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Chapter 46 - Confessions
"No." I replied quietly as Jasper's face fell. "I can't marry you."
"Why, Scarlett?" He asked, his tone genuinely confused.
"I don't have to justify my reasons for not wanting to be tied down to a notorious serial womanizer - no offence," I replied as a look of anger flashed in his eyes.
"Scarlett, that is a bullshit reason and you know it," he snapped, still bent on one knee. "You know that I would cross a million fùcking oceans just to keep you safe and happy, yet you stand here and practically tell me you think I've reverted back to my old ways and I don't think -"
"Jasper?"
"Damn it, woman, I'm talking!" He replied irritably.
"Jasper?" I repeated as I raised my eyebrows at him.
"What?" He grumbled stroppily as I bit my lip, bending down a little and placing my hand on his shoulder to keep myself balanced before lowering my face to his.
"I would love to have the honor of being your wife, you absolute idiot," I grinned as he stared at me, dumbfounded.
"Scarlett!" He hissed as I stood up trying not to laugh.
"Yes, best future husband, who is totally going to forgive me for this?" I teased before holding my left hand out expectantly, as the expression on his face softened ever so slightly.
"I should slice that damned ring finger of yours, right off," he muttered, shaking his head.
"Stop being so dramatic and adorn my beautiful finger with the ring, slave," I ordered him as he raised an eyebrow at me before laughing.
"Am I even sure I want to be married to Christian Grey's female counterpart?" He smirked.
"Bìtch," I scoffed as I kept my hand held out. "Hurry up and marry me already."
"Oh, Lord, what the hell have I gotten myself into?" He murmured, before grinning broadly as he gently took my hand and slid the most beautiful diamond ring onto my finger as I gasped in awe.
It was an emerald cut diamond surrounded by smaller diamonds encrusted along the band.
It was absolutely beautiful.
"I take it you're a big fan of the ring then?" Jasper teased as he pulled me down onto his lap.
"I love it," I smiled as he dipped my body slightly before kissing my lips slowly, sensually as I moaned into his mouth.
"Fùck, I love you so much, Scarlett," he said softly as I smiled at him.
"I love you even more, Jasper," I murmured as he gave me a pointed look.
"Not possible."
"I think it is," I retorted in a sing song voice as his grip tightened around my hips.
"Oh, and Miss Valentina?" He growled lowly in my ear as I shivered.
"Yes, Mr Queen?"
"That little stunt of yours has seriously landed you in a lot of trouble," he spoke against my lips.
"Oh, bite me," I scoffed as he chuckled darkly.
"That," he began, taking my hand as we stood up. "Is exactly what I intend to do."
"I'll bet it is," I muttered, ignoring the surge of heat coursing through my veins.
"We still haven't had dessert yet," he pointed out as I stood up to leave.
"We can improvise," I smirked as he looked at me, proudly.
"And the student has become the master," he grinned happily.
"So what does that make you?" I teased as we made our way back to the villa.
"A monkey's uncle," he retorted as I raised an eyebrow.
"Quoting mediocre Disney movies, huh?"
"Only for you, baby," he winked sexily as I laughed at his idiocy.
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Hours later, we'd made it back home and suffice it to say, we were both exceptionally exhausted considering we had slept for less than five hours once we'd actually gotten back.
"Maybe twenty hours of travelling in one go was a bit too much," Jasper groaned as he lay on the bed wearing only his boxers.
"It was well worth it though," I countered before yawning loudly.
"Was that the sound of a yawn or an elephant giving birth to twins?" He laughed loudly as I threw an empty bottle at his head causing him to hiss at me.
"Get up and get ready, your family will be expecting us soon," I told him as I ran my fingers through my hair.
"What are you getting so worked up about, Scarlett?" He asked seriously as he sat up.
"It's nothing, Jasp," I reassured him as I opened up our closet to find something to wear.
"Hey," he said as I felt him wrap his arms around my waist. "What's the matter?"
"I'm... I've never had a real family like you have, Jasper, what if I'm no good at it? What if I end up hurting you or your mom or dad? You've seen the family I come from - a prison bound father and an aspiring Mafia wannabe mother," I told him as I felt a tear slide down my cheek. "What if I end up like her? Or him? What if I ever end up becoming a mother and I can't even show affection towards our children? What if -"
"What if you are the best mother in the world? What if you are the best daughter-in-law my parents could ever ask for? What if you are the perfect wife I don't deserve but like hell, I'm ever going to let go of?" He questioned as he brushed my tears away with his thumb. "What you really need to get through that beautiful head of yours, is that you are not like those monsters nor will you ever be like them. Scarlett, you are the most amazingly compassionate woman I have ever come across, besides my own mother, and if that doesn't count for anything, you tell me what does."
"It's just so damn hard, Jasper," I confessed, feeling a little pathetic. "I know it sounds incredibly whiny and stupid but I've always wanted my own father to be able to walk me down the aisle and warn my husband to keep his hands off of me when we're at the dinner table. Obviously that was always a fantasy and a half since in my circumstances it was never meant to be."
"That bà stard and the bìtch will never ever know or realize what they let go of, Scarlett," he told me as he shook his head. "But my mother and father love you more than they probably even love me. Dad has always said to me he can't wait to walk you down the aisle and my mother and Elena have already drawn up incessant wedding plans before any of them were even made aware of my plans to propose to you! I've told you once and I'll tell you again until you're repeating this in your sleep - you are my family now, Scarlett and you are everything I need to be a happy man."
"For a smooth talking Casanova, you can't be faulted on your ability of always knowing just what to say," I laughed as he grinned before taking my hand in his.
"Ready to go and make some history, Miss Valentina?"
"As soon as you've put on a pair of pants, Mr Queen," I quipped as he mimicked me before disappearing for a minute to change.
He knew me more than I even knew myself and it was as if every single day he had unearthed another hidden part of me without even realizing.
I looked at him as he walked away, feeling my heart swell with so much love for the cocky bà stard who had managed to put a ring on my finger.
God I really do love him with all that I am, I thought as he walked past me before pressing a gentle kiss to my forehead.
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A/N:
Hey Guys!
Did you enjoy chapter 46?!
How did you like the beginning of the chapter ;) ?
I'm so close to finishing the book and it feels so bittersweet!
Like on one hand I can't wait to finish so I can work on my other novel, but at the same time I don't ever want to let goooo!
Anyhoo, do let me know what you thought and would you like the next chapter to be in Jasper's POV ... Or nah? Let me know!
Next update: Before or by 09.08.2015
Love as always,
Ana