My dinner is a lonely affair. The table is set for one, and when Allegra comes in to serve me roast chicken with fingerling potatoes and grilled asparagus, she doesnât chat the way she normally does. Instead, she shoots me a few apprehensive looks tinged with a hint of condemnation.
I lift my index finger to my lips and gnaw on a nail. By now, the entire household must know what happened earlier, and Iâm getting the sense that going against Giorgioâs wishes is kind of a big deal.
What did he do to Polo? I stood by the window all afternoon trying to catch a glimpse of him returning, but it happened the moment I stepped away to use the bathroom. When I returned, his truck was there, but I didnât see him.
âStop eating yourself, . Thatâs not going to help anything now.â
I drop my hands and fold them on my lap, my gaze jumping to Allegraâs.
She clicks her tongue and gives her head a shake. âThat boy. Heâs gotten himself in a lot of trouble now.â
âIt was my fault as much as his.â
Allegra rounds the table, putting a plate of sauce on the other side of my plate. âYou shouldnât have left, but you wouldnât have been able to go anywhere if Polo didnât take you. I might not know the details of the things Giorgio is involved in, but Iâve never made the mistake of questioning his judgment. If he tells us you are not to leave the property, it means heâs got a good reason for it.â
I drag my teeth over my bottom lip. âWhat is Giorgio going to do to him?â
âI donât know,â she says, widening her arms before dropping them back down to her sides. âBut heâs very angry. I only hope this will be a lesson for Polo not to do something this stupid again.â
She leaves me to my dinner, but I barely taste the food. My mind is preoccupied with my role in this ordeal. I feel guilty for getting Polo into this mess, but I hardly had to convince him to take me.
Itâs almost like he wanted to piss Giorgio off.
The next day, in my eagerness for another self-defense lesson with Giorgio, I head down for our class a little early.
Okay, Iâll admit itâs not so much eagerness for the class as for the man himself. Our encounter in the car yesterday plays on repeat every time I shut my eyes, and with it comes the uncertain sensation of being close to getting what I want.
The truth is, Iâm walking into completely unknown territory with him. Iâve never tried to seduce another man, if you can even call what Iâm doing seduction. Thereâs no rule book for me to follow, so Iâve been relying on instinct alone.
I could be making a fool of myself, like he keeps saying, but the words that come out of his mouth donât match the message Iâm getting from his body. And the promise of what lies on the other side of his resistance is tantalizing enough for me to keep going.
While I stretch in the empty gym, I eye the clock. Our usual time comes and goes, and Giorgio doesnât arrive.
Fifteen minutes pass. Why isnât he here? At breakfast, Allegra told me he wasnât planning on leaving today, so he has to be somewhere in the castello.
Irritation bubbles beneath my skin. Is he just giving up on our classes then?
When the hand of the clock reaches the twenty-minute mark, I go looking for him.
My steps take me directly to the door of his office, and I give it three firm knocks.
The door jerks open to reveal Giorgio. Suit jacket and tie missing, heâs in a crisp white dress shirt and dark-gray pants.
Clearly, he had no intention of training me when he got dressed this morning.
âThese lessons were your idea, and now that Iâm actually starting to enjoy them, you decide to flake out on me?â
Giorgio gives me a blank look before crossing his arms over his chest. âIâm busy right now.â
âAre you? Or are you just avoiding me? And even if you are genuinely busy, have you ever heard of giving people a heads-up? Basic courtesy. Donât they teach you that in Naples?â
Something amused passes over his expression. âYouâre angry.â
âI waited in the gym for you for twenty minutes.â
âIâm sorry, did you have something more important to do?â
My mouth parts. Is he actually being this rude right now?
âFine. If you donât want to work out with me anymore, Iâll work out on my own.â
âI didnât say that. I said Iâm busy . We can resume tomorrow.â
âWhat are you so busy with?â
He leans his shoulder against the doorjamb. âErasing footage of you and Polo from all of the public cameras in the area.â
Oh. My irritation eases a smidge. âAre there many?â
âMore than youâd think.â
âWhat did you do to Polo? I havenât seen him since yesterday.â
Hi gaze darkens, like heâs irritated with me for asking. âHe and I had a conversation. I told him the next time he takes you off the property, heâll lose a finger.â
Blood drains out of my face. âYou did .â
âHe disobeyed me,â he says, his voice taking on an edge. âHe knew there would be consequences, but it seems the two of you have the same problem. You donât know how to respect boundaries.â
The nerve of him. He says it as if he wasnât the first one to trample right over my boundaries. Putting me in the room next to his. Climbing into my bed. Kissing me.
I donât even care anymore that he was still under the influence of that tea when he did it. The tea may have lowered his inhibitions, but he must have been thinking about it for a long time before then. Itâs the hypocrisy that grates on me.
I take a single, purposeful step toward him, my gaze never wavering, and slide my palms up his broad chest. Itâs firm and warm, and my palms look impossibly tiny in comparison. His gaze drops to where Iâm touching him, and that small movement is enough to send tension rippling through the air.
His scent wraps around me, thickening my throat.
This close, thereâs no hiding the acceleration in his heartbeat. His body doesnât lie, even when his mouth does, and that knowledge makes me want to have my hands on him all the time. Then all of his secrets would be mine.
âAm I crossing another boundary right now?â I lean in an inch closer. âWhat are you going to do? Cut finger off?â
The pissed-off heat of his gaze singes my face. He takes my wrists in his hands and tugs me off him, but he doesnât let go. âNo. But if you try this again, I punish you.â
His tone is harsh, but my pulse leaps.
âLiar. You know you canât do anything to me or my brother will kill you. Youâre scared of him, arenât you? Thatâs why youâre so terrified Iâll tell him what you did.â
His eyes flash, and his grip on my wrists tightens until itâs almost painful. âCareful, Martina,â he breathes. âThere are some ways I can punish you that youâd never dare share with your brother.â
âLike what?â
He leans in, and my lungs stop moving. Lips brushing against me ear, he says, âLike bending you over my knee and making your ass so raw you wonât be able to sit for a week.â
My body grows perfectly still, even as my heart nearly leaps out of my chest.
Did I hear him correctly?
He pulls back and takes in the stunned expression on my face. âNow, be a good girl and let me get back to cleaning up your mess. Weâll resume our classes tomorrow.â
I stare at him in shock as he closes the door in my face.
Did he really justâ¦
My poor virgin brain canât take it.
I walk back to my bedroom in a trance and sit on the edge of the bed, staring at nothing in particular.
The thought of him doing that to me is terrifying. Heâs strong and could do some serious damage. But the way he said it⦠The heat in his eyesâ¦
I squeeze my thighs together.
.
Burying my face into the duvet, I let out a groan. To be at his mercy like that is strangely arousing. It makes me think back to how heavy he felt lying on top of me, and the thrill I felt at the idea that I wouldnât be able to get away. Is that normal? Or is there something wrong with me?
Sitting up, I rub my eyes and replay our conversation. How can he say things like that to me while denying that the kiss meant anything? Itâs like heâs addicted to gaslighting me. He probably doesnât even know what that term means, but thatâs exactly what heâs doing.
Deciding to work my frustration out at the gym, I hop off the bed and walk past the closet when a flash of neon green catches my eyes.
My bikini hangs off a coat hanger.
Blistering sun streams through the window, and there wasnât a hint of a breeze when I was in the garden. It might be the warmest day since I arrived here. Perfect for a swim.
I contemplate the bikini for a few seconds, then I grab it off the hanger. After that encounter with Giorgio, I need to cool down, and the pool is the perfect solution.
I change out of my workout clothes into the bikini and grab a silk robe to cover up for my walk over. Itâs not far. Thereâs a side door near the living room that opens right to a short path to the pool.
No one sees me as I slip out of the house. The deck around the pool is empty as always. The only person Iâve ever seen here is Allegra when she tidies it up once a week. I drop my towel on a lounger, then feel out the water temperature by dipping my toes.
Itâs nice and crisp. They must have stopped heating it.
The plants in the big pots scattered artfully around the area are blooming, the flowers attracting hummingbirds. A bee buzzes by my ear before landing on a marigold. I close my eyes and take a moment to listen to all the sounds around me, tuning in to the outside world to ground myself.
When Iâm ready, I untie the belt of my robe and let it drop at my feet. I think Iâll jump. Usually, I canât stand the shock of cold water slamming against my skin, but Iâm feeling bold today.
Iâm about to do it when the hairs on my nape stand straight, and Iâm hit with a certainty that someoneâs watching me.
I whip my head around, looking back at the castello. In the window of the second floor, the one right at the landing, stands Giorgio.
His hands are pressed against either side of the window frame, and his serious gaze is trained on me.
A shiver runs down my spine. Iâd do anything to know what heâs thinking right now.
I glance down at myself, noticing the hard outline of my nipples. Is he enjoying the view? Iâm not an expert, but spying on me while Iâm in my bikini definitely feels like crossing a boundary.
When I look back at him again, he adjusts his stance, and itâs obvious heâs aware Iâve noticed him. And yet he doesnât look away.
Is that all heâs ever going to be willing to give me? Heated looks from a distance?
I turn away from him and shake my head. Damn him and his boundaries. Itâs not fair what heâs doing, how heâs messing with my head.
I think itâs time I give him a taste of his own medicine.
A nervous tremor works up my spine as I reach around my back to the knot of the bikini. My eyes are trained on the surface of the pool, but Iâm hyper aware of Giorgioâs gaze on my skin.
My fingers tangle with the strap, and I give the end a gentle tug, feeling it unravel.
The straps fall. I lift the bikini over my head and drop it to the ground.
Iâm the only one here, but the air grows as hot and dense as it would in a room full of people. My thumbs hook on the sides of my bikini bottoms, and I ignore my heart palpitations and slowly drag them down my legs until theyâre pooled at my feet.
Iâm tempted to look back at Giorgio one more time, curious about his reaction, but at the last moment, I chicken out. My chin hovers over my shoulder. No matter how brave I try to be, I canât move it another inch.
With a deep breath, I turn back toward the water and take two steps until my toes curl over the edge. My pulse thunders inside my ears. I clench my fists and jump in.
Itâs not like the bikini provided a ton of extra coverage, so it must be a mental thing, but , the water is colder than I expected. I keep my head under as I swim to the other end of the pool. To swim back, I have to turn around.
Iâm breathing hard as I gather the courage to finally do it.
But when my gaze lands on the big window, Giorgioâs powerful silhouette is gone.
Thereâs no one there.
Heâ¦left?
Disappointment and embarrassment pass through me. I really thought I did something there, didnât I?
I glance down through the water at my bodyâs distorted shape and suddenly feel exceptionally ugly. Iâm not vain. Iâve never spent much time thinking about my looks or the shape of my body, but Iâve always assumed it was acceptable. My brother called me cute my whole life, which I guess doesnât mean much. Heâs my brother. Heâd be an asshole to say otherwise.
I spiral down memory lane, trying to dig up any evidence that Iâm not absolutely hideous. Guys have flirted with me before, although not often. I always assumed people stayed away from me because Dem can be extremely intimidating when he wants to, but what if thatâs not it at all? What if the problem is with me?
God, I feel stupid.
I swim to the edge of the pool and climb out as quickly as I can, my confidence shredded into pieces. If Giorgio says something about this, I think I might cry. I canât get into the damn robe fast enough, and I donât even bother pulling the bikini back on. It drips in my hand, leaving a wet trail on the ground as I hurry inside.
What I need is a shower and another dinner taken in my room. No way Iâm sitting down with everyone tonight.
I fly upstairs, scaling the steps two at a time. Thankfully, no one is around to see me. I donât know how Iâd explain to Allegra why I look like I didnât even bother patting myself down with a towel. I slip inside my bedroom and shut the door behind me.
My gaze drops to my feet just in time to see a drop of water roll down my calf.
Suddenly, I feel like crying.
Itâs one thing to have the courage to go after what I want and another to accept humiliation after humiliation in the process. How much more can I take?
No, Iâm not going to cry over him. I sniff and tip my chin up, forcing the tears back. So what if he just walked away? If he thinks Iâm ugly? Thatâs one manâs opinion, and Iâ
A palm closes over my mouth.
My eyes blow wide. âUngh!â
Before I can remember what Iâm supposed to do in this situation from my lessons, soft lips press against my ear. âI warned you, Martina.â
Giorgio. My body sags with relief.
But the feeling is short-lived, because the next thing I hear is the door clicking shut and the lock sliding into place.