I have reached Shyla's room at the pack house not too long ago. The twins were asleep on her bed with all of Shyla's decoration pillows packed around them so they don't roll off of the bed.
I was sulking on the love seat that she has in her room. I know I said that we should take a break from us, but it still hurts. I miss him so much, not to mention that Sapphire is basically ignoring me for splitting her from Max.
She just needs to understand why I'm doing this. Blake yet again chose everything else above me. So I'm making him see what life without me is like, to make him feel what he felt those months when I was gone, when I was in Florida.
Why can't he just realize that having your soulmate is far worth more than any stupid title that you can get. I don't want to do the acceptance trials because I want the Luna title. I could care less about that.
Babies get accepted automatically into any pack they enter. I think it would be fucking cruel to have acceptance trials for babies, what are they going to do? See if the baby, toddler or children behave before they are accepted as part of the pack? That would be fucked up.
So Nova and Nevaeh are already a part of this pack, no matter what. I on the other hand have to walk around here like a rouge because I don't belong to any pack now.
The looks I received from a lot of the pack members while I was on my way to the pack house is actually haunting. They can smell their Alpha on me, so they know not to attack me, but their looks said everything. They wanted to rip me to pieces.
This pack is actually very brutal. How did I not realize this before? Right, I was too busy being abused and being the pack omega to realize.
Without realizing a tear rolled down my cheek. Then another, followed with another one and before I knew it I was full on sobbing.
"Oh Soph, everything is going to be ok. I'll help you to take care of the twins. This auntie never minds to spend time with them." Shyla said sitting next to me and rubbing my back.
" How about you go and take a relaxing bath? Get all the stress out of your system? Forget about the things that happened today and just relax." She suggested.
"I don't know Shy, I really want answers on what Blake and our wolves aren't telling me" I said. I'm not letting this go until I know what is going on.
I look back at Shyla and she averts her eyes from me and looks really guilty. Oh this bitch knows something. What the hell? What is really going on?
"Shyla... What are you not telling me?" I pushed her knowing she knows.
Shyla shakes her head and looks away again trying to look busy with the bag for the twins. She is really bad at keeping secrets, especially when it has something to do with me. She is a gossip girl, she always share new gossip with me.
"Shy... I know you know something. I can see it's eating you up from the inside. I know you want to tell me. After all I am your gossip buddy, you basically are my gossip queen. You have to spill the beans sometime or another. So why not spare yourself the stress and just tell me?" I teased her, knowing she'll give in to the pressure.
She looked as if she was about to cry. She squeals and then she just spills over with gossip, it's not necessarily the things that I want to hear but after a few minutes of spilling all the gossip the one topic that interested me came to light.
"It's all just too much bottling it up inside, it needs to come out. It's all this pack gossip and the fact that the alpha is planning to give you a special surprise acceptance trial and Luna trial..." she trailed off realizing that she has shared too much.
I gasp, what does she mean by that? Special acceptance trial and Luna trial, as far as I know you have to fight to be a part of this pack if you can beat the strongest warriors given to fight against you.
"What does that mean? What is Blake doing? What special trials?" I bombard her with question.
"NO!! My lips are sealed from now on, I have said too much already." She says, hastily shaking her head as she crosses her arms.
Mmm fine, I have pushed too much already. I guess it isn't that bad to wait and see what the surprise is. I will just have to keep myself and my mind occupied with other things, to keep myself from thinking of what the surprise special acceptance trial could be.
As the day goes on Shyla and I spend the day with the twins in her room, watching movies of every genre. Shyla of course, with the way that she is with the twins, has taken close to five hundred photos of them.
They range from photos of them sleeping, drinking their bottles, tummy time or just when we are simply playing with them. Every time that I have noticed she has snatched a photo. She can be too much some days but she is amazing. I couldn't have asked the moon goddess for a better best friend.
The next day we decided to go to the lake that is close to the pack house to spend the day there with the twins. Katherine also phoned to ask if she and Henry could have lunch tomorrow with me and the twins.
As we were packing things to take with to the lake, one of Blake's warriors announced himself and said that he was sent by Blake to guard the three of us for when we want to go somewhere outside of the pack house or Blake's house.
I quickly left the room, leaving the guard in the room with Shyla and the twins. I quickly darted into one of the empty meeting halls and dialed Blake's number.
It rang once, then twice, then another ring and no answer. I waited for him to answer the call, but it went to voicemail. I tried again and then another time, still no answer.
I was starting to get irritated with this situation. He leaves without even saying goodbye, which I know is probably my fault, but he could've still come by and at least say goodbye to his kids.
Men can be so frustrating. Just when I was about to give up and go back to the twins, my phone starts ringing. Caller ID reads Blake. I answered by the second ring.
"Hello?" I greeted very quietly and very shyly.
"Sophia, is everything okay? " he says, his voice laced with worry.
"Yeah, everything is fine. The twins misses you very much." I tell him, hoping he doesn't realize that it is actually me that misses him a lot.
"Yeah?" I hear him say, you can hear the smirk in his tone. I rolled my eyes at his cockiness. "Well I miss them too, and I miss you too... So much baby. I'm sorry I didn't come to say goodbye to you, I thought to give you your space. I shouldn't have ignored you like that. I am really sorry Soph." He says sounding very guilty.
"It's okay, I just wish you would've said goodbye. I think we left things on the wrong foot. I...I..." I struggled to get the words out. I want him to know how much I care about him and how much I love him, but I have no idea how to put it in words.
"Soph, you don't have to say anything further, I know what you mean, remember I can still hear your thoughts if your guard is down, and it is right now" he says making me blush.
"Speaking of guard, is the guard you set upon us really necessary? I mean our pack is the safest place for all werewolves." I ask not noticing when I called the pack ours.
"Joe is very necessary. he will keep my little family safe and report back to me if there is any suspicious activity around the pack." He says with a little chuckle, maybe he didn't notice me calling the pack ours. "Oh and Soph, I love it that yo call the pack ours and not just my pack. It assures me that you are settling in very well." He added. Damnit he did hear.
I blush and just keep quiet, after a few seconds he spoke again, "Soph, I really do miss you. I have some bad news though. I have to be here longer than just three days..." he trails off.
My heart drops as soon as he says that he will be away for longer than expected. "What? For how long are you going to be gone for?" I asked with a shaky tone.
I don't know if I can stay away from him for this long, I know we fight but I still love this man with my whole being and I don't actually want to be spending this much time being alone.
"These warriors know absolutely nothing about fighting and being in battle. They will need more than just three days of training from us, I think a week will even not be enough, but we can only be here for this long. Our pack will need me back eventually given how much rogue attacks we have been having." he says.
"Can't the twins and I come and stay with you then for this time being? I ,mean that way Joe won't have to stand guard close to me and the twins everyday and we'll still get to see each other and spend time together. There are still a few things that we have to talk about as well. You know we haven't left things on a good foot between us before you left. It's only a few hours drive to that pack, the twins made it on a longer trip on the road so they will be perfectly fine." I suggested, hoping he would say yes.
"You know I can't let you do that Soph. It is way too dangerous, I have seen the amount of rogues in 'no mans land' between our pack and this pack. You guys could be attacked within seconds and I won't be able to live with that because my whole life will be in that car. And before you put in another suggestion, no Joe cannot drive you here, it's too dangerous. I know a week feels like a long time but you and Shyla can go back to ours and just have a long girls week with the twins." he says sternly. I knew it was a long shot to even suggest that, but it was worth the try.
"Fine, but you better call me with every spare minute that you have and facetime me as well, the twins would also like to see their daddy. Just be safe out there and I love you very much Blake, don't you ever forget that." I tell him, not wanting to say goodbye but I know he has to go do his alpha duties and be a good man.
"I promise that I will call you and the twins, I'm gonna miss you guys so much, I love you very much too Soph. I gotta go, training awaits and all that fun things. I'll talk to you soon okay?" he says. We say our goodbyes and dropped the call.
As soon as the phone call died the tears were streaming down my face. I have a bad feeling about this, about him being there and staying there for that long period of time, and not because I think he will cheat on me, but for the simple reason that I feel deep down in my gut that something bad is going to happen either there where he is or an attack on our pack while our alpha and some warriors are not around.
Yes, I know what you are thinking. Didn't they leave the strongest warriors with their pack so that it can stand a chance to survive a rogue attack if one was to happen? And the answer is ys, some of our strongest pack warriors are still here, but any pack is stronger during an attack when the Alpha and Luna is present and leading the warriors into the fight. That is why smaller packs are targeted first. But if word got out that Blake, our third in command and a great majority of our warriors are not on the pack grounds, our pack will not survive the attack.
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Hi guys
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First post in a year, I needed to take a little break and sort some things out, but I am back now with hopefully two updates every week if not more. I will be pushing to get this book done before the end of this year.
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