Confession

Idk how to do anon but my secret is I weigh like 190 something everyone thinks that I weigh less than that they call me skinny and not as fat as I think I have an eating disorder I've always struggled with bulimia since I was 8 I've been clean for 2 years then I recently relapsed I've been taking laxitives and not eating but I still feel disgusted with my self even the guys who pick me up say I'm not heavy or fat but I just don't see it also I'm 5'11