Last week was a pretty shitty week I'm not going to lie.
I think I fucked everything up last Tuesday when Ms. Reed told me her name. Ever since my comment, Ms. Reed hasn't bothered to talk to me. Not even once.
For volleyball she would call out everyone's name for attendance. Everyone's except mine. She wouldn't even bother to look at me to see if I was here. She just doesn't care about me anymore. I don't think she ever did though.
To make matters worse, she didn't even show up to detention anymore. All that was written on the board was 'have better things to do then be at detention.' I know I was a little upfront about what I said but I didn't think she would make such a big deal out of it.
Unless there's more to the story.
Also I was biking to Max's house the other day so we could play some 1v1 basketball on her outside basketball court but what do you know, my bike got a flat tire.
So yea, it's currently 7:40 AM and I am walking to Claudia's house so that she could drive me to school. I know the bitch is rich but I don't wanna have to pay for her gas if she drives to my house. I don't have that kind of money.
I finally made it to Claudia's house and it is 8:05. I could've made it there much quicker and not trying to be dramatic but my cuts still hurt from when Ms. Bodacious almost hit me with her car. I also spent about 5 minutes pretending to be in a music video when 'Bang Bang' by Ariana Grande, Nicki Minaj, and Jessie J came on.
Claudia comes out from her massive ass front door as soon as I enter the code to open up the gates that lead to her house.
"Do you seriously not realize I could've gone to your house and then driven you to school?"
Claudia raises up her sunglasses so she can look me in the eyes. I go sit in the passenger seat as Claudia sits in the driver seat with us having synchronicity as we do it.
"I don't have the money your parents do to be able to pay for gas every single time."
"Come on Jules. You know I would never make you pay for gas. Besides, my parents don't care. They only care if your shoes are dirty." Claudia goes to check my feet. "Which you don't even have them on."
Claudia stares up at me as she now see's the dirty shoes in my hands. I smirk at her while she rolls her eyes in return.
As soon as Claudia backs out of her driveway, she starts up conversation again.
"So how's whatever's going on between you and Ms. Reed going?"
This bitch is setting me up for failure.
She knows that I know how she feels about people having crushes on teachers. I love Claudia with everything and I want to tell her every single fucking detail but I know she won't respect it. Ugh whatever. Screw it.
"Claudia I don't want to get into this at whatever fucking time it is in the morning. What time is it? Fuck like 8." I turn to look at her for a second while her eyes are still concentrated on the semi-empty roads.
"If you want me to admit that I have a crush on Ms. Reed then fine. I have a fucking crush on her and you know what? I don't give a fuck if you hate it. She's like late 20s and I'm almost 19. The gap is smaller than your parents. So you have no right to say anything."
Claudia's eyes widen for a moment but then her face grows soft.
"Your right Jules I do have no right. I've only said what I've said because I know how you get when you like someone. You don't stop until you get them. I don't want you to risk you losing your scholarship and Ms. Reed losing her job and her going to jail."
I honestly didn't expect this from Claudia at all. But I am very very thankful in the way that she responded.
"Thank you for respecting this Clauds. I learned a lot last week and I really do like her and I know I shouldn't but the heart wants what the heart wants. She's been ignoring me and I'm so fucking tired of it."
I turn to look out the window as I can feel myself starting to become emotional.
Jesus, I'm so sensitive.
Claudia puts her hand on my leg as a gesture of reassurance. I love Claudia. I don't know where I would be without her by my side telling me that everything is going to be okay.
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It's the end of practice and I'm sure you guys can all figure out how P.E. (gym) and Volleyball practice went today.
Did you guess it?
If you guessed Ms. Reed ignored me the whole day today then congrats! You win the tears that will be streaming down my face later because of it.
It was clear that Maisie and Brooklyn knew that something was up. I haven't been playing my best lately but Ms. Reed didn't even do anything about it. If somebody else so on set the ball to the person Ms. Reed didn't want them to, she would make them run back and forth the basketball court.
All of this doesn't portray to make me look good either. I feel like people are thinking Ms. Reed has clear favoritism when it is in fact the complete opposite. At least she speaks with everyone else.
And on top of that I have no ride home. My bike is broken, Maisie ubers, Brooklyn lives across the street and I'm not getting into a car with Ashley. No offense.
Ms. Reed went into her office the exact minute practice ended.
While she was in there I am currently still in the gym just thinking. I came up with the realization that this might be the only time that me and Ms. Reed might be alone.
This time its a deathwish for both of us.
But it also gives me the opportunity to confront Ms. Reed about her non-existent presence and allows me to ask her for something else.
So here my feet go, making their way towards her office.
"Who's there?"
I can feel a diarrhea coming from my nervousness. Maybe this is a bad idea. Or maybe I should poop first and then I will be okay.
"It's me, Jules. Can I please come in?"
I hear no response back but she opens her door anyways. She had her bitch face on. The one she gave to everyone else except me on rare occasions. But now I am just like the rest of them.
"What are you still doing here Jules? Shouldn't you have left already? Hey, what are you doing?! I never said you could come in."
I barge into her healthroom without her consent. I knew it was going to piss her off but I don't fucking care.
"I don't have a ride."
"So, what do you want from me?"
She shuts the door so it's just us two alone in case there's anyone else in the school still here and potentially eavesdropping.
"Why have you been ignoring me?" I feel myself growing mad but I don't care. I don't plan on trying to hold my emotions back anytime soon.
"Ever since last week you haven't even talked to me or even glanced at me once. You talk to everyone else but me and I don't know why. What did I do that was so wrong to make you hate me so much?"
She just looks at me with a blank face on, proving my point.
"I haven't been ignoring you. I've just had no reason to pay attention to you. I'm sorry if you've been feeling this way and you should know more than anyone else that I don't favor people. I would never make a player feel like the odd one out."
Everything I'm hearing right now is such fucking bullshit. Just because she's a teacher doesn't mean she's right all the fucking time.
I know there is much more to this. She's just too pussy to say.
"Yea but even with my bad plays you don't say crap about them."
Ms. Reed clenches her jaw.
"Language Jules. I don't say anything about them because I trust that you can figure them out yourself. You're better than everyone in there. You can point out the tiniest mistakes other people can't. I trust you and trust that you will fix whatever you're messing up on."
I still don't believe anything but I'll just confront her about it another time.
"Fine. I do have a favor to ask you though." Ms. Reed looks at me with slight curiosity. "Can you drive me home?"
It doesn't even take her a second to respond.
"No."
I am not going to give up.
"Please Ms. Reed." This bitch better not make me pull out the begging hands. "My bike is at home with a flat tire and its a scorching hot day and I'm so worn out from volleyball and the school stairs and I feel so sticky and sweaty and if I go walk for like 25 minutes trying to get home then I'm going to feel like glue."
Ms. Reed sighs as she goes to her desks and turns off her computer.
I like where this is going.
"Fine. But only this one time and don't even think about asking any personal questions."
I try my best not to smile but inside my stomach is doing flips and jumping for joy. I'll try not to make this an awkward car ride but it is me at the end of the day. I can't promise anything.
We walk to her car without a word being said. Her beautiful BMW with no dirt anywhere on the white exterior.
The inside was even better. It was fully customized. The seats were a mixture of black and brown leather and the floors were black walnut floors.
Yes I know my floors.
"This is a very nice car. I didn't know teachers salary paid this much."
Ms. Reed looks at me with a stern face.
"It was a gift."
With no more to be said, Ms. Reed turns the car on and presses the gas.
She asks me what my address is so she can type it in into google maps. Her carplay was left on Apple Music and there was a playlist left on called "26 and Still A Bitch."
You've got that right.
But that means she's 26. So its only an 8 year age difference soon to be 7. Damn this couldn't get any better.
Throughout the car ride there was low music playing in the background. I spent the whole time examining every nook and cranny of her car and before I knew it we were already at my house. But I had one more plan in mind.
"Want to come in for dinner?"
"Get out."
I smirk as I knew that was going to be her reaction. Hey I saw an opportunity and I took it. Who knows she might've said yes.
As soon as I shut her car door she zoomed off. She didn't even wait for me to go inside my house.
Bitch.
But in the end, things did get a little better today. I'm still angry at her but more progress had been made after some was lost.
Who knows. Maybe one day I have to accidentally trip as soon as I get out of the car so she can come save me.
She says she won't drive me again but we all know that's a lie.