I hate myself. One of my closest friend's has depression, and sometimes we talk about it over text. Some days she'll ask me random question, and one was basically why do girls have to wear makeup to be pretty. We talked about for a while, and she eventually called me a "goddess even without makeup"
Now I wonder why she said I was a goddess, because I am one of the ugliest girls on earth inside and out. I'm a bully to my siblings, way to sarcastic to my friends, and sometimes I feel like I should just kill myself and make life easier. I have seriously thought about it, but can't truly bring myself to it because my friend has a friend who has serious depression and has attempted suicide 5 times.
I'm scared for my life because of this little worm of depression crawling around my brain, and am worried about what might happen to me if I let it grow.