned disapprovingly at me. âYouâre incognito tonight, Pix. Donât draw attention to yourself.â
âWhen do I ever?â
All three of them stared at me, and I waved them off.
âStop.â
âHeâs right.â Kian crossed his arms over his chest. âDonât get carried away.â
âIâll be fine.â
Even Vaughn looked like a stern principal, telling off a naughty schoolgirl. âYou might not be. We should have a code in case you need to bail.â
âOr I could just say, letâs bail?â
He shrugged. âThat, or pull your ear three times.â
âI think youâre taking your Robin costume too seriously. I get it. We donât need no superheroes tonight. Weâre just observing. But that goes for all of you too. If Iâm worried about anyone drawing a crowd, itâs you guys.â
Kianâs gaze rolled over my catsuit-clad body. âWe arenât the ones dressed all in Lycra.â He glanced at Fang and Vaughnâs Lycra tights. âWell, at least not all of us. Those two might draw some stares too.â
Vaughn groaned, clearly grumpy about the entire thing, from being stuck as Robin right through to having to wear tights. âCan we please get this show on the road? The sooner weâre all back home safe and sound and out of wedgie pants, the better.â
I strode for the door. âCouldnât agree more. Letâs go.â
We piled into Vaughnâs car, and he traversed the streets of Providence, most of the houses all decorated for the holiday. In Saint View, we didnât bother, because people just stole stuff right off your lawn. But Providence was like a scary funhouse tonight, with skulls and witches and ghouls all out on the town, ready to party. It was nearing eleven, and the streets had cleared of trick-or-treaters, but the adults had come out to play.
As we drove into Calebâs neighborhood, a growing sense of unease settled over me. His entire street was lined with expensive cars. There were clearly a lot of people at this party. I wasnât sure if that was good or bad for us, and I wondered if the guys were trying to work it out too. All four of us in the car lapsed into silence when an obnoxious Lamborghini pulled up in the driveway and Caleb got out.
Every muscle in my body was stiff, watching him stroll to the front door and letting himself in.
Kian broke the silence. âSticking together as a group might not be possible,â he said softly. âNot if we want to watch all three of them. But at least one of us is with Rebel at all times.â
I opened my mouth to complain and shut it again when he glared at me.
âDonât even think about it. You are not ready to take them on yet.â
It drove me nuts that he was right, but he was.
He softened when he saw the expression on my face. âNot yet, but soon, Little Demon. You need time.â
I nodded. Seeing Caleb, even from a distance, had reminded me we were playing with fire.
âGood, weâve got that all agreed on,â Vaughn murmured. âBecause Iâm parking the car up here. Weâll have to walk the rest of the way in.â
Fang looked to me, a question in his eyes. âLast chance, Pix. We can still turn around.â
But I shook my head. I needed to do this. Needed to see the place where it had happened.
I got out of the car, slamming the door shut behind me, knowing theyâd all follow.
They surrounded me. Kian to my left. Vaughn on my right. Fang at my back. Their strides fell in time with mine as we strode toward the house from my nightmares. All of us marching into a war I couldnât escape from. Not until I could end it myself.
A short line of people waited at the side gate where a bouncer stood guard. It was clearly the way in, so we joined the tail end. I fidgeted with my purse, straining to see around the group in front of us. The bouncer let a couple of guys in but then stopped a man and a woman.
The bouncer handed the man a form on a clipboard and a pen. âSign this.â
âWhat is it?â
âDisclaimer for the event.â
The guy skimmed through the three pages of text, flipping the pages up while he squinted at the small writing in the dark. âThis so we donât sue?â
The bouncer didnât answer. âYou need to hand your phones over too. Thereâs no recording allowed.â
The guy signed it without reading anything, put their phones in a big bucket that was already half full with other peopleâs property, and the couple were let in.
âNo phones?â Kian muttered. âWhat the hell?â
There was no way for the guys to hide theirs. They literally had their phones and wallets in their hands because their costumes didnât come with pockets.
âDonât worry about it,â I said beneath my breath. âJust go along with whatever he says.â I reached inside my purse and slipped my phone into a hole in the lining, obscuring it from view.
The group of guys in front of me passed no problem, but the bouncer put his hand up in front of us.
He looked at me with a sneer. âWhoâs responsible for the slut?â
My mouth dropped open. âExcuse me?â
There was a titter of laughter from behind me, and I spun around to glare at whoever it was. All I could see was Fangâs broad chest though, which practically vibrated with anger.
It was so bad I had to put a hand over his heart to calm him.
He settled into something that was a little closer to a purr.
Vaughn cleared his throat. âWhatâs your problem, bro? Caleb said I could bring my girl.â
The bouncer thrust a clipboard at Vaughn. âSign then, if sheâs yours.â
Vaughn glanced at me.
I wasnât impressed, but I nodded. We hadnât come all this way for nothing. I wasnât turning back now.
Vaughn read the text, explaining it as he went. âItâs a lot of legal mumbo jumbo about staying out of areas marked do not disturb, security cameras are in use, as well as âdonât sue if you get injuredâ sort of statements⦠Fucking hell, three pages? What is all this?â
I shifted my weight from foot to foot. âJust sign it. People are staring.â It was either that or turn around and leave. That would feel like running away, and Caleb would win again.
Vaughn glanced up and found a small crowd gathered behind us.
âHurry up, bro,â someone called. âHalloween doesnât last all month. We only got tonight.â
The bodyguard huffed out an impatient sigh. âShe ainât coming in unless you sign it. So sign or say goodbye.â
For a moment, I thought Vaughn was going to refuse. But eventually, he signed the paper and thrust it back to the guy. âThere. Happy?â
âKeep running your mouth and Iâll be real happy to toss you out on your ass. Phones.â
The guys reluctantly put theirs into the bucket.
âI didnât bring one,â I announced. I held out my open purse, careful to keep the hole closed with my finger. âNothing in here but my wallet, keys, and some tampons.â
The guy poked a finger at my things, and I held my breath, praying he wouldnât notice the phone sitting in the bottom of the bag, obscured by the black liner.
A muscle ticked in Vaughnâs jaw as his fingers clenched into fists. âDonât touch her shit, bro. Didnât your mother to teach you to look with your eyes, not your fingers?â
The bouncer glanced up from my purse. âWhat did you say?â
I could see exactly where this was headed. Into a fight before weâd even stepped foot inside. I grabbed Vaughnâs hand and squeezed it. âLetâs go.â
He looked down in surprise at my fingers wrapped around his, but he followed me through the gates, the other two guys close at our heels.
âI donât like this,â Fang muttered.
I tried to make light of the fact that my gut was screaming to get out of here too. âItâs just a party.â
âA really fucking big one. I forgot how you rich people do this.â Kian let out a low, impressed whistle.
I was sure my eyes were big too. âIs this what your parties were like in high school, Vaughn?â
He wandered toward the pool, lit up with lights. Around the edges, people sat or stood around in groups, some dancing to the music pouring out over the speakers.
âI donât know this many people.â
There were a lot of people there for a backyard party, but then most people didnât have backyards the size of small countries. Everywhere I turned, there were bodies moving around, laughing, talking. Everyone had costumes. Some simple like Dracula capes and fangs, some more elaborate like a guy in a Viking costume, his hair braided into intricate strands.
But one thing stood out most. âWhere are all the women?â
Fang gazed around, his eyes narrowing on the handful who were all outnumbered twenty to one. He stepped in closer. âNowhere alone, Pix.â
I normally would have sassed him and told him no man controlled me.
But this was weird. The vibe wasnât right. I tried to catch the gazes of the other women, but none of them looked my way. But none seemed particularly bothered to be in the minority either. A couple seemed to be loving it, flirting and chatting away with the guys who surrounded them.
âMaybe weâre overthinking it. Maybe Caleb just has no friends who are women.â
âThat checks,â Vaughn mumbled. âHe got laid a lot in college âcause heâs a pretty boy, but none of the girls liked him much once they got to know him. He never had a girlfriend last long.â
Until Bliss. I blamed her previous shitty self-esteem for her making such a bad choice in being with Caleb. Thank God sheâd found herself and kicked Caleb to the curb.
Shame Iâd also fallen for his charms.
I spotted Hugh holding court on a pool lounger and shuddered. His pockmarked face starred in my nightmares, right alongside Calebâs and Leonnâs. Iâd never forget it. Iâd probably have nightmares as long as I lived, while he just got to sit there like royalty, enjoying himself without a care in the world.
âThatâs him, isnât it?â Fang asked in a voice barely above a whisper. âThe third guy.â
Vaughn nodded for me, because I was too busy trying to keep myself calm.
How could someone be so cruel and then just go on with their life, like nothing had even happened? Why did he get to do that while I suffered every damn day?
âVaughn,â I croaked out. âYou know them. Go sit with them. Get him drunk. Let him talk. Find out anything you can about him. I want to know all his weak spots.â
So I could use each and every one to torture him.
Vaughn hesitated, but I begged him with big eyes. âPlease. I need to know who they are. Where they work. If they have families. Who theyâre friends with. Their strengths. Their weaknesses.â There was a crack in my voice as I begged. âKnowledge is power, right?â I swallowed thickly. âI have so little power left. I just need somethingâ¦â
To my surprise, Vaughn put his arm around my neck and drew me in, kissing the top of my head.
When I gazed up at him, questions in my eyes, he jerked his head over at the bodyguard.
âHe was watching, and I said you were my girl. Need to make it seem real, right?â
Oh.
I stepped out of his embrace, and he headed over to Hugh and some other guys.
Kian watched him go, tension across his entire frame. Eventually, he turned away. âI need a fucking drink. This party is too much.â
Weâd barely been here ten minutes, but I couldnât agree more.
âThereâs a guy from my gym over by the drink table. Iâll go say hi and get us something.â He looked to Fang. âYou got her?â
âAlways.â
Maybe it was the party and the vague sense of danger I felt in the air, but Iâd never been happier to hear someone say they had my back. I made a circular motion with my finger. âWeâre going to do a lap. Weâll be back by the time you finish talking to your friend.â
Kian nodded. âRebelâ¦â
âYeah?â I gazed up into his warm eyes.
âJust be careful, okay? The worst thing you can do as a fighter is get cocky and underestimate your opponent.â
I didnât think I was underestimating Caleb. I knew exactly what he was capable of. The bruises might have faded, but Iâd carry the scars always.
Fang and I left Kian and wandered toward the house, but we were stopped by black-and-yellow warning tape that had the back doors closed off. A printed sign pointed partygoers toward the pool house bathroom, but it was clear they didnât want anyone in the house itself.
Fang gazed down at me. âIâm assuming the tape isnât going to persuade you to leave it be?â
âYou know me so well.â I glanced around, making sure no one was paying any attention, then ducked beneath it.
Fang grumbled, but he followed. We stuck to the shadows and moved quickly to the back door, but I didnât think anyone was really paying us any attention. The party was very much all in the other direction.
I pulled on sliding glass door and swore softly when it was locked. âShit.â
âMove over. These things are stupidly easy to break into.â
I stepped aside and raised an impressed eyebrow when Fang gave the door a sharp upward tug that had it sliding open.
âI didnât know you were so adept at breaking and entering.â
âComes in handy from time to time. Get inside before someone notices.â
The house was dark inside, no lights on, which worked in our favor. No one would notice our shadows lurking around inside. The kitchen countertop and dining room table showed the aftermath of party setup. They were strewn with empty boxes and discarded wrappers, scissors, tape, and balloons. Down the hall was a door that probably led down to the basement. It had a slide lock, firmly in place, but no padlock to keep it secured.
Fang pointed at it. âThink Caleb wants to keep his fine china and childhood figure skating trophies safe from the drunks?â he asked beneath his breath. âHate to break it to him, but that thing ainât keeping anyone out without a padlock. At least not from this side.â
I sniggered, moving past the door with a mental note to come back to it later once weâd made sure no one else was in the house. âHe seems like the type to be a figure skater, doesnât he? I bet he did it professionally with sequined shirts and the whole shebang.â
It lightened the mood just enough that walking into the living room by the front door took me by surprise. I hadnât expected it, disoriented from entering the property from the back.
I froze to the spot, dropping my purse on the floor when my fingers werenât strong enough to hold it, and stared at the room where three men had destroyed me in a matter of hours.
âPix?â
I couldnât talk. All I could do was stare as that night played over and over in my head. Weâd come through the front door. Caleb had been kissing me, and at first it had been fun. He was hot, and weâd had chemistry.
Then his friends had arrived, and Iâd realized who he truly was. Not the cute real-estate salesman heâd led me to believe.
But my new best friendâs abusive ex. Hell-bent on hurting her by hurting me.
Or maybe he just got off on hurting women in general and I was just convenient since Iâd been stupid enough to let him drive me right into his web of lies.
I couldnât forget his voice. It taunted me. Echoing around the empty room like he was right there in it.
Tears rolled down my cheeks. Tears for my best friend. Tears for the woman Iâd been before. Tears for every woman whoâd ever had a Caleb in her life. I took off my mask to wipe my eyes, and Fang engulfed me in his arms.
He lifted his mask so I could see his face. âI love you, Pix,â he whispered. âI hate seeing you like this.â
I blinked up at him, mouth dropping open in shock. âYouâ¦what?â
His eyes were kind as he stared down at me. âYou know I do. I always have.â
A sob hurtled up my throat and exploded past my lips. I dug my fingers into his shirt and cried on his chest, too overwhelmed to say anything, though I knew what I wanted to say in my heart. My tongue just couldnât form the words. Not here. Not in this house where too many other memories tainted the words I wanted to say.
All of a sudden, I didnât know why I was doing any of this. I couldnât remember one good reason for wanting to come here, to this place, and relive that night. Iâd thought Iâd needed it.
But maybe I just needed him.
Fang was enough to exorcise my demons. At least for tonight.
I pulled back. âCan we go somewhere? Just you and me. Iâ¦I donât want to be here anymore.â
He gave a curt nod. âOf course. Iâll getââ
The front door flew open, a man entering with a six-pack of beer in one hand and a shopping bag in the other. âCaleb! I got the stuff. Letâs lock these doors and get the party started.â
The open door let in enough light from the street that Fang and I were like deer caught in headlights.
Leonnâs gaze stopped on mine, and his eyes went wide. âYouâreâ¦â His gaze flickered to Fang. âOh, fuck. Caleb!â
Leonnâs bellow rattled through the quiet house. Panic speared through me. Weâd both taken our masks off.
Shit.
Fang thought faster than I did. In a second, he had Leonn shoved up against the wall, a hand over his fat lips.
âShut your mouth,â he hissed, low and deadly. âSo help me fucking God, you utter one more sound, and Iâll take great pleasure in snapping your neck right here.â
I grabbed his sleeve, knowing he was fully capable of carrying out the threat. âYou canât! Thereâs two hundred people out there in the yard! Those papers Vaughn signed said there were security camerasâ¦â I looked around the room wildly and didnât see anything, but that didnât mean they werenât there. âWhat if thereâs some in here?â
Fang leaned on Leonnâs fat neck, glancing around the same way I was before his blue-eyed gaze finally came to rest on mine. âWhat do you want, Pix? We gotta decide now. We let him go, and heâs running straight out there to tell Caleb weâre here. Game over.â
Leonn tried shaking his head, like he wouldnât do exactly that if Fang released him.
I laughed in his face. âAs if weâd believe you.â I tried to think, but my mind was a whirlwind. I had him here. One of my enemies. It was exactly what Iâd wanted. But I wasnât ready. I wasnât prepared. This wasnât how this was supposed to go down. I didnât just want to kill him.
I wanted to make it hurt.
I wanted him scared and begging, just the way I had.
The walls suddenly felt like they were closing in. I needed to get out. I stuck my head out the front door and glanced over at the gates where weâd come in. There was no one there. The gates had been locked with a shiny silver padlock, the bouncer gone.
Why the fuck were the gates locked?
So no one could get in?
Or so no one could get out?
A sinking feeling in my stomach threatened to take over and cloud my brain with confusion, but I pushed it all away. âGet him out here.â On the ground in front of me lay a coil of rope, holding down an inflatable skeleton. I knelt and frantically untied it, not caring if the skeleton floated away in the breeze.
I held it up triumphantly to Fang, and he yanked Leonn off the wall.
âWhatâs your plan here, Pix?â Fang asked in a hushed whisper as I wrapped the rope around Leonnâs wrists as tight as I could.
âI donât know,â I admitted, adrenaline pumping through me, but not having the desired effect of sharpening my mind. âI really have no idea. Tie him up, put him up the side of the house for someone to find later after weâre long gone.â
Fang ground his molars. âThatâs not much of a plan.â
âI know!â I glanced around frantically. This wasnât the way it was supposed to happen. We were just supposed to observe tonight. âYou got anything better?â
âShove him in the car and kill him?â
Leonn barely even reacted. It was like heâd already accepted his defeat. He just stood there silently, not even struggling.
It sent an anger raging through me Iâd only ever felt one other night. I shoved him in the chest. âWhy arenât you scared?â
He mumbled something behind Fangâs hand that I couldnât make out. Fang pulled his hand away to let him talk with a glare that clearly said, âyou scream, and Iâll end you.â
Leonnâs eyes looked dead. Any spark in them completely extinguished. âI deserve to die.â
I ground my molars, trying to decide what to do. Eventually, I shook my head hard. âYou do. But not like this. This is too easy.â
Fang held him while I got real close, right up in the face of one of the men whoâd hurt me.
âIâm coming for you. Just know that. You wonât know when. You wonât know how. But one day soon, youâll know true fear.â
âJust kill me,â he begged.
âNot a fucking chance,â I growled in his face, the words practically demonic.
Rage coursed through me. I hated this man. Hated him with everything I had inside me, and that hate had nowhere to go. I ripped off Fangâs cape and shoved it in Leonnâs mouth, muffling his pitiful cries. âTie him up. Leave him around the side of the house. Kneecap him if you have to, I donât care. Just make it so he canât let anyone else know weâre here until weâre gone.â
Fang, ever faithful, did exactly what Iâd asked. He hauled Leonn through the maze of decorations without a single question.
I turned and ran back for the door.
âWhere are you going?â Fang hissed from the edge of the building.
âI need to get my purse. Shit. And Kian and Vaughn. We canât even call them. Theyâre locked in there.â
Leonn struggled in Fangâs arms, apparently more scared of a kneecapping than he was of outright dying. He clearly didnât like pain. Maybe that came from being a doctor and seeing so many people in so much of it. I stored that tidbit away for future reference.
âJust leave it!â Fang manhandled Leonn a few more steps, turning his attention to him. âFucking hell, youâre scared of a little kneecapping? After what you did to her? You piece of cowardly shit. I should rape you and see how you fucking like it.â
Though I knew he was on my side, I couldnât stand there listening to it. I couldnât hear the word rape without wanting to shrivel up and die. I couldnât go back there. To those dark days afterward where Iâd lain in my bed in the fetal position and thought about ending it all.
I ran back inside the dark house, swinging the door shut behind me in case anyone else tried coming through this entrance. The locks clicked as they reengaged, which might have been a good thing. At least it would stop Fang from following me back inside. The quicker we all got out of here, the better.
In the living room, I grabbed my purse from the floor and kept going, striding back the way weâd come, the sounds of the party outside getting louder with every step. I reached the glass doors, the party beyond.
Caleb stood on the other side.
His costume a white knight, which was about as ironic as you could possibly get. Even when he was in profile and dressed all in white, I could have sworn I could see the evil in his eye. He talked with a friend, his squinty eyes calculating the entire time.
I couldnât afford to freeze again.
I had my mask back on, but I couldnât walk straight past Caleb.
Something in me knew heâd know, and I had none of the guys here to back me up.
Without them, I didnât trust myself. I was scared Iâd revert to the weak pathetic mess, lying on the floor of the living room while men attacked me. While they put their hands on my body. While they broke my spirit.
Caleb shifted in my direction, and I spun on my heel, blindly turning away so he wouldnât spot me. I hurried down the hall, and as the glass doors opened, his evil laugh floated through.
It sent chills down my spine.
I ran.
But his voice followed, casual enough I was sure he hadnât seen me, but that wouldnât last if I just stood there like a stunned mullet. And I couldnât go back the way Iâd come, Iâd have to walk straight past him while he moved around the kitchen, clinking bottles as he went.
There was nowhere to go. No escape except the locked door that led to the basement.
He wouldnât go down there, surely. Heâd get his drinks or food and then heâd return to his guests. I just needed somewhere to hide until he went back outside and then I could creep back up, find the guys, and get the hell out of here.
A second voice joined him in the kitchen, the two of them mumbling something I couldnât quite hear. Was it Hugh? I couldnât be sure. I was too scared to truly listen in case it was, and I was trapped in here with two of my attackers. Their voices seemed too loud, and I was a sitting duck. Fear wrapped its way around my throat, squeezing until I slid the lock to the side and slipped past the door, closing it quietly behind me.
I stood there in the darkness, breathing heavy.
But their voices kept coming. Louder with every second.
I slunk down the stairs, fumbling along the walls for a light switch but then realizing I couldnât just turn a light on. I edged my way around the room, searching the walls and floor for anything I could use to protect myself.
But there was nowhere to hide. It was like the room was completely empty.
Calebâs voice kept coming. Closer with every step. Talking to another man, but terror pounded in my ears, drowning out the exact words. I stared up the stairs at the door, convinced Iâd made a terrible mistake.
They were coming down here. At any moment, the door would open, the light would turn on, and Iâd be caught.
Behind me, the solid wall changed, and hope reared inside me.
A doorframe. The door. A handle.
It gave way when I put pressure on it, and I stumbled into the room. It was still pitch-black, but for the briefest of moments, I dared to flick on the light.
A simple bathroom, with only a toilet and a sink for handwashing.
I shut the door as quietly as I could and turned the light back off, breathing hard. I pressed my ear to the door, desperate to know where he was, but I couldnât tell. My breaths were too loud. A ringing in my ears piercing.
But he was out there. I knew it.
Stalking me like I was prey.
I was trapped.
Again.