âA Conspiracy of Ravensâ
Part Four A Conspiracy of Ravens My morning walk with the dogs: there is a figure jogging towards me on the beach, a small dog trotting at his heels. I turn to walk the other way.
âKirstie!â Benâs voice carries on the breeze. âKirstie....â
I ignore him and keep walking.
After a minute or so, there is panting and Ben appears at my side, breathing heavily.
âKirstie, pleaseâ¦.â
Perhaps I should find another place to walkâ¦.
ââ¦. We need to talk,â he says.
âI donât think so. I saw your idea of talking.â I keep moving, stepping up my pace a little, doing everything I can to discourage the conversation.
âPlease, Kirstie. Do you want me to apologise? Alright, I apologise. Is that good enough for you?â
I stop, turning to face him. âWhat exactly are you apologising for?â
His face falls. âIâm apologising for losing my temper as I did. It came as a bit of a shock, everything that you said, that Michael said.â
âAnd for threatening Charlotte?â
Now he reddens. âI wasnât threatening her.â
The dogs are picking up my mood, milling around me, jittery and nervous. Meg shows her teeth to Scruffy.
âYou were screaming and shouting at her, Ben. She tried to get away from you, but you shoved her. I saw it. You temper looked pretty much out of control to me.â
âI wouldnât have hit her.â He sounds sulky.
âPerhaps you should stand a little further away if you want me to believe that.â
His face drops and he backs away. âYou donât really think that Iâm the kind of man that attacks women?â
I wave around me, indicating the dogs. âWhat do I make of you, Ben? Even the dogs are reading you, your body language. Theyâre not happy. I barely know you, but quite a bit of what Iâve seen, I donât care for.â
âWell, there are things about you that I donât care for.â he snaps. âYou screw around, and you admitted to fucking my brother and him together.â
âThere was no-one involved in that that wasnât there because they wanted to be. No-one was coerced and everyone enjoyed themselves. And the same applies to Michaelâs arrangements with James and Charlotte. Itâs nothing to do with you.â
He stares glumly at the sand. âYou didnât have to call the police.â
âI didnât do it. You heard James. He asked Francis to call them. If he thinks youâre a threat to Charlotte, on another occasion Iâm not sure heâd bother with the police.â
He scuffles at the sand with a toe, then, âDo you really think I behaved that badly?â
I stare up to heaven. âI canât believe thatâs a serious question. Yes, I do. Youâve apologised to me, but I donât think itâs me you should be talking to. I think you really should be apologising to James, Charlotte and especially to your brother.â
Glowering, he wonât look me in the eye, instead staring out to sea. He nods, a sharp down-thrust of his chin, and then jogs back the way he came.
*****
When I return home that evening, Ryan is waiting for me, sitting in his car, working on a tablet on his lap.
I tap on the window and his face lights up as he sees me. âHave you been waiting long?â
âNot at all. I was passing, so I thought Iâd surprise you.â
âYou have. Coming in for coffee?â
âIf coffee is all Iâm being offered....â
And right on cue, my panties are wet.
Inside, I go through the motions of putting water on to boil, coffee in cups andâ¦.
Ryan is standing behind me, his hands resting on my waist, his face close to mine as he nibbles at an earlobe.
He turns me to face him, stroking my cheek, the line of my jaw and down to my neck where he has placed his mark on me, his ownership; the velvet band I wear around my neck, his gift to me.
âFeeling horny, are we?â I ask.
With the smile of a fallen angel, âOh, yes, and so are you. Donât think I donât know it.â
My body pliable in his arms, I curve into his embrace. âCoffee later, then?â
âAh-ha,â he says. âI have a few ideas.â
âIdeas?â
In the bedroom, he waits quietly while I draw curtains and light a couple of candles, then he moves to stands closer.
And he makes his move:
He strips me. Whereas previously he has undressed me slowly, now I am almost unwrapped. My dress is a simple knitted jersey, skin-tight and clingy, showing my curves. He smiles appreciatively, running his hands over my contours, over my neck and chest. He slides his hands down to the hem, then tugs upwards, peeling it up and off me, leaving me in bra, panties and shoes.
And my body reacts to his mock-violence; Iâm liquid and warm inside, readying for him.
âDo you trust me, Kirstie?â
My heart begins to pound. âTrust you? Why do I need to trust you?â
He smiles, clicks open his briefcase and produces silk rope, soft, pliable and, as he trails it over my skin, with a silky, sensual texture. âAre you willing to let me restrain you? To bind you? I did it before with my tie, but not properly. You donât know me very well. Are you happy for me to do that?â
Am I?
Do I trust him?
I doâ¦.
âYes, I think I am.â
âGood.â He kisses the nape of my neck, then roughly, I am scooped up, carried a few steps and dropped; simply dumped onto the bed.
Gasping as I land on the mattress, my hands are grabbed, the rope looping around, tying my wrists, and then pulled over my head. There are small metallic noisesâ¦.
â¦. as he tethers me to the bars of the bedheadâ¦
âLift your hips.â I obey, and something is pushed underneath, a pillow.
âI considered simply spread-eagling you.â he comments, as he produces more rope, âbut I decided that is not a position that gives me the access to your body that I would like.â
He reaches for my knees, looping the rope around, and then again back around the bedposts, drawing my legs open and back. My knees are lifted and splayed. He repositions the pillow, lifting my hips a little more, angling my pelvis.
As he adjusts my position, the bindings on my legs slacken a little and he readjusts the knots, spreading me wide.
âYou tie those knots like an expert,â I comment. âI thought you said you were new to this?â
He grins. âBoy scout.â
I bet they never had a badge for thisâ¦.