A week before Graduation, everyday busy ang mga graduates sa paggawa ng letter to their parents, to their teachers, friends, enemies etc.
Pumunta ako sa supply room to buy some stationeries, I was with Darlene, Joy and Dave. I wanted to write to people who are very special to me kaya gusto ko special din yung paper.
Ofcourse, It's the end of the school year and our last year na sa school.
That year was so emotional for all of us, lalong lalo na sa aming apat.
To Darlene, Joy and Dave, wherever you are now, I just want you to know that I really miss you all, those times when we are so young, we are so happy and free.
If you are able to read this story, please remember the times we had, those times na wala pa tayong malay sa mundo at walang ideya na heto na tayo ngayon, hindi na nagkikita, hindi na nakakapagkwento sa isa't isa. Na ganito pala kalungkot ang realidad pag nasa adulting stage kana. Let's go back to those times when we tell stories 24 hours a day, laugh and cry for each other.
Going back, bumalik na nga kami sa room to write.
There, nadatnan namin si Ma'am Toviera, announcing na magsulat daw kami ng kahit anong message sa room, pwede sa wall, sa board, sa mga chairs, pero pencil ang gagamitin para pwede paring burahin at maalis pag lilinisan.
Everyone was so excited, kahit saan pwede ka magsulat ee and kahit sino sa room pwede mong sulatan.
I chose to write messages in different areas para hindi madaling hanapin ng mga susulatan ko
Here are the things I wrote that I remember.
Sa likod ng upuan ni Darlene "Thank you so much bessy for everthing, for being my no. 1 fan during my presentations, being my most protective best friend. No one compares to you my first ever bessy. ILY"
Same message kay Joy and Dave
Sa lowermost left part of the board, I wrote there "Hang in there! I got your back; I wish everything will be alright in time."
I don't know exactly whom I want to dedicate that one but I just want put it there with a smiling emoji as the receiver. (To: ð)
I also write for Mr. Valedictorian sa may door part, " Thank you for making my high school life so colorful, my first ever crush"
As I roam around the room, I tend to read some messages, for their teachers, their friends, their loved ones and I also saw messages for me from my admirers hehe.
I was reading messages doon sa board and then I came across this message "Hai Miss Faye, thank you for building me up when I'm in total mess, I'm sorry for giving you a hard time sometimes but I love you and I will miss you, I'm not expecting for anything between us because we are totally different but I hope you'll be successful and happy in your future life"
I was about to cry pero nakakahiya baka tinitignan ako ng kung sino mang nagsulat nun.
I don't even realized that I built someone pala, wala naman akong ginawa para sa taong yun whoever he/she is.
But my heart was full that time. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, at least may natulungan akong tao kahit hindi ko alam kung paano. I'm so happy that I was smiling the whole day.
Feel ko si Chris yun but I saw him lying down in his arm chair again or maybe diko lang napansin nung nagsulat siya.
I wasn't assuming, pero nararamdaman kong siya yun.
Until dumating na nga ang end of the school year, Gragraduate na kami.
They said, "Don't dream at night, start dreaming when the sun starts to rise"
Pero bakit lagi akong nananaginip sa gabi! At iisa ang napapanaginipan ko, charrr!!
That saying is a reminder that it takes a lot of effort, skills, knowledge and time to reach your dreams, so Aja! Anybody who is dreaming something big, keep grinding and improving, don't waste time learning and growing, It will all worth it in the end. ð
It's the end of our high school years, where dreams, ambitions and aspirations were built and decided,
We are about to enter another chapter of our lives as dreamers, we are about to walk into the path that we decided to go through. We are about to choose our career path.
We may forget each other for a long time, but the memories we had will remain in our hearts, As I wrote this story, I decided to remember everything during the happiest and craziest part of my life, my High School Life.
"Okay class! Please come up on stage and please sing the songs of your heart today, Happy Graduation once again" the emcee said.
I saw my classmates with white gown (toga) everyone was so beautiful and handsome but the most noticeable are the bright smiles of our proud parents who are with us that day.
Habang paakyat kami sa stage I was looking for someone, Khael? Nope, I know he'll be there, He'll be giving us his long speech as the class Valedictorian.
I wanted to see Chris with his toga and shiny shoes with his bright smile that melts me every time he does.
At dahil nga napakadami naming graduates including honor students from lower grade levels, I cannot find him.
As we start to sing "Who am I" by Casting Crowns as our graduation song, the introduction of the music was already making my cry, How I wish I could still see these faces for long. Lalong lalo na si Chris, how I wish I can still see him change himself and reach his dreams.
In my thoughts, "Magkikita pa kaya kami after this night?", "Makakapag-usap pa kaya kahit magiging busy na kami for our courses?". I was really hopeful that time.
"Not because of who I am but because of what you've done, not because of what I've done but because of who you are"
As I was singing emotionally, I saw someone in white gown standing at the back of the audience waving his hand and smiling so brightly, It was Chris! I was trying to call him on stage but he refused and he was just smiling so sweetly and widely while waving his hand on me.
Oh my God! Inlove na talaga ako, napaka genuine ng mga ngiti niya, natutunaw yung puso ko sa tuwa dahil andun siya, napaka ganda ng get up niya, sa kanyang tangkad bagay na bagay yung toga niya lalo na sa kanyang mga buhok na parang kung ihahawig ay kay Vegata, nakataas ang buhok at may nakalugay na kaunting bangs sa kanyang nuo, suot suot ang isang mamahaling relo at black leather shoes na napakakintab.
Hindi na ako maka kanta sa sobrang kilig, pero sa tuwing marerealize kong eto na siguro yung huling araw na makikita ko siya nasasaktan at nalulungkot ako
At dahil nga ang huling lyrics ng kanta ay "I am yours"
Kitang kita ko sa kanyang mga labi ang pagbigkas neto habang nakatingin sa akin at nakangiti.
Nang matapos ang kanta agad agad kaming bumaba from stage, sinalubong niya ako, habang siya'y naglalakad papalapit sa akin, sumasabay sa ihip ng hangin ang kanyang toga, para siyang anghel na naglalakad papalapit sa akin.
"Congrats Aika! Sa wakas graduate na tayo"
At dahil super saya ko, "Yeheey congrats din! Super happy ako para sayo" habang nakahawak sa kanyang mga kamay.
Bigla niyang tinanggal ang aking mga kamay sa pagkakahawak at may tinawag na isang bata mula sa aking likuran, akala ko kamag-anak niya.
May iniabot sa akin na bulaklak yung bata, naaalala ko santan at rosas, red na red yung mga bulaklak. Sabi ko parang pamilyar yung mga bulaklak.
Ah! Yung mga flowers na ibibigay sa mga parents, pero bakit niya binibigay sa akin?
"Faye, thank you sa lahat ha? Sana magkita pa tayo ulit in the future, wag ka muna sana mag-eentertain ng iba at ingatan mo yang sarili mo"
Sa mga oras na yun sa tingin ko mas mapula na mga pisngi ko kumpara sa mga rosas.
"Ikaw din, ayusin mo ang sarili mo ha? Ayusin mo sa college, mag-aral kang mabuti at pagkatapos natin ng kolehiyo magkita ulit tayo, okay ba yun?"
"Deal." Sabay hinawi ang buhok sa aking tenga.
That time, kailangan naming magtago during the conversation kasi makikita ako ng mga parents ko.
After that short conversation, we separated, I saw him taking off his toga and walked away, I didn't see his parents either. I think mag-isa siya at hinintay lang ma confirm kaming graduates bago siya umalis.
Love is really something that makes you realize a lot of things in life. We may be saying goodbye now but at least I got to know him well above all, I was the one who truly knows him, I understood him, I had secrets with him, I took the risk for him. He trusted me, He shared his life with me and I can call that LOVE.
We already have that but it's not the right time yet. That very night I was hoping to see him wherever and whenever God plans to. "I will wait for it".
Everything in my High School life was treasurable, but one that will surely remain in me forever is HIM, Chris, my first love.
"Congratulations once again! Please give those simple gifts of appreciation to your proud parents"
It's the flower-giving time, I have four roses with me, two will be for mama and papa and the other two were from Chris, I wish he could give it to his parents instead of me.
"Mama, Papa Thank you po sa lahat lahat, for raising me so well and for giving me the support I always needed."
In my thoughts I was crying, kabaliktaran talaga sa akin si Chris, I always have my parents with me, but him.. It really saddens me.
Isa dapat yun sa mga pinaka masayang araw ng buhay ko pero bakit ang lungkot ng puso ko.
Is it really love that I'm feeling or just an empathy of someone who's life was a mess, someone who really needs someone who understands him?
That very night, I am still confused about what I feel but what I'm sure about is the connection we have even for a short time.
And that ends my High School life but not the end of my first love story. Hehe